Just a bathroom selfie at the park:) 33 weeks on Friday (I like doing my baby posts on Wednesday) and I think we are officially at the point where I can start counting down the days! 51 days!
*I have a race on Saturday (it feels like it has been forever) and it is a 5k! I will be running with a friend and hopefully seeing some running friends while I am there! It is going to feel so good to be in the race environment again (I miss it)! I’m always somewhere in the 9:?? pace for my runs these days and that feels best right now. More of my miles this last week were outside than inside because this fall weather is something else. I just plan my runs around park/trail bathrooms!
*She now weights a little over 4 lbs and she is about the size of a pineapple (oohhh pineapple sounds really good right now).
*Thank you Candice for bringing me these. They are amazing. I don’t like candy at night (nor do I like any food after 8 pmish) but in the afternoon, it tastes delicious again (chocolate candy more so than fruity candy)!
*Heart burn is a big part of my afternoons/nights now and I have 1.2 sleeping positions that are somewhat comfortable;)
*Fruit/smoothies/juice have been my longest going craving throughout this pregnancy. They just always sound good or taste good. I wish we could rewind to summer fruits but I also don’t miss the summer heat at all so I’ll just keep filling up on smoothies, juice and apples.
Yep, I can’t get enough of them. Please order a Caribbean Passion from Jamba Juice soon in my honor. Thank you;)
*From our 32 week doctor appointment where Brooke slept through the entire thing. PS those are coupons in my phone case… I just realized they were there when I was looking at this picture:) I see the doc again in another 2 weeks and then 2 weeks after that and then we see him once a week. We really like our doctor (he delivered my sister’s last two babies) and he has been really great to work with. I think I told him about 18 times this last appointment how tired I was but he just kept smiling and nodding and didn’t even tell me to stop repeating the same thing over and over to him.
*We are going to have three car seats in our back seat:) We thought about getting a bigger car but financially it just didn’t make sense and the two boosters and the baby’s car seat fit really well so they are all going to get to know each other really well back there.
Having her car seat makes it all feel more real! We decided on this one!
*Feeling her move around all day is really fun and I wear normal pregnancy clothes until the afternoon and then I go straight to pajamas for the rest of the day. Good thing the kids aren’t old enough to be embarrassed of me roaming around in pajamas all of the time.
*You are welcome Jen:) I am glad I can help others crave the same things I am craving right now. Hot chocolate is still a daily thing for me!
I wanted to talk today a bit about body image and pregnancy and of course hear your opinion on everything.
It’s amazing how much your body changes over the 40 weeks of pregnancy. Each week I feel like I am a different person. I have pretty much zero control over what sounds good (hence why I live off of carbs right now) or pretty much anything else during pregnancy! Add in those crazy hormones pumping through our veins when we are pregnant and who knows how we are going to feel about ourselves from one hour to the next.
The first trimester is the hardest as far as body image goes for me. No one knows you are pregnant and you don’t have a belly yet but you just gain weight kind of everywhere (for me at least) and feel awful/sick. Once the tummy is there and people know you are expecting, the weight gain is fine for me. Besides just your ‘weight’ changing though, pregnancy brings about so many other body changes that I think effect me even more… like people telling me that I look really tired pretty much daily, these weird big brown dots that show up all over my body in the weirdest of places, when I feel sick often it is just really hard to feel good about the way you look and some other body things I’ll spare you the details with right now. I have no idea how my weight has changed over this pregnancy (I don’t even know what I weighed before pregnancy) but my doctor says I am right on track with my weight gain.
For some reason, not knowing my weight just makes all of the changes easier for me, I’m not a fan of numbers. Every time I go in, I just step on the scale backwards and then I don’t even deal with numbers. The other thing that really helps me with my body image during pregnancy is—> just knowing that this is a stage of life. I went through all of these body changes with Brooke and then I got back to my normal running again and my normal clothes again (although, pregnancy does cause changes with our bodies forever ((I think)) but these babies are beyond worth that). Something I heard the other day that I loved and that makes me realize what is truly important—> Instead of worrying about what people think about how you look, focus on how you make them feel. That helps me put things into perspective big time. Buying maternity clothing that fits makes all of the changes so much easier too. Putting on clothing that doesn’t fit and is uncomfortable makes me think about my body all day long, wearing stuff that fits correctly and that is comfortable helps me to not even think about it at all. Running has also helped me a lot with this because getting outside, moving my body and feeling strong does wonders for me mentally. I think overall I definitely had a harder time with my body image when I was pregnant with Brooke because it really isn’t a thing for me right now BUT I think the hard part for me this pregnancy has been my self-image.
PS I hope this doesn’t come across as complaining, I’ll do anything to get to be the mom of another little girl… I just want to be real about my experiences mentally this pregnancy. I’ve prayed to have this experience for years but I just want to be honest about how these hormones have affected me emotionally…
This pregnancy I just have not felt like myself mentally… others experience this way more extreme than me but this has been something I have been working on the most during pregnancy. In the mornings I do more than any other time of day but with each hour after that I just feel less like me and I think that has been the hardest part on my brain with this pregnancy. I normally feel like the energizer bunny and like I want to be social all of the time and out doing things at night but with pregnancy, I feel the opposite after about 2 in the afternoon (unless I take a killer nap which I plan on doing today because I’ve got a baby shower tonight:). I start feeling more and more sick and down and washing my face at night almost makes me want to cry because it seems like too big of a task. I usually get in most of my work before then, write most of my post, run and try to do something fun with the kids but from then on… put me in bed and I’d be happy;) There is definitely some guilt that comes with that too because I feel like my energy levels are dragging down everyone around me. Especially because Andrew and I really haven’t been married that long (I’ve been pregnant more than not pregnant during our marriage) and I just don’t feel very nice/fun/exciting when I’m pregnant (poor guy). So, self-image is what I’ve had to work on the most with this pregnancy. Reminding myself that this is just a season of life and that I will feel normal again helps me the most! Pushing stop on everything (if I can) and just relaxing when I start feeling not great always helps and I’ve found that fresh air (even just sitting on a park bench while the kids play) helps my mood a lot too.
Why am I sharing any of this? Because if you are feeling like you are not yourself at all during pregnancy, I am right there with you (and I wouldn’t hate others reminding me too that I’ll feel normal again soon because I forget sometimes;). It’s hard but beyond worth it of course. Just know you aren’t alone with feeling like this! I’m excited to have my normal energy and normal personality back again, that will be fun (for everyone in this house… even Beretta:)
What about you… during pregnancy do you struggle with your body-image or your self-image?