Megan D and the 5 stages of RUNNING grief!

I can’t even tell you how excited I am to have Megan D here today. We met through the internet YEARS ago and she has become one of my best friends.  You will love her.  I learn so much from her every time I am around her and I am so happy she is here with us today:

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Hello HRG readers, my name is Megan.  AKA ‘Megan D’.  Why Megan D, you may ask?  Well, for one there are approximately one billion Megans in this world.  Okay so probably not, but I swear it feels like it.  As a result, the human population is always finding ways to distinguish each of us Megans apart.  People have always created nicknames for me.  I mean, if Janae just referred to me as ‘Megan’ this image might pop in your head.

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But that isn’t me!  How confusing! I am not Muncher Cruncher Megan.  We can’t have that mix up happening.  So I am Megan D.

Actually, she calls me ‘Megan D’ because that is the name I use when I comment on her blog.  You may have seen my comments. You may have gotten a cramp in your hand with all the scrolling you have to do to get PAST my comments.  They are novel length and I have no shame about it.

I started reading HRG almost 5 years ago.  I loved reading it daily and I could relate to Janae in so many ways. One day (about 4.5 years ago) she did a reader meet up in St. George after her race.  I happened to be down there on a vacation with some friends.  I decided to go to the meet up so I could meet Janae in person (with my friends mocking me about how this was like a blind date and super weird all along the way).  She was every bit as awesome in person as she was on her blog and so we became friends.  In hindsight, and after looking at this picture, perhaps she took pity on me and how awkward I am in pictures.  maybe she thought she could turn me into a service project (cue makeover scene in clueless) and help me to step out of my personal picture taking bubble (I always feel like I am SOOO close when we take pictures.  Then I look at the picture and I am always off to the side.  Standing super awkward) since she takes 100 pictures a day.

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5 years later.  Nope.  didn’t work.

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(Hey guys.  That’s me.  I threw the donut themed shower.  I mean, I will just pause here and give you a moment to type out any praises you have for me in the comment section below.  Take your time. Tell me specifics.  Much humble.  All the praises.  Okay, back to the blog.)  I am just so happy for Janae and Andrew right now.  On a side note, my youngest turns 2 in a few weeks and I am planning on reusing all the decorations for her birthday party.  Two for one, people.  I am not sure what that says about Janae (or me as the party planner) that I can recycle a 30 year old’s bridal shower as a 2 year olds birthday, but I don’t really care.  Moving on.

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A little about me.  I am a mom to 3, a wife, a lover of PB, food, hashtags #YepIamThatAnnoyingPerson #SorryNotSorry and all things random.  I also love(d) to run.  I started running in college after I had stopped dancing and needed some form of exercise in my life.  Growing up I remember my dad running and when I was home for a weekend during summer break he encouraged me to go for a run with him.  It was my first ‘real’ run (i.e. not a warm up for some other sport I was playing).  We went 3 miles and I thought I was going to die.  Apparently when you feel like you are going to die, you also think, ‘Hey, I should keep doing this now.  Only more often #RunningIsWeird

That was 14 years ago.  Running is addicting.  People always ask me why I run and I tell them ‘For the feeling when I STOP.’ However, I have always kept my mileage low and cross trained a lot because I tend to get injured easily.  I have had IT band syndrome, plantar fasciitis, runner knee, and currently what doctors THINK is proximal high hamstring tendinopathy.  I have had this current injury for 3 years.  THREE. YEARS.  Not something I have been diagnosed with, gone to physical therapy, do the exercises and 3 months later it is gone like the other injuries.  Over the course of 3 years I have gone to several Drs, chiropractors, different physical therapist, had 3 different MRI’s, a cortisone shot in the most awkward of places, dry needling, ASTYM, and on and on.  But to no avail.  I can’t run even a mile without pain.

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As runners we all (well like 95% of us) have, or will have, an injury at some point.  Most of us get diagnosed, do our exercises/treatment and cross train during said injury and then ease our way back into running.  But what if you can’t?  What if it goes on for 3 years?  Let’s talk about the 5 stages of grief and how they relate to running injuries.

1. Denial:  This isn’t an injury.  It’s just pain.  Pain associated with running (Again #RunningIsWeird) and I can push through this.  I will just push through this temporary pain and everything will be fine.

2. Anger: Everything is NOT fine and I can’t even walk without limping.  This is so freaking dumb.  If I see another runner out enjoying this beautiful day I am going to run them over with my van full of children.  Ugh.  This is the worst.  (drama NOT added for emphasis).

3.  Bargaining:  If I can just get an answer as to what is wrong with me, I will be fine.  I just want answers.  I will do everything the Dr/PT tells me to do.  I will be grateful to run just recreationally.  No more dreams of doing another marathon, of running Boston one day (sniff) I will stick to short distances and be fine.  As long as I get to JUST RUN!

4.  Depression: What is the point of even trying?  I have tried so many different Drs and therapies and nothing works.  I have drained our HSA account (and then some) for nothing.  I should give up trying because sometimes it is easier to NOT try then KEEP TRYING and not get results.  I mean, if I am not going to run either way…

5.  Acceptance: I took a break from Drs and treatments.  Doesn’t mean I won’t ever try to run again, but I need the break mentally.  I can keep trying to work through this injury.  I can keep trying to find answers and hopefully run again.  But if I never do, it isn’t the end of the world.  You know why?  Because running isn’t WHO I am.  My kids don’t need me to run to be a good mom.  My husband doesn’t need me to run to be a good wife and I don’t need to run to be a good person.  Sometimes I move through these stages of grief again (I’m looking at your race days on Instagram) but for the most part I feel like I have, at the very least, accepted this injury.

When I die and people are at my funeral, do I want them to be talking about how I was the best mediocre runner? That I always made sure to get my miles in? Or do I care if they talked about how I served others?  How I was there to help people in need?  That is what I care about.  It was easy to set running goals.  I am not saying they are easy to reach, but they were easy (for me) to make.  New PR? Check.  Goal setting done.  It is rewarding to see the progress I made in running.  But now I can’t.  I don’t have that instant feeling of accomplishment from hitting a run at my target pace or setting a new PR.  They don’t have races on the step mill (aka the sweat climber and my, now, cardio BFF) yet.  So I find other exercise plans or complete other exercise programs and check them off to get that feeling of accomplishment.  Some goals are exercise related, some are not.  Sometimes I have had to shift my priorities elsewhere to get the same feeling.  So far, I have survived;) but I am still holding on to the hope I will be a runner again.

Anyone else super awkward when you get your picture taken?

Do you like your name?  Is your name common?

I made sure to give my kids less common names because of my situation.

Do you have a nickname you go by instead?

Megan the motormouth.  If you actually made it to the end of this article, you get why.

Have you been injured long term?  With what?

If you have never been injured let me quickly go through the 5 stages of how I feel about that.  “Are you serious?  I hate you.  Actually, I just wish I could BE you…cause I stink.  That is so awesome for you!  Good luck on your next race!”

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Read this as I sit awaiting my first P/T session for a stress fracture! I am totally working thru these grief stages. Thank you for this post so I don’t feel like I am the only runner NOT running and that my feelings are normal!

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I hope your first appointment went well and you heal up fast and are back out there soon (but not TOO soon ;) ) You definitely aren’t alone.

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I’ve definitely been there and am currently there, in the injury recovery. I had a mysterious fracture in my ankle which I’m trying to recover from. I know missing running and those feelings are normal.

I’m probably the most awkward person in photos too…we probably shouldn’t take photos together LOLZ. ;)

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Or maybe we SHOULD take pictures together. It would be, at the very least, very entertaining. Good luck with your ankle!

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I’m currently just getting over an injury that’s plagued me for months (darn Achilles), so this post hit home haha. I have gone through every single one of those stages, so I feel you. Injuries are the worst, but they come with the territory. For me, I was being as smart as possible, but my injury stems from a larger genetic issue, so there wasn’t a lot I could do to stop it, it was apparently only a matter of time. That being said, I’m still getting back on the wagon and trying my hardest to be firm in my fitness, but fluid in my methods.

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Good luck with your achilles. Sounds like you are smart and balanced with your approach to fitness and life!

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I am going through this exact injury and can’t believe you have had this for 3 years! I’ve only had it for 7 months and I feel like I’m going to lose my mind and I’m not even a serious runner. I have a stressful job and I didn’t realize how much running helped manage my stress until I couldn’t do it anymore. No other exercise works as well as pounding the ground. You nailed it with those 5 stages. I’m currently going thru PT with ASTYM treatments after a MRI confirmed the diagnosis. But it honestly doesn’t seem to be helping and I too have drained my HSA account. Super frustrating, but glad to hear I’m not alone in this ridiculous healing process. Thanks for sharing!

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Ugh! So lame. I am sorry. Everything I have read basically says once you have had this injury, you have it for life. Like you can get better, but you have to be on top of your game to keep the injury at bay. And yes. Just the other day my husband let my son go off a bike jump he built…without a helmet on! Well, my son knocked his 2 front teeth loose (luckily they are his baby teeth) and I haven’t craved a run that bad in a long time. I wanted to smack my husband upside the head so bad and the running usually prevents stuff like that from ACTUALLY happening ;) Ha!

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I ended up getting surgery to repair my proximal hamstring. Most Dr’s told me to deal with it after every possible treatment aand money spent. then I went to a good friend who is an incredible ortho and recently returned to practice in our area. Immediately he said I will see you in two days to repair this…best choice I did not have to make on my own. It is now solid and stronger than my other hammy. It was a horrible recovery but obviously well worth it.

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I lack decision making skills (how I got married, I will never know) so that would have appealed to me as well ;) That is so great that you were able to fix your problem. I can only imagine what recover from a hamstring surgery would be like. Maybe one do I won’t have to imagine :(

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I also relate one side has been 7 years on and off . THE other side completely tore so I had surgery which was an awful time but the best thing I did. I would actually
Prefer the other side to tear completely so I’m forced to have surgery there too! Years of this have caused too many imbalances to count!

