Skye was not thrilled about the snow yesterday.
The day started off with cereal in bed with my recovery boots and some reading….
Skye stood by the window watching the snow fall for a very long time.
We got ready and went to church.
And then came home and got to work on dinner making my mom’s lasagna!
Skye is a huge fan of my mom’s recipe and garlic bread… it’s all in our genes.
And then I brought out some ice cream with the perfect cookie dough to ice cream ratio.
Brooke came home from a great weekend!
Andrew was putting together some stuff for his shift today and Skye made sure to pack up his work bag with 50 packs of fruit snacks.
I’m excited for December 8th. Really excited.
I close my eyes and picture me, Emilee and our other 2 teammates crossing the finish line and seeing 2:44 on the clock above us probably too many times each day. I am willing to work harder than I ever have during our marathon in December and I know we can do really hard things. I really believe in it happening.
But. I’m also human.
The other day I was on Instagram (while on my period so my hormones were just not in a good place ha) and found a bunch of other girls that are also going for sub 2:45 for the OTQ at the same race and my brain got to me:
“They have six- (maybe even eight or ten) pack abs of steal… You can’t actually see any lines on my entire stomach even when I am flexing them.
They ran for different college teams… I definitely did not.
Maybe St. George was just a fluke because they are much more talented than I am.
They have previous PRs that are closer to that sub 2:45 time than I do…”
My brain was going on and on with thoughts like the above ones I am sharing and I finally yelled (in my head) at myself…
STOP. RIGHT. NOW.
We belong. Every single one of us belongs.
We all have different strengths and weaknesses but whatever the goal is that you are dreaming about, you belong and deserve to dream the way you dream.
Even people like Kara Goucher have had to remind themselves in races that THEY BELONG (from her Strong Journal).
It’s human nature to feel out of place at times and to come up with every reason on the planet that we don’t belong but we have to learn to stop those thoughts and talk to ourselves like we would to our best friends. If one of my teammates came to me and told me the same thoughts I was experiencing on Instagram the other day, I would grab them by their shoulders, look them in the eyes and give them a million reasons why THEY BELONG. We have to do the same to ourselves.
I am channeling EVERY SINGLE OUNCE of me into working with the incredible women at the race and being inspired by them to get our dreams rather than feeling like I don’t belong with them.
If you are ever at the starting line of a race and you feel like you don’t belong, you are not alone with that. We have all felt it at different times and so it’s time to talk to yourself like you would talk to your best friend!
Ever felt like you didn’t belong when it comes to running… what did you do to overcome that feeling?
What is your favorite meal that you grew up with one of your parents or family members making often?
Who else got some snow?
What’s your week of running looking like… a recovery week? Build-up week? Speed? Higher or lower mileage than normal?