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I completely relate to you awkward and injury prone. I hope you finally get it figured out but you seem to be at peace with it and that is all that matters. Besides, I think you have an awesome career as a party planner ahead of you should you ever want it….:)

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Haha. I am glad you took the time/break to give me compliments on the party planning (as per my suggestion). I appreciate it ;)

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LOVED your donut-themed party and that you can use it for all ages! :)

I actually really like my name and the nicknames I have. Some people call me Nattles or NatMer or NatMer Bear, and my sister calls me Nattie a lot. I also really like giving people nicknames.

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My maiden name is Overman and my favorite nickname I had was OverMeggerMan. I don’t know why. lol. Have a great day NatMerBear!

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Do you have a blog Megan D? This was such a great post..first you have me cracking up because you’re hilarious, then you have me tearing up over your strength and resilience. I can’t imagine what you’re going through with such a long, lingering injury, but thank you for sharing that with all of us today. Janae is lucky to have someone like you in her life (and I love the story of how you two met! p.s. you don’t look awkward at all!)

I have a pretty uncommon name, so for the most part I like it. Except when people tell me it sounds like a witch’s name…but most people call me Gretch!

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I absolutely love the name Gretchen. I actually have 2 friends who have daughter’s with that name :) I am glad you liked my post because lets just say after I sent it to Janae I was a nervous wreck wondering if anyone would even like it, if they would wonder why I was even writing a post, if it was even coherent at all. So you have made my day. If I am this much of a wreck over one post, you can see why I don’t have a blog. Haha.

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i take super awkward pictures as well. I don’t like standing too close and i always feel uncomfortable throwing my arms around strangers..so i dont and end up a foot away like you haha. My name is Cori- definitely not common, but the unusual names get the other side of things. Like when you’re little at a souveiner shop and the only Cori is CORY for boys. Or Corrine, which isn’t your name.

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Maybe there is a class we could take together that would help us overcome our fear of standing too close to other people in photos. Randomly, the first Cori I ever knew was a girl and spells her name just like you, but I also have a father in law named Corey.

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Yes!! I have had plantar fasciitis for anbout 2.5 years now and I just started being able to kind of run in the last few months. The most I can do is about 3 (mmaaayyybbee 4) miles right now and that’s with pain making a showing around mile 2. So we’ll see if I ever get back to that blissful 13.1 again but I pray I do!! I totally get the grief cycle. Not being able to run (though not the MOST important thing in life) is really hard. I’ll be sending good vibes your way! Long term injuries are the worst!!!
Funny thing: I came super close to being named Megan but instead I’m Alyssa, pronounced like Alisa. So nobody ever gets my name right haha
Loved hearing from you Megan D! I’m an internet friend of Janae’s too (I live in SLC), so we should all meet up sometime :)

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Well, people get my name right, but when someone yells ‘Megan!’ there are like 4 people that turn around and say ‘What?’ ;) I am sorry about your foot. That is a long time for plantar faciitis. But yay for finally running again! I agree, running isn’t everything, but it sure is fantastic. I hope you get to your 13.1 again someday!

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I totally get this. For the last two years I have been dealing with what I thought was a hip flexor or groin injury. Nope, it turns out that my organs are in the wrong place due to a surgery I had on my stomach/esophagus, so the fascia around said organs has tightened up to protect everything and it’s basically in a permanent tight position. I’ve got treatments to do to help it, but unlikely that it’ll ever be “cured”. I have dreams of running Boston again but mostly i have dreams of just being able to run long distances without tightness. Maybe one day, right?! But you are 100% correct, running isn’t who I am, it is just part of me and certainly not the most important part. Good luck with your injury, hopefully they get it figured out and you are able to run again!

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Yikes! That sounds intense….and something that would be incredibly challenging to ‘fix’. Sounds like you are still able to run as long as you stay on top of your treatments. I know it isn’t far and it isn’t Boston, but at least it is something…right?! Thanks for leaving the comment to know I am not alone. Maybe one day we will both run far again!

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I am ALWAYS super awkward when I have my picture taken — I over think it and end up lost with this “where do I put my hands” look on my face… O_o

My name is Susan — and I’m barely 30 — so I go by Susie because I feel like all the other Susans I know are a generation ahead of me :(. And don’t even get me started on my middle name — so much older than I am…

I honestly am so scared to get injured — and sidelined — I will cross my fingers and toes and legs and eyes and arms to avoid injuries! ^-^

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Let’s face it. Picture taking ISN’T natural so it isn’t our fault ;) I have a friend Nancy and friend Barbara (both 33 yrs old) that feel the same way about their names as you do about yours. haha. But now you have me curious as to what your middle name is.

I will keep mine crossed for you too cause it isn’t fun!

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Oh my gosh, I can relate 100% with you and all those feelings about an injury. I have had back/neck pain on my left side for almost 3 years now and I have to keep my mileage low because of it too. I have seen over 30 doctors for it and nothing. No answer and thousands of dollars later. It is so frustrating. This post came at such a perfect time as today I wrote all about dealing/coping with my pain on my blog post today. Thanks for sharing you story!

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Well now I am off to read your blog post. Maybe we could start a club. The ‘Spend lots of money for no answers’ club. Sounds depressing. I think we might have a hard time getting people to join.

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I have an unsual name (in 36 years I have met only one person with the same name). I hated it in childhood – too weird, too many questions, too much attention. I like it now a lot.
Gave my son a not-so-usual but everybody-knows-it name.

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I know a Danica! My mother did a similar thing with us. She has an unusual name, and gave us super common names because she always hated it. Now, I will probably give my kids more unique (but not insane) names. And the circle continues…

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I have a niece named Danika and I had a neighbor a few years ago names Danica. Too funny. For what it is worth, I like your name :) I didn’t give my kids weird names (like Northwest and Apple) I just didn’t want them to be so common that they had a dozen other kids in their class with the same name. So far, so good.

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I love this post! I definitely go through phases where I feel like if I’m not running/can’t run, I don’t have an identity anymore. It’s important to remember that there is so much more to life than just running, and even though it’s great to be able to do it sometimes and to enjoy it, it’s not the end-all, be-all! There is so much more to life that is enjoyable and nourishing to your body. I went through all of these stages of grief when I was dealing with a hip flexor tendonitis issue from overtraining and it took so long to realize that pushing myself isn’t always the best thing I can do – I think runners are more alike than anyone in the mindset of push-push-push to get better-better-better but then we forget to listen to our bodies, for which keeping our bodies in tip-top shape is the reason we run in the first place. There is usually a silver lining and it looks like you found it! Enjoy life and hopefully running or something else new but just as good finds its way to you in the future :)

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You are so right. Running is fantastic and I want it so badly to be a piece in my puzzle, but it doesn’t make up the entire puzzle picture. How is your hip flexor doing now? Its’ hard to not push through a run so you can just have that ‘finished’ feeling when in reality that one run isn’t going to make you, but it can definitely break you. I hate the saying ‘No one regrets the workout they did. Only the one they didn’t do’. Not true. Not. true.

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Number 2. So much. Seeing happy, uninjured, oblivious runners out and about definitely made me want to drive off the road and more. I’ve been injured for the past 2 years and while I am doing some running again, it is really sporadic and still painful. But I can run now, so I’ll take it. Donut bridal shower? Amazing. Can we be friends? And then you can throw me a queso-themed bridal shower. After we make my boyfriend get around to proposing lo.

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I think we should be friends. Would you be more comfortable being the driver or passenger in the van as we run over happy runners? Tell your boyfriend to take his time at proposing. I am going to need a while to figure out how to throw a queso-themed shower….but, challenge accepted.

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ooh tough choice…maybe passenger? I am an excellent navigator. As far as the shower, I’ll give you an idea to kick it off. queso fountain! :)

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Yassssss

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I do like my name but there are not many “Kathy’s” out there any more…everybody is a Katie, Katy, Kaitlynn, Kelsey, etc….however, my best friend through 6th grade was also named “Cathy”. (albeit with a “C”) Rather than being Kathy with a K or Cathy with a C ~ I always added my middle name “Jo” short for Josephine. Thus, Kathy Jo or later to be called KJ.

Great post….bummer about the hamstring injury stuff….if you blog you should add your website. ;-)

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Ha! My neighbor growing up was Katie Jo. Like Kathy Jo, it has a nice ring to it. And there are So. Many. Kate/Katelyns!!! It is a cute name though!

I don’t have a blog, but thank you for comment :) I appreciate it!

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I can’t run at all anymore due to an injury in my foot that was never diagnosed or treated properly. I think it’s been around 4 years. It used to bother me a LOT to see other runners running, it’s definitely lessened with time. I bike now instead and really enjoy that. Maybe you can find something else that can take the place of running.
My name never gets spelled right, even by friends and relatives, and I’m always told that it’s a boys name.

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My husband loves mountain biking and wants me to get into that with him. It is definitely a great workout. Just a little more difficult to do with small kids at home. Maybe it will be something I can do in a few years when my littlest starts school. Going for a run is just so much easier (to schedule). I am glad you found something you enjoy as much as running! You are giving me hope :) And Corry most definitely a girls name too!

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I have a very awkward gummy smile when pictures. It’s very attractive. My name is common (Michele) but 42 years ago it was very uncommon to only have one L in it. So my name always got called out as Michael. Thankfully my Dad gave me the most uncommon weird nickname on the planet at birth. It’s Chot. Where it came from, how it got that, I dunno. But most people refer to me as Chot.

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Have you asked your dad where Chot came from or how it happened? Too funny. I have the same gummy smile too. I have more gums than teeth and it takes a very conscious effort on my part to not show it all when I am smiling. If someone gets a picture of my ‘real’ smile or me while I am laughing, you will see it. It can’t be controlled all the time ;)

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Per my Mom: My Dad is notorious for mispronouncing things. Example, he once called a lady who’s name is Miss Dupuis, by calling her Miss “Do-Piss”, instead of Miss “Do-Pway”. So this name of Chot, saying it the same as ‘shot’ was born because he totally botched up some fancy name he thought he was calling me. And the botched name stuck.

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I love it. Hey. I would take Chot over Do-Piss. Amirite?

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I loved this post!! I have dealt with multiple injuries over the last year and a half and have basically reached the acceptance stage. I will enjoy the miles I can get pain free (usually 1-3) and accept the pace will never be what it used to be. It’s hard to see my friends smiling big in race pics and having every.single.person ask me when my next race is or how my running is going. Instead of explaining my million injury issues, I just say I’ve retired from races. Do I still get sad? Of course. But like you said, I can shift priorities now. Life isn’t about training or racing, it’s about being healthy and enjoying the exercise you can do.

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That is one of the hardest parts for me…when other people ask when my next race is. Or why I didn’t run ____ race. I’m like, I can’t run! Leave me alone. Haha. Lets go for a 1 mile run and talk about it sometime ;)

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Hahaha Megan the motormouth. I’m a Meagan too! I think a lot of people around our age (we probably aren’t the same age, but close enough) have the name Me(a)gan I was nicknamed “empty” for a long time because there was another Meagan in my class and my initials were MT.

Trying to run with injury sucks! It is super hard to see other people out running and free because any little bit I do causes a chain of pain stemming out from my back. It’s been 2 years (tomorrow) since I herniated my disk and I have up moments and down moments. I’m currently in a down trying to fight my way back to an up.

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Empty. Haha. That is creative. People in high school just usually called me by my last name. I was on drill team. 20 girls. 4 megans. It was ridiculous.

Oh man. I am sorry about your back. I hope you find your way back up…and soon!

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SO sorry to hear you are going through this!! I have a pelvic stress fracture right now, but I can’t imagine thinking no running forever.

On a side note, about your joke of races on the stair mill, there are races of climbing the stairs of sky scrapers…look into it maybe. I bet it has all the atmosphere of race day energy and personal competition!

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I had a pelvic stress fracture years ago from running. Crazy that you can get one from running right?! You’ll be good as new soon. Good luck!

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My husband was just telling me about this. Too bad there are no sky scrapers near me. Guess I will have to plan a vacation and do a destination race. Darn ;)

Sorry about your pelvis. I hope it heals up quick and you DON’T ever has to think about no running forever.

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Lol, I love that you can reuse the party decorations! That is awesome!

I’ve had minor running injuries. Nothing long term. I tend to get stupid injuries because I’m clumsy. 2 months ago, I broke my little toe on the corner of my bed. After about a week, I was able to run with just some pain. Last week, I busted my big toe on the other foot. There was a large paving brick just sitting in the middle of the sidewalk and I nailed it with my foot. It was randomly there and I didn’t see it because I was talking and not paying attention. I don’t think it’s actually broken because it’s not swollen or bruised but it’s almost a week later and it still hurts to even walk on it. I haven’t been able to run again yet. Too much pain still. Of course, I haven’t gone to a doctor.

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Who leaves a paving brick in the middle of the sidewalk?! I wouldn’t claim being clumsy on that one. I would say that is someone being lazy and not picking up after themselves. Placing blame on others….maybe I should add that to the stages of grief….

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You are hilarious! And awesome! Great post! :)

I have (officially/finally) had my ankle diagnosed with an ankle impingement (old scar tissue is getting sucked into my joint and turned into hamburger basically) just this week. Ive struggled with it off and on since I was 19 (omg almost 10 years ago…). It hasn’t let up in pain and inflammation since the beginning of May though so I finally gave in and went to the doc. I got a steroid shot to help get rid of all the inflammation and I am hoping it goes back to normal (for awhile) after it wears off. It’s not a continual injury, its so random and can flare up just if I happen to step at an angle my ankle doesn’t like. Anyhoo – my boyfriend is an awesome mountain runner so to say I have been in the anger/depression stage for awhile is an understatement. LOL.

But like you said..running isn’t WHO I am. My injury/problem is nothing compared to yours. I admire your strength (mental and physical) and resilience! It is very inspiring.

P.S. I need to find someone in my life who throws doughnut themed parties. lol! Very cute theme!

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10 years man. You GET it! Sucks that you get it though!! My husband only started becoming more active in the last 3-4 years, of course. He just ran a 5k on the 4th….they offer a 10k too and I used to do it every year while h cheered for me. This year I was on the sidelines cheering for him. I am so happy he has become healthier, but it was hard that morning watching him run a race that I love to run.

I (and some of the drs and PT) think the built up scar tissue is my hamstring/adductor is what is preventing me from getting all the way healed and why the pain has become chronic. Good luck with your ankle and thanks for the comment. I am glad (but not really) that you can relate.

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I was just diagnosed with ankle impingement in both ankles in May. I also have bone spurs so that sucks. I had cortisone shots and now I’m contemplating having it scoped to get rid of the bone spur, but I really don’t want to do that unless I have to. Anyway, in a misery loves company sort of way, it’s comforting to hear someone else has to deal with this too.

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You should seriously have a blog.
I’m so sorry about your injury : / That just sucks.
I randomly started getting headaches all day everyday starting last June. I went thru a ton of treatments and dr’s but basically “nothing’ s wrong.” Thankfully, they kind of started to go away in the spring for the most part but i feel your pain (har har) when it comes to long term pain. It’s frustrating (at best).
FWIW- your post was really funny though!

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You are so sweet. Thank you for the nice comments. I am sorry about your headaches and lack of answers. So frustrating indeed. I am glad you are on the mend!

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Such a great post! Love the stages…so true! Very rare that I meet another Toni. The donut themed shower was a great idea! I am battling a plantar fasciitis flare up {again} and am throwing everything I can at it: stretching, cortisone shot, epsom salt soak, icing, hip strengthening exercises, cross training…and am taking the month of July off from running. I am hopeful that some combination and the month off will supernaturally make it go away for good. Running doesn’t define me, but it is hands-down the most enjoyable exercise for me. And good lawd, I’m definitely a more pleasant person when I get to run!

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Ain’t that the truth! And it requires more planning and time for me to get to gym and do the stepmill to release those endorphins than throwing on my running shoes and heading out the door. Which is why I will still keep trying to have running a part of my life. Good luck with your plantar fasciitis. I was lucky with mine and after a month or so with therapy, stretches/exercises and new shoes, it went away.

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Please start a blog, please start a blog, #pleasestartablog. :) Loves this post!

You are my running kindred spirit, except my body’s choice of injury is stress fractures. Multiple, repeat, rinse. I have literally experienced every phase of grief with almost identical thoughts. But as much as I love running (slow, minimal miles), I love being present and focused in the other 98% of my life even more. My priorities straightened out quite nicely when I hit stage 5 (and had every single thought you had too). I miss the run, but I’ve realized I’ll survive.

Thanks for the hilarious and very real post. #allthepraises

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I think stress fractures are the one thing I haven’t experienced. Not that I want to and it sounds like you have had enough for the both of us. #NoBueno

If anything could convince me to start a blog #ItIsYourUseOfHashtags #WellPlayed #Well #Played

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Awesome post Megan D.

I love the camera…so awkward photos aren’t really a thing for me.

My mom gave me a name that was uncommon growing up (more common now) and also spelt it weird….soooooo…I have to spell my name EVERY time I tell it to someone…cue violins cause it gets tiring…plus nothing EVER has my name on it!

I suffered/suffer occasionally from ITBS…couldn’t run for 6 months as I really pushed it too hard once. I’m awful for doing my exercises until I feel better and then not doing them anymore….bad patient. I am happy that you have gone through the stages of not running and have , for now, come to terms with it! I would like to know which treatment caused all your leg discoloration.

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ITBS is not fun. It sidelined me for a few months before. But then I met my best friend, the foam roller, and if I make sure to have daily dates with it, I can keep that injury away. The bruising in the leg picture is from a very aggressive treatment of ASTYM /Gua sha from the famous Josse that is on the blog all the time. This was the first treatment. Subsequent ones weren’t as bad. I used to go weekly and it definitely helped with the pain, but it wasn’t helping me find the CAUSE of the problem.

Will you teach me to love the camera?

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Megan D. You NEED to email/contact me. I have the same diagnosis on my left hamstring and have went through just about everything. This was 1.5 yrs ago this happened. I am no thinking of trying another procedure that is up and coming.

If you can please email me at tjelfert4@gmail.com

I would love to talk to you about this…

:)

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Boo on these hamstring/glute issues! Sounds a lot like me, although I didn’t get an official diagnosis of that yet. I’ve been struggling with it quite a bit lately. Stop by and visit if you’d like. I’m curious what you’ve done about your issue. This might sound familiar…
http://techchickadventures.com/2016/06/taking-a-break-and-switching-things-up/

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Just sent you an email :)

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Just sent you an email

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Megan D. this post has me cracking up this morning. I laugh not at you, but with you. I’m currently stuck in the stages with a recent stress fracture, but realistically, I’m always a chronic “in the stages” injury prone runner. Do I want to be remembered as a “mediocre runner”, your humor is so real, so human. You are awesome. Seriously, start a blog. Janae is one lucky girl to have you as a friend. Great job on the donut themed shower and the reuse for the birthday. Brilliant!

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My head hurts from the swelling due to the compliments. I will get used to it I am sure. Hopefully. I don’t want them to stop, so keep them coming my way.

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I love this post!! You should do your own blog if you don’t already!! I have had sciatica and IT band problems along with lower back pain for the past three years. I have still kept running but it has become increasingly painful. I can so relate to your agony!! You are hilarious!! I also take awkward photos, I always end up looking really goofy for some reason. I know I need to find something meaningful to do with my life as I am getting quite old.

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Do you receive treatment to manage your pain? If it is continuing to get worse I hope you can get help with it before it sidelines you. Unless you want to come hang out on the stepmill next to me at the gym? I would appreciate the company and we could take awkward pictures of ourselves to document it all. Let me know what you think.

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I can see why Janae loves you. You’re hilarious, and you clearly know how to throw a kick ass shower. I am also a big fan of your recycling efforts. #thrifty #smart #allageslovedonuts

I hope you get to the bottom of your injury issues so that you can do long runs someday. Try to refrain from running over happy healthy runners with your van full of kids, however tempted you might be. :) I have been relatively (knock on wood!) injury free now for my 12 years of running, with just occasional bouts of plantar fasciitis and sore knees. I’d be devastated if I couldn’t run regularly, and my husband would likely run away from home, ’cause I’d be cranky, too. I’d probably rent a van, just to run him over a lil’ bit.

Do you have a blog? If not, why not? I mean, other than the three kids and super busy life, I mean…

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I am basically Al Gore. Saving mother earth. Recycling. One bridal shower at a time. I’m going to stitch that on my cape.

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I had shin splints all through high school. Not like off and on, but all the time (with other injuries to go with it) They ended up turning into stress fractures because I stayed in the denial phase for too long. Luckily once that happened I figured out the whole listening to body and dr thing and stopped running long enough to give them a good rest. Now I’ve (I think) mastered the getting back into running slowly thing. I really fight that urge but I think I do better than I did in high school with it.

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Its hard when you are in the middle of an a run to look at the big picture. I just want to enjoy this run. I will just finish this painful run and listen to my body. I will stretch and ice and be smart. I won’t run if it hurts TOMORROW. Oh hey tomorrow. Look at you gorgeous running shoes. Lets just SEE if today brings different results. The cycle continues.

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Every single time!

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First of all, your donut themed party was amazing! It was so cute and just perfect, why not reuse it?! It’s too cute to not reuse it!!! I’m pretty sure your child will be ecstatic to have such a beautiful party just for her!

Second, your post on the photos- I am just like you. I hate taking pictures…. I’m definitely not one of
Those photogenic persons and I hate taking selfies. I’d rather ask someone to take a pic of me from a little distance away.

Thanks for sharing about your injury and the five stages.. It was very helpful to see that.

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I’ll take pictures of you from far away if you will be the one to do it for me. Deal?

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I am ok in pictures unless my mom is taking them. She doesn’t seem to think sitting down to take a picture is be a problem. IT IS MOM…. I DON’T NEED PEOPLE TO SEE THE SOMETIMES THERE, SOMETIMES NOT, DOUBLE CHIN! lol

My name is fairly common. I have a cousin who is a few months younger with the same first and last name. Growing up we had to use our middle names, Kelly Sue (me) and Kelly Rose (cousin). Now we are both married so no middle name necessary. In school for like 3 years I had to add my middle name which I am not a fan of to begin with. I do have 1 nickname. I camp with a large group of people who re-enact the time period around the American-Indian War. It is a lot of fun! I however made the mistake of bringing cupcakes out to camp ONE TIME and now my nickname is cupcake. It is official and in the log book for the camp meetings. Trust me, it could have been A LOT worse. We have some not so nice names for people. But it is all in good fun! =)

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I’d be hungry every time someone called me by my nickname, if that were the case. I have the same problem when I open the camera on my phone (not realizing it is on the selfie mode). I always yelp. It takes me by surprise every time. NO ONE looks good from that angle!

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Girl I feel you. 2015 was what I like to call “the year of running injuries.” During the training for my first marathon in October 2014, I had pain in my lower left shin. I thought it was normal shin splints, so I kept running through it. I didn’t know then, but I ran my first marathon (and BQ’d!) with a tibial stress fracture.

Well, I had a year and a half to get better before Boston 2016. No big deal! But I think there’s also “5 stages” of beginning to run after an injury. 1. Take it easy for 2 days 2. Start running faster 3. Start running longer 4. Ignore first signs of pain 5. Hello new stress fracture. This one took until January 2016 to heal. That left me ummm about 15 weeks to go from 0 running to Boston ready.

Thanks to an amazing PT, I somehow managed to make it to the finish line. I will say that injuries make us more thankful for the ability to run, so everything happens for a reason! :)

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No big deal. I just run marathons and qualify for Boston with stress fractures! Whaaaat? Girl, you be crazy. I am glad you got the injuries all sorted out and were able to make it to the finish line. That is some serious work and dedication!

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You are hilarious! This post was so fun to read. I’ve been through running grief before and I believe I may be going through it again. (At 33 weeks pregnant, running feels so, so different!)
I love your description of the “anger” phase. So accurate, so hilarious.
Thanks for sharing Megan D. ;)

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The fact that you are still running at 33 weeks is amazing! I never made it past 28 before things became too uncomfortable/painful. Swimming felt soooo much better. Good luck with the rest of your pregnancy!

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Okay, the whole “what will people remember about me when I die?” This. I think this question answers everything in regards to what my goals and aspirations should be. I love this!

I’ve had a few crazy injuries from running: a torn plantar and I broke my hand in 5 places once when I tripped while running. I totally agree with your stages! I have a less common name (Marissa), and I gave my kiddos a little bit more common names ;) I sometimes regret my daughter’s name (Madison) but I’ve loved her name since I saw Splash when I was 8. But now there’s 8 million Madisons. This is why she decided to spell her nickname as Mady.

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I mean, I wouldn’t mind if they remembered that I ran. I just hope that I am remembered for so much MORE than that, ya know? We wanted to name our oldest (who is 9.5yrs old) Madeline. But the Madison craze had begun and I knew there would be a lot of Maddi/Maddy so we didn’t. Only because of my silly rule. Doesn’t mean I don’t love the name ;)

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Wonderful post, Megan D. I have high hamstring tendonopathy in both hammies–got my left side in “remission’ and constantly work on my ride side to keep it calmed down (PT, massage, acupuncture, dry needling and yes, that cortisone shot in the absolute most awkward area – talk about laying it all out there). My next step will be looking into regenerative therapy if/when it gets to a point where it sidelines me. It is so frustrating and a constant effort to stay on top of things. I don’t even want to think of the $$$ I have spent on this …. but “whatever it takes” I guess.

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Boooooo. I am sorry you are going through this too and that you had that awkward cortisone shot #literallyacrotchshot #theworst

Keep me posted on how your injury does and if you have to do regenerative therapy. Maybe we can just stop treatments and pool all that money we would have spent and go on an amazing vacation instead. I’ll bring the donuts.

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Thank you, thank you, thank you for your post. I have been fighting what I thought and drs thought was just an injury and I thought I would do everything they told me to do, the PT told me to do but it just kept getting progressively worse. I should have seen the warning signs. The pain just didn’t stop…I guess I finally couldn’t take it and finally had an MRI which showed I a great deal of arthritis in my lumbar spine. I now have an appointment to see a spine specialist. So, I think I am past bargaining and at depression. I don’t think I will be running again. So thank you for putting into words what I have been feeling!

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You aren’t alone, but that doesn’t always make it easier. I am glad you are getting some answers. Hopefully you will get some relief now as well.

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Okay this post made my day!!! Thanks for sharing!!!! I have been very injury prone for years.. I have had chronic runner’s knee. Trying to say that I’m done with runner’s knee for good but it will always be my weak point. Working on it everyday.

Emma wasn’t that common when I was young but it seems like tons of little girls are Emmas these days.

You have a darling family! That is great that the doughnut decorations are so versatile!

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Runners knee was my first injury. Oh man how it hurts. I hope by knowing and staying on top of your weak point it never stops you from running though.

You are right. I don’t know many Emma’s around my age. I feel like they are all about 9-13 years old. Thanks ‘Friends’! ;)

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Great job on the guest post! And that donut party. (OK, I’m a guy, so admittedly bridal showers aren’t my thing, but I like donuts and parties so keep on, keeping on).

I’m not really in love with my name (all the nerds in TV/movies have it, except Mr. Gable). It isn’t very common though, so I guess I got that going for me. I do sometimes have the nickname ….Clark the Shark….or just Shark. There is actually a children’s book called Clark the Toothless Shark, and people (esp. my Mom) love to give me shark toys, stuffed animals etc.

And when I was a freshman/sophomore in college I landed in the hospital for my back. First time for about 5 days, the second time for 87. Yes, that’s not a misprint. 87 days. From Labor day weekend to December term end exams. I was sent home – I was at a military academy, shhh – for the remainder of the year and summer in hopes that I might get better. And I did! Wow! It cost me a year….but everything in my life followed from that. Like I wouldn’t have met my wife and stuff. So it all happens for a reason, amirite? (See I can write novels too).

Best of luck on your running, or not running. Whatever it takes. And thanks for sharing.

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You are soveryrite. I liked your novel. Thank you for sharing. 87 days. My hat is off to you. That is a long time. But it sounds like you moved right on through those 5 stages and came out right on top.

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Hi-larious!!! Of course all the funny parts and not so much the injury part. Do you have a blog that I could also put in my reading list? :)

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No blog, but thank you for your kind comments. I hope you are having a great day!

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Ouch–is all that bruising from PT, or from a tear of the hamstring???

I had a horribly stubborn high “hamstring” injury that turned out to be referred pain from endometriosis. It’s apparently fairly common for problems in the pelvic area–even just a very tight pelvic floor– to cause pain in the upper leg/hip flexor areas, and it took me years to figure out that my pain wasn’t an actual injury, per se. Might be something worth looking into, though it sounds like you’ve already tried everything!

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Yes. The bruising is from a very aggressive ASTYM/Gua Sha. Subsequent treatments weren’t as intense ;) Each PT, chiropractor/ masseuse has told me how tight I am in those areas so I will have to bring that up in one of my future appointments. Thank you for your suggestion! I am glad you found answers and help with your injury!

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Yep…I go through these exact 5 stages every single time my shin splints flare up!

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Such a viscous cycle. I had shin splints in the side of ankle before. It hurt so bad and I had no idea what they were at first because I had no idea you could even get them there! Hope you don’t have to experience them again…or at least for a long time!

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Please tell me your secrets for getting rid of Plantar Fasciitis… I’ve had it for almost 2 years! It won’t give up! :( I’ve been to the doctor several times, had 2 cortisone shots, tried PT, dry needling, graston, stretching, icing, I keep a golf ball underneath my desk and roll it out daily, had the FAST procedure done last August & was in a walking boot for 6 weeks… nothing works. Help!

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Oh man. I am so sorry you are going through this right now. When I had it (a long time ago. It was the summer of 2005) I did all the things you mentioned (and got new running shoes and avoided any flip flops and the like) and didn’t run for a few months and it went away. I always make sure I have a gold ball under the computer desk that I use to roll out my arches and it has kept it from coming back. I know though that there or varying levels for every injury and it just sounds like yours is worse than mine was. That is incredibly frustrating. I know Josse had similar problems and hers lasted a while too. She has an IG account (jossegogotstorun) you could try asking her there. I hope you find relief soon!

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loved reading this post — your voice and humor are so adorable and i love how honest and candid you are with the injury struggle. looks like you have such a full life with so many things to be thankful for, and that perspective shines through. hope the injury does heal and you’re able to get back to running and feeling good!

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Thank you so much for your comment. You are completely right. I have an amazing family and so much to be thankful for….I just hope I can be thankful for being able to run again….maybe one day ;) Hope you are having a great day!

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Hi! Love your post! I really don’t like anyone taking my picture or doing selfies! OH I take such terrible photos! lol. On the injury front I’ve been dealing with plantar on and off for years the past few years my ankle joined the party. I had my right ankle scoped in April and I will be doing my left ankle in September. I hope 2017 I can get back to running! Injuries are such a bummer!

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Did you find any answers after your ankle was scoped? I hope so. Maybe 2017 will be a good running year for the both of us #fingerscrossed

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Hi Megan D! Thanks for your post and I WILL be praising you for the donut themed shower, it was adorable! I’m glad you can recycle your hard work for your little one’s birthday. My little girl is turning 2 in October and is a donut-lover (what kid isn’t?) so I may be using your idea! Question, how did you get the balloons into a donut shape?!? They were awesome!

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Thank you for taking the time tell me how amazing my shower was. Just like I told you. Such a great student you are. I got the donut shaped balloons online at balloons123.com. My local store was out and amazon was way too expensive. I then I followed a tutorial like this one: http://studiodiy.com/2013/09/24/diy-donut-balloons/ to turn them into donuts. Good luck with your party!

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I NEEDED this today. I was in tears earlier today as I searched for a FOURTH doctor to see about an issue with the outside of my right foot. I injured it last June and have basically not run since. I hope that my appointment tomorrow will bring some answers.
Prayers for your recovery!

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That is a long time with no running! I am sorry. I have also shed many tears since being injured. Good luck tomorrow! I hope you get some answers and relief soon! Let me know how it goes.

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You need to guest post more, you’re very funny.

Last year it was my hip, this year plantar fasciitis decided to rear it’s ugly head again. I’m on a short rest and then it’s we’ll see what happens. I REALLY want to run the NYC marathon this year. (yeah, still in bargaining phase). I need to this to clear up quickly.

Nina is my nickname, Janine is my full name. I know several Janine’s (or spelled Jeanine, Jeannine and Geneen). I’ve met a few other Nina’s. (my grandmother’s name was Janina – I don’t know why my mother didn’t just call me that).

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NYC is/was on my list. Keep on top of that injury and hopefully it will get better enough so you can run that race. But don’t ignore any signs and power through pain and make it worse than it could be (speaking from my own experience). Good luck!

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Thanks. I do actually listen to my doc and my PT. I had surgery for chronic plantar fasciitis on my other foot a few years ago. I have no desire to repeat that experience. I hope someone figures out what you have and can help you heal.

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Oh wow! This post could have been written by me. I’ve had what I call “PIA”, “pain in the ass” for about 4 years now. It used to be just a deep glute pain that would rear it’s ugly head (pun intended!) when I went out for long runs in marathon training – 18 miles or so. I’d get through the marathon, and then, a year later, it would surface again after those looooong runs. But after my Spring marathon, I have been plagued with pain – tight hamstrings, tight glutes, general overall terrible uncomfortable-ness for every distance run. Everything is tight when I start to run, it eases up a bit after I warm up, and then it’s back in full force after about an hour of running. So of course I hired a coach, signed up for a key Fall marathon which will get me a BQ. Geez, nothing like piling on the pressure, right?? Doh! My latest quest for a fix/answer/miracle has been a visit to a sports massage therapist. She actually did “cure” the tight hamstrings, but the deep glute pain is still in need of repair. I’m working on it. And running. And being in pain. I very much hope you find resolution to your issue (which really has a name, so awesome!). I feel, and share, your pain. – signed, fellow PIA-er :) btw, I was kind of hoping my Dr would just give me a shot and stop all the pain, and then wondered, where exactly in my cheeks would this shot go? In my mind it seemed quite awkward, now you’ve confirmed that. :) :)

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Hi Megan D! Really enjoyed your post! Do you have a blog? If not, you should definitely get one. My name is Libbie, so not super out there but I have never met anyone else who uses my exact spelling. Except for this one lady in Costco who sampled wine right before me. I didn’t actually meet her, but i did take a picture of our names on the list, so close enough. I am also awful with pictures. I always end up looking like some creeper photo bombing, so I try to exclude myself from picture taking at most all occasions. Thanks for your guest post and best of luck with the injury.

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I like being the creepy photo bomber. Like a lot. But that is because I am trying to be the awkward person. It just seems LESS funny when I am NOT trying to be that person and am still that person anyway. lol. Oh well. Thank you for the well wishes!

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First off, you’re funny. I came here to tell you that I really enjoyed your post. But before I commented I googled “chronic high proximal hamstring tendinopathy” and Lord have mercy if the symptoms of that don’t sound a lot like what I’m dealing with! So far I’ve just been managing the pain and foam rolling, massaging, and trying to stretch. But after reading about the injury I think I should take it more seriously (before it becomes more serious). Thank you for sharing – I think you just helped me identify what’s going on with me.

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I am glad I could be of help. Too bad it wasn’t me helping you find the best ice cream flavor or something though. That seems like way more fun. Sounds like you are doing everything right and hopefully if you stay on top of it, it will never become a chronic thing for you!

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Nice to meet you, Megan D! Loved the donut themed shower.

I remember 7th grade geography – there were 4 Kathys in the class. None of us had nicknames and we would all answer when the teacher said our name. Yeah, we were kind of annoying! I’ll answer to KathyMac or KMac nowadays.

I have never been injured long term. My husband has degenerative disk issues that keep him from running, so I get it. Luckily, he loves cycling and it doesn’t cause the pain that running does.

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What’s up KMac? Sounds like your husband is in the acceptance stage and is doing great. My husband is big into mountain biking. If this injury keeps on like this, I might be taking it up as well. Although the thought of biking down a mountain at high speeds sounds about like the worst thing this clumsy mother should be doing.

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Megan D!
I’m the super, even more awkward one standing between you and Janae in that meet up pic. And I am the one who was in desperate need of a style make over (what am I wearing??!!?). It’s been fun for me to keep tabs on janae and you, via the blog, over the years. Great post!!
And a huge congrats to Janae on her marriage!

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Whaaaat? How awesome is that though? I am so glad you left a comment. I think you look great and not awkward at all. Plus you have your kids there hugging you which proves to everyone that the little humans you are raising actually like you ;) Maybe we should recreate this photo every few years. Like those awkward family photos. Hope you and your family are doing well!

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Thank you so much for sharing Megan! I have been there and am there right now. I go through phases of running because I no longer have cartilage in my right knee. I miss running so much, but am really not willing to risk not being able to run around with my kiddos when they’re older. What you said at the end is so true! There are far more important things and running does not define me! Thank you!

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Ouch. No cartilage sounds painful. But you are right, there are more important things in life. Just some days, I wish those important things could also…just maybe…include running. haha. Your kids will be so happy that you are there for them. Have a great evening!

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I love your sense of humor!
I have horrible race finisher pictures. In the last few steps before I cross the finish I get these ugly Claire Dane Crying faces! I really need to work on that because they are not flattering, lol!

I’ve never envied another name or wanted to change mine, so I guess I like it ;-)

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But if you get to be Claire Dane (first, that ain’t shabby at all) then is Leonardo waiting for you at the finish line. I meeeean, that should only be fair, right?

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Oh my gosh Megan D!! This post hit very close to home today as I am struggling with an injury and I am about to go CRAZY!!! The thing that is most frustrating is they don’t know what is wrong and therefore don’t really know how to treat it. I NEED to run. Like right now, yet I can barely walk. Not that you asked but my injury story…about two weeks ago I started having some hip pain around my SI joint. Not a biggie, went to the chiro and got adjusted. But then my left big toe area started hurting and swelling. It got to the point the pain was pretty unbearable so I went to the doctor. They hesitantly said it was gout, but I am about the least likely person to get gout (as probably anyone reading this blog is), but is was a lot of the same symptoms, so they decided to treat it as gout. The initial steroid shot calmed it down and I was put on prednisone for a week. However, instead of getting better, the pain slowly got worse and has now started spreading up my leg. They sent me in MOnday for an X-ray to rule out a fracture- they didn’t find one. But by Monday (last) night, the pain was intense and my knee is now swollen and numb. Went back to the doctor and they have no idea, so I got another steroid shot and some pain meds, so I finally have a little relief and am going in for an MRI tomorrow.

So in addition to having the frustration of an injury, I have the frustration of having no idea what injury I have or what caused it. Sorry for writing a novel!

I loved your guest post.

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Hey now, you know I appreciate novel length comments. But your story sounds scary and awful! Mine is a chronic injury, yours is rapidly changing and bringing on a new set of problems associated with it. I am so sorry! I hope you that your MRI goes smoothly tomorrow and you have answers soon. And if you can’t run soon that you find something else to pump those endorphins! Keep me posted!

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My name used to be pretty uncommon until stupid Ariana Grande came along. Now all i hear when i tell someone my name is “oh like Ariana Grande?” NO!!!!!! Obviously it doesn’t bother me at all :)

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You’re like hey, I was named Ariana waaaay before Ariana Grande became famous thankyouverymuch. Its okay. I don’t still get worked up things like my sister never having to have a job in high school and my parents paying for her gas and everything she did when that was NOT the case for me. Nope. It has been 15 years since then and I am totally over it #sideye

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Ahhhh! I can totally relate! I have been dealing with an injury since early last year when I started training for my first half-marathon. I’ve two , 4 month rounds of PT (the second one including the dry needling) , seen an orthopedic specialist, and had every scan you can think of. No one can find anything except a little bursitis and tendinitis in my glute, which doesn’t even hurt! I do have a noticeable strain in my right hip flexor, and it is finally doing better, but only after months of very targeted workouts. Even though the pain is better overall, I’m still unable to run. I was lucky enough to find cycling and it’s been so amazing!
Loved the post!

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Ugh. I am sorry you have been going through lame injuries as well. I am glad you found some answers and another way to exercise that you find enjoyable. I am too scared too ride intensely outside on my road bike and too claustrophobic to ride in the cramped spin room at my gym. haha #issues Lets hope one day we will both run again. If not we can step and spin until the machines finally break down on us. #ohwait #thathappenedtomeyesterday #dangbrokenstepmill #grrrrr

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Awesome guest post!! If only I were in Utah, I would totally hang for some doughnuts, FroYo, and kids play group. Illinois is not as fun..your scenery is x10.
Do you know how people say “get my good side” in photos. I don’t even have one. I gave up on group photos a long time ago, and a selfie is just pointless.
My first name is DEVIN. I am a lady. If I had $1 for every time one of my friends boyfriends got upset she was hanging out with “Devin” I would be rolling in the cash. All of my mail is addressed to Mr. Devin, and to make things more confusing my husband’s name is Courtney. Yup. I am a travel agent and every single person I speak to on the phone calls me “Debbie”. Sure why not.
Fibromyalgia has caused me my running grief. I think you nailed those 5 stages in perfect order. I had lost 60lbs and was getting really into running when I all of the sudden lost use of my right arm, then boom there goes the left one too…a week later it was the legs up to the waist. Here I am a bump on a log with my appendages just sleeping away. Lots of doctor visits, hospital stays, and time spent just hanging around. I lingered for along time in “anger” and “depression”. Long story short I “fell ill” in December and ran my first half marathon in May of that year. It took me FOREVER to finish and I half fell across the finish line but it was done. Acceptance was the only road that lead to healing. :) Happy Tuesday Meg D!
#blogfriends #boysname #debbie #fibromyalgiaisreal #donttellmewhatIcanaccomplish

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I think that sounds like a great way to earn some money. Excuse me, Devin, how did you become a millionaire? Did you win the lottery? Actually, let me tell you….

I have some friends that suffer from Fibromyalgia and it can be such a debilitating disease. Sounds like it isn’t for you though, even if it wanted to be. #YourStoryIsInpiring #NowLetsGetSomeFroYoToCelebrate #TreatYoSelf

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Megan D. #AWESOMENESS.

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#ThankYOU

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Love the guest post! As a Myokinesthetic Practioner~ your injury screams S2-4 nerve, i wish i could reach through the computer and work on you!!!! Look up Myokinesthietic and see if there is someone certified around you.
It’s so cool how friendships can be made from a distance~!

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You have no idea how badly you could that! That sure would be swell. One of my PT thought that perhaps I was having referred pain from my back as well (I also have pain in the outer side of my ankle on the same leg as my adductor/hamstring pain) and she noticed my pelvis gets out of alignment when I run? She adjusts me, but it falls back out with every run. Any who, turns out I have some back issues, but none that are related to and should be causing the pain I am experiencing. I am looking up Myokinesthietics in my area right now! Thank you!

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Oh, I could sing this very song! My HHT has been going on for 2 years. I too, have ankle pain in the same leg and a drained HSA account. Sigh…..it is so very discouraging!

If you ever find something/someone/witch doctor, please do another post.

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Believe me, if I find relief I will blog it, yell it, maybe rent a billboard in Time Square to share the good news. Please keep me posted on your injury as well. I am sorry you are going through the same thing.

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I searched and din’t find any in the state of Utah. I just looked on the list of certified practitioners on their official website. Not sure if that lists every single one or if there is another way to see if one might be in my area.

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Megan D. I couldn’t stop smiling the whole time I was reading this!! Please tell me you also have a blog??!?!? As for pictures….um yea no. I hate taking pictures, I feel so awkward all the time!!! So my phone is chock-full of pictures of all my younger siblings. My cousin requests a picture of me for her bridal scrapbook and I literally had none to give!

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No blog. But thank you for reading today’s post and taking the time to leave a comment. I appreciate it. No go take 100 selfies. One of them is bound to be good to send to your cousin! That is about how many Janae has to take when I am there before I don’t look completely ridiculous.

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I absolutely loved this post. I had a partial knee replacement when I was 18 years old (#justacoupleyearsago #NOT), and from time to time it definitely acts up on me. Running and skiing are probably the two worst things I can do to preserve my knee, so I pride myself on the fact that I only love one of those #notaskier. What other forms of exercise do you do? My dr keeps telling me to do yoga, but yoga is just not my thing. I crave an intense cardio sessions. Am I bendy after yoga? Yes Does yoga make me feel like I got in a good workout? NO #thestruggleisreal
Thank you for helping to take over the blog. I love reading everyone’s posts.

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I was ALSO 18 a few years ago #OkayThatIsALie #ButItFeelsThatWay #AndThatCountsForSomethingRight

I love the stepmill for cardio and I love lifting weights. For a while I did Insanity Max30 for cardio, but it is basically 30min of jumping and after a few months of that my feet/ankles have never been the same. I can tolerate yoga if it flows relatively quickly #ADD #IGetBored Have you ever tried PiYo? I have never done the DVDs, but they offer the class at my gym and I really like that…I tell myself I will get the benefits of yoga but without the boredom #Namaste

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Love your post, Megan D! How cool to hear how you met Janae and you nailed the 5 stages. I’m normally a very sweet peaceful person, but have definitely been through the “run happy runners down with my car and wipe that high endorphin look right off their face” stage before. (maybe i’m not as sweet and peaceful as i thought??)

I’m Michelle and was born in the 70’s so never had to worry about anyone having the same name. #kidding

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Running injuries can make the most peaceful person go crazy. I am glad you liked the post. Just remember, if all else fails, just stalk people you see on blogs and maybe one day you will become friends and write on their blog while the honeymoon #AimForTheStarsPeople

Michelle, Ashley, Jenny, Megan….so many of us born right about then #thumbsdownemoji

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My name is common but at my last job there were two Susans so I was called by my last name. Which was also how most people addresses each other when I worked for the NBA team. Here at my new job, I’m the only Susan and its sort of weird to hear my actual FIRST name! :)

I’ve experience PF in both feet (one foot in 2004 and the other foot in 2006) but that was prior to my “half marathoning” so I am very conscientious of my feet and taking care of them. I’ve had some hip issues that seem to linger but – knock on wood – nothing that has completely taken me out of the game.

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Wait. Your worked for an NBA team? Which one and what did you do? You said that so nonchalantly.

*Knock on wood* I will hope the same for you and your non serious injuries.

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Megan D, I love you! This post really spoke to me because I love(d) running too but had to give it up several years ago due to a situation very similar to yours. Sometimes I feel guilty reading Janae’s blog; like I shouldn’t because I’m not a runner anymore. But hearing your story helped me a lot. Thank you so much for sharing. And good luck with your daughter’s birthday party! Doughnuts are the best!

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I hear ya. I feel like I can’t refer to myself as a runner anymore. But I still read Janae’s blog (shhhh it can be our secret) so don’t feel guilty. I am sorry you have had to give up something you loved to do. I hope you have found something else that makes you feel great, perhaps, like donuts? They ARE pretty great ;)

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Megan-you are so lovable!

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Thank you :) I love that you took the time to give me a compliment today. That makes me happy! I hope you had a great day!

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Girl, you are hilarious. Loved this post! ❤️ I’m right there with you as a lifelong runner with the long term injury that won’t be fixed, and those five stages of grief are so freaking REAL. Finished round 3 of physical therapy for a recurring knee injury in the fall, and then my knee basically blew up. I’m traveling internationally right now and envying every person running by a river ever – while trying to accept that I may need to move on to yoga for a while. Because if I can’t have Ragnar, I definitely need some handstands in my life ?? Thanks for relating your experience and making the I CANNOT EVEN WATCH YOU RUN RIGHT NOW moments feel more normal ❤️?.

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First, and probably most importantly, you made emojis show up on a comment. I think that is the most amazing thing and I had no idea you could even do that. Teach me your ways oh knowledgeable one.

Second, travelling internationally – that sounds amazing. I hope you are somewhere awesome right now enjoying yourself and whatever the culture (and obviously the food) has to offer.

Third, I hope your leg gets better, but that you are also able to enjoy some yoga in the mean time. Way to have a positive attitude!

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Plantar Fasciitis. It was terrible and I ended up with surgery. It’s been GONE since and I’m back to running with fewer injuries. If I go to reformer pilates regularly I find I stay uninjured. Good luck to you!!
#hashtagforlife

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I am glad that surgery has helped and you are able to run again #ReformerPIlatesIsNoJoke #YouRock

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What a fun post!! The donut themed shower looked amazing! And looking at your family picture, I thought, hey I know your little girl! I teach 3rd at her school, and loved how responsible and knowledgable she was at EVERYTHING! Tell her hi from Mrs. Budge!

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What a small world! Haha. I just had Annabelle come read the post and she got the biggest grin on her face. She thought that was so cool. Thank you for the kind words you had to say about her. She is just as smart as she is stubborn and sassy. I am hoping that if we can keep her steered in the right direction she will do amazing things!

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absolutely loved the donut themed party -> i’m having a 1st birthday party for my dog (lol- yes i’m that girl) and I think I want to make it donut themed!

I do love my name. Sometimes I wish people called me by my full name (Jacqueline) but I do like my name a lot (Jackie). I wouldn’t say it’s too common but it’s not unusual. I also go back bean or jacks.

I’m thankful that I haven’t been injured long term.

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Hey, Dogs SHOULD be celebrated and so should donuts so I say go for it. I had 2 friends name Jaqueline growing up and they were both stellar humans, so obviously that means you are too. I hope your long term injury free streak continues!

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I have a stress fracture in my foot. Tomorrow marks 6 months from the date of my injury. I mostly just stick in the depression area of things. I miss running so much.
Thank you so much for your post. I am so sorry you have been injured for three years. It puts what I am going through in perspective.
Hopefully we will both be running soon!

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Even when someone else can relate to what your going through it doesn’t help take away just how bad your injury sucks. So I am giving a giant hug via the internet and hope that your foot heals soon and we are both able to run pain free again one day!

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Wow. You’ve no idea how timely this post is. I’ve spent the last 3 years running, nursing a foot injury, getting back at it, hurting my back (My spinal health has been slowly declining for about 15 years now.)… starting again, and now? Sciatic nerve trouble. It has my right leg and foot numb and has left me with no power in my calf. I feel as though I have been through these grief stages and back again, in a continuous loop for 3 years now, and I’m far worse than I ever was before. I have felt so silly for grieving about this, but thank you for letting me know that I am not bonkers.

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You are not silly at all. When something that is a big part of your life and is something that you are passionate about and enjoy doing is taken away from you – it is a hard pill to swallow. I am sorry you have been experiencing so many injuries. I hope you are able to find some relief in the future and for now are able to do something else you are passionate about….whatever it may be.

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Awesome post, Megan! You have a beautiful family! My name isn’t common but people always say Mary or Maria instead. Happens so often that I don’t correct them anymore. ;)

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This is like Jerry and Parks and Rec. Haha. Did you ever watch that show? I basically relate everything to television shows. #CauseTVpeopleAreReal

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Oh, Megan D…I could have written this post. I mean, other than the whole super-adorable-and-not-dorky-at-all parts. Mom of three, check (although mine are much older); lots of running injuries, check; #hashtagoveruse, check; running grief right now (for 6 months and the loss of Boston), check. Peroneal tendinosis for me. – one of the rarest running injuries. Yippee skippy! Thanks for a fun read today and good luck with the healing!

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Well then I think the next, most obvious thing, for us to do is become best friends. Last year when I decided I need to really take a break from running, ,I started doing Insanity Max30. You basically jump all over the place for 30min straight. I loved it. I did one round and when I was starting the second month of round 2, I started getting pain on the outside of my ankle whenever I jumped. I have been to drs and had MRIs and they don’t really know what is causing THAT pain. I have wondered it it is peroneal tendonitis. It is another injury that keeps me from running now (it also really hurts when I run) and now I can’t do any jumping. Basically I am falling apart. I think our future best friend meet ups should include fro yo and therapy. Yes?

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I’ve written about the 5 stages of injury grief on my blog before, too. The 5 stages are definitely applicable…over and over.

I have an ongoing issue that crops up as full-blown injury time after time. It’s taught me a lot, almost as much as running.

Thanks for sharing Megan D. My name is common, but spelled less-commonly, which has its own similar set of problems.

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Great minds think alike :)

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Yay for Megan D! I had a crapola day so thanks for making me laugh. I vote YES for you to start a blog. I have had a pulled ligament for 6 weeks and it stinks. Sorry for your injuries. Love your donut shower/party.

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I am sorry you had a crappy day, but it does make me happy you used the term ‘crapola’ because I like to use that term myself.

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Great post Megan D!!! Can I tell you something? I read this post this morning and I was thinking,” Lord please let not get injured anytime soon”. Went about my day, ran 10 miles , gor some free Chick fil a, sat down to watch tv “Chris cross applesauce” (I teach first grade) got up put foot down (which was fast asleep) and heard snap!!!! Funny thing is the first thing I thought of was your post (which made me smile). I think I dodged a bullet and I think my ankle is ok (I broke my ankle this way 20 years ago). I can run 20 marathons but getting the the couch, that is dangerous!!!

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Phew! You had me worried there for a minute that I jinxed you! I truly hope that it is nothing. Also, I may not have ran 10 miles today, but I totally got myself some free chick fil a too #winning

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Meagan D, you were a delightful guest host for Janae! I was rarely injured as a younger runner, but now that I’m older (58), I wait until the last minute to sign up for races – just in case… I always feel like I pulled a fast one when I make it to the last race of the season without an injury (they happen so much easier as we get older)! My goal is to run forever. We’ll see how that goes. :-)

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I legit found a marathon that I could sign up for a couple of weeks before the race. I wanted to have my 20 milers under my belt and be in taper mode when I paid my dues. Nothing worse than being injured AND flushing money down the toilet for a race you never run. #BeenThereDoneThat I want to run forever too, which is why I keep bargaining that I will stop running long distances if I can just be able to run. I hope your wish comes true!

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Megan D—#YOUROCK! What an awesome blog entry today. You seriously made my day, not only because I too am recovering from injury (perpetually), but because you capture the angst of not being able to run so perfectly. Thank you for connecting with us injury-prone struggling runners and making us feel that wanting to flatten runners on the side of the road with our vehicles is totally normal. Totally. Normal. And upcycling donut decor for a kids party? That’s innovative! Kudos. And my name is endlessly misspelled :) Consider that blog—you’d have 100 instant followers!!!

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Why must we be continually injured? So lame. You know we love something a lot when it continues to hurt us and we just keep trying to get back to it ;) Here is to hoping we are both out there running soon!

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Megan D — I’m so sorry to hear this! I had the same injury for 1.5 years so I know how frustrating and difficult it is to deal with. No amount of PT will help, I learned the hard way. But there is hope!! You need to get PRP injections (on my phone so I can’t link to what it is but you can google it). Seriously, PRP saved my hamstring and ability to be active at all. I went to so many different doctors, but right now this is the only treatment that will work for this injury and most other tendon injuries. Forgive me, as I haven’t been able to read all the comments and this might have already been addressed, but I’d also recommend getting a functional running analysis to see what your physical structure and running form may be doing to contribute to this injury. For me it was over 15 years of running as a heel striker that led to this injury. I took 6 months to work on re-learning how to run with a mid foot strike, and I continue to work on activating my glutes during my runs to make sure the hamstrings are not doing the work of the glutes. I also continue to do prevention work by doing yoga (hamstring stretching), barre (glute activation), and squats/lunges. I hope this info helps you!

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Thank you for your comment. Last year at this time I was meeting with my dr and talking about PRP injections. He kind of talked me out of it because he said there was a good chance they wouldn’t work, they are expensive and my insurance wouldn’t cover it. Since I had already spent a bajillion dollars on this injury I went for the cortisone shot instead. Well, that didn’t work. So maybe some PRP injections WILL be in my future. And yes. I worked with a running specialist at the University of Utah where they hooked me up to monitors and analyzed my run (also a heal striker and I apparently don’t pick up my feet to a 90 degree angle after I push off) and I have drills that I have been given to work on them. Trying to undo how I have ran for 33 years of my life is no joke. Oddly enough though they told me not to do a lot of hamstring stretches. Any who, I appreciate your comment and I am glad you are overcome this injury. It gives me hope that I can also do the same…with a lot of work :)

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What a great post! I loved the doughnut themed shower (not surprising since I love buying every doughnut themed item at Target/Home Goods/etc), so cute! I’m also very awkward in photos especially selfies with other friends because my head looks about 10x bigger than everyone else in all the photos even if I’m in the back, haha!

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I also have a huge head. Funny story, I can’t even wear my husband’s hats because my head is bigger than his. When I was a child I had to buy adult hats because my head wouldn’t fit in the children’s ones. It is probably just that we are so smart with big brains, right?

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O my goodness, I needed this. I have been dealing with one injury or another for the past 3 years. I just can’t seem to get myself healthy. I feel like I cycle between all the stages. I’m sick and tired of paying professionals to not help me and just wish I could run a few easy miles. I’m in the worst shape of my life right now and it’s pretty depressing. Here’s to hoping we both get back to the roads.

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I feel like we should only have to pay if they are actually able to fix/help us. Right? Good luck with your injuries. I hope we are both on the roads soon too!

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Wait a sec, Janae had a reader meet up years ago?! And she didn’t do one in Eugene at the trials? I mean, it’s not like she was busy with Brooks, the event, and planning her wedding.

Hi Megan D! Injuries are a pain in the hiney. Oh, that’s where my current one is (since October). PT, massage, and ignorance are making it improve somewhat but us runners have about 2 seconds for someone to treat and cure our ailments……

My kids have normal names but I did think for a minute that #4 was going to be named Sunshine or Rainbow Bright since my daughter (#3) thought she was in charge of the naming. Of a boy.

Nice to “meet” you!!!

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True. She used to do meet ups. But this was like 5 years ago before she had Brooke. I am just lucky I cashed in back then ;)

My oldest wanted to name our second child and my husband almost let her because he didn’t want to hurt her feelings. I was like ummm she is 2. She will forget all about this and has absolutely no right naming our child forever. I do think rainbow bright has a great ring to it though ;)

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I was so happy to read your blog. .it was so informative and funny..

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I am so glad you enjoyed it. Hope you have a great day Rana!

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Really enjoyed your post today, you are funny in a good way. It sounds like you are dealing really well with your running grief and you are right running isn’t what defines a person or what they are remembered for it is for the love in their heart and the love they have for others. I really enjoyed your sense of humour.

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I am just glad I wasn’t funny in a bad way ;) Thank you for taking the time to leave me a nice comment. I appreciate it. Have a great day!

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Totally have felt like that about seeing other runners when I’m injured! Doesn’t it seem like a million people come out of nowhere, running when you can’t? Grr. I did laugh out loud :) Thanks for that!

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Sometimes I want to pull over (instead of run them over) and just make sure they realize how lucky they are. Like, ‘Hey YOU! Ya you running! Isn’t today a gorgeous day? And you get to see it and experience it through running! Pretty stellar right! You better appreciate it because I can’t!’ I don’t think doing that would weird people out at all.

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First of all, I’m not weird. I’m just a mom who likes kid stories and used to be a runner before an injury FOUR years ago. Second, I did find your Instagram and I’m going to follow you because you’re funny and you have kid stories. Hope I am not the only stranger now doing so. Now you see why I had to start by saying I’m not weird.

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Remember how I met Janae through reading her blog? I think the first 10 times we hung out I wanted to reassure her that I was, indeed, normal. Well, now she is fully aware that I am not normal, but not in a crazy creeper way ;) I am glad you found my IG and no, you aren’t the only one. I think I got 18 new followers yesterday, which hey, that is A LOT for me. haha. Thank you for the nice comment!

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Thank you so much Megan D!! I am ALWAYS injured. When people ask why I haven’t signed up for a half marathon or if I’ll do a race with them in a few months, I tell them I can’t commit until the day before since there’s a chance some injury will happen. They think I’m crazy but it’s true!! Through my injuries I’ve found an amazing passion for reformer pilates! Not only does this help me with my running, but it is an incredible workout and I recommend it for anyone! Especially because it’s low impact. I’m currently nursing a back strain right now, and my chiropractor actually told me I would make it worse if I DIDN’T do pilates! I thought I heard him wrong haha. But thank you so much for this post! Many of us runners need to know we aren’t the only ones injured!!

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I think pilates is an awesome workout (hello core muscles, where have you been?) I wish the classes weren’t so expensive. Maybe I just stop giving drs all my money to fix my injuries and invest in that instead! Thank you for your comment. I hope you have a great day!

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Great post, Megan! It’s no wonder Janae adores you. Sending you prayers and great vibes for a complete healing! Pain free running is in your future…I can feel it!

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Thank you for your prayers and well wishes. I appreciate it. Hope you have an awesome day Amy!

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Megan, your post was spot on. It made me choke up, as I can currently identify with your “stages 2,3,and 4”. I am also dealing with what I think is a hamstring injury. I am a stay at home mom of 3, who was a PT before kids. I worked in a progressive sports clinic. I have been trying unsuccessfully for the past four weeks to rehab on my own (again) and have finally set up an appointment with an orthopedist. It is challenging to feel like I should be able to fix this on my own- this is what I did for work before kids! Unfortunately, what I am doing is not working. I am still only able to run about 1 mile before having to limp home. So I am on to the next step (or so I think). I am not sure of what I am looking for from a physician- perhaps just a diagnosis and reassurance that I have an alternative plan in place. Your post was spot on from start to finish- just what I needed this morning. Thanks for sharing.

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I would say it is nice to know I am not alone, but I wouldn’t wish this (or I guess any, really) injury on anyone. I hope you are able to get some answers with the drs you go to and are able to overcome yours a lot fast than me! Good luck! Keep me posted on how it all goes for you!

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Thanks for writing this! Sometimes I look at all my friends doing all sorts of sports and running and enjoying life and I feel miserable from being injured for so long (same as you – just over three years). And every time a physio or doctor says “It’s no big deal, just [BLANK}. We should have you running again in a few weeks” I get so excited only to be in pain again soon after treatment. I’ve moved on to other exercise fads and programs, but I never lose hope that one day I’ll run again! Also I tricked my husband into falling in love with running, so I enjoy it vicariously through him.

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Its tiring and I feel bad when doctors are so sure they can fix me at first. Then I think if I am being so pessimistic about it at this point, that surely doesn’t help either. How nice of your husband to run for you. My husband also started running, but when he gets home from a run and I ask how it went he says, ‘It was running’. He does it to exercise, not because he actually enjoys it. Not fair that he doesn’t even appreciate it! lol. I hope you find relief/answers soon. Keep me posted!

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I am the MOST awkward in photos. I am almost the most un-photogenic person I know. I thought I didn’t like my teeth and that that was why .. then I had braces .. after a crisp new smile .. still NO to photos!

My nick name is ‘Vic’ .. and as you can guess (I won’t be specific) but there are some bad ones that go along with that.. Another common one is Slick Vic, Vic the Chick .. and names I always learned to just laugh at.

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Well there is picture right here next to your name that would tell me that you, indeed, photogenic. You have a beautiful smile.

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loved reading what you wrote-i know one day i’m gonna get injured since it’s bound to happen to every runner at least once in their life :P and yes i am INCREDIBLY awkward in photos!!!

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I hope you are a lucky and magical unicorn and never have to experience an injury.

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Megan D I love this and can totally relate! I have gone through IT Band Syndrome, Peroneal Tendonitis, “well yours hips just really tight and weird” (no kidding that’s what the doc said, a dislocated patella (shocking my easiest recovery!), and a possible torn meniscus (I kept lamenting “Oh My Niscus” because I thought it was hilarious and kept driving all my coworkers crazy, I work in the medical field). All this while my sister runs #allthemiles faster then me and without injury! I love her and am happy for her but I don’t know how we are related if she is so injury free. It’s a rough road and I hope your break from trying to heal is a good sanity check. It’s frustrating being broken for sure. Good thoughts on you getting back to running eventually!

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I have 2 sisters who are very similar and I am the opposite of them in almost every way. It is so weird that we came from the same gene pool. Maybe we should ‘Freaky Friday’ our sisters and change bodies for a little bit. Maybe just long enough for a good training cycle. Just a thought. I’m pretty desperate at this point. Obviously.

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Thank you so much for this, Megan D, and thank you to Janae for this guest post, and sending lots of congratulations and wishes for happiness to the newlyweds. I can relate to so much of this. Like you, Megan, I have struggled with HHT for over 3 years after an MRI (my first of three) revealed a partial tear of my left high hamstring. I’ve seen 7 PTs, a chiropractor, three physicians, and an acupuncturist. I’ve had dry needling up the wazoo, injections, etc. I’ll get better and then I’ll get up to a certain mileage or speed and the pain returns. And when I really hurt, I can’t even sit without pain. It’s been so hard. I’ve had doctors tell me I also have hip issues, a PT tell me I had pelvic floor issues, and another PT tell me everything stems from my upper back. I’ve religiously followed my rehab programs and protocols. I’ve cried and been jealous of other runners who have injuries they overcome. This injury has brought out some not-so-nice feelings in me. But last spring I decided enough was enough. Like you wrote, I needed a break from all the medical appointments and the rehab. I am a wife, mom of four with a baby on the way. I love to read and write and be silly with my kids. Running is not everything. I never was destined to be an Olympic athlete. I still work to keep my core strong and do my glute exercises. Even pregnant in my second trimester I am able to run 2-4 miles three times a week. I run more slowly than I used to and some days I have to really listen to my body and tell it to slow down because that silly hamstring starts talking to me. This has been one of many lessons on my life where God has invited me to relinquish control and to humble myself. I still remain hopeful that one day I’ll run Boston (that’s what I was working toward before this insidious injury surfaced), but as great as running or any worldly thing we purse is, there’s so much more to life! Anyway, I don’t comment much (probably because I, too, leave ridiculously long and verbose comments that poor Janae doesn’t have time to sift through!), but as much as I wish you didn’t have to deal with this awful, chronic injury, it’s a comfort to know we aren’t alone in our struggles. Here’s to living a joyful, grateful life even when our plans go awry! Megan, your family is beautiful!

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Running is definitely not the whole picture, but I wish I could just have it be a small piece of the puzzle;) But this long term injury has really helped put it in perspective. It seems like with the shorter ones I would get to the depression stage and soon after I was back to running so I never had to deal with all the other parts. This, being long term, has helped me realize that I don’t NEED running like I thought I did. That I still have friends and family who love me for many reasons and NONE of which have to do with running.

Congrats on baby number 4. That is great that you are still able to run a little even while pregnant. I never make it past 28 weeks while running. It becomes too uncomfortable. I am amazed at those who can run the whole time.

Thank you for your sweet comment. Good luck with the new baby and all your future running endeavors. #NovelLengthCommentsForLife

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This blog post is awesome Megan D. You made me laugh out loud a couple of times.

I totally remember your Menchies blind date to meet HRG. Don’t ask me how I remembered, because clearly I was very much drugged up because of my “minor” accident the night before(;

Your awkwardness in pictures is fantastic. I am the same in a way, but even more so with hugging. I am probably the most awkward person to hug. I’m working on how to be more “warm and fuzzy” when it comes to stuff like that. I’m just a cold awkward stiff person when hugged. Do you pat the back? Do you side hug? Do you frontal hug? Just so much awkwardness in one hug. I’m much better with a high five! Haha!

Janae, count my vote to hear Megan D. chime in on your blog more often. A very welcomed addition! Would love to see more!!

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Hi Megan D – this post is definitely something I needed to hear! I’ve also been prone to IT Band Syndrome, Shin Splints and the likes and I so feel those five stages whenever I have a setback!

Luckily I’ve not had a major injury as of yet, and I’m much better at managing my injuries now through a lot of strength and conditioning. But, your last paragraph really spoke to me. You’re totally right – whilst running is a big part of my life, it does not define who I am or what kind of a person I am when I’m not running or playing sport. It’s important to have that bigger outlook on things and whilst it’s hard and upsetting when injured, taking a step back and reasoning with yourself in that way can be a positive step towards accepting your injury and moving forwards.

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Oh man, I can absolutely relate to those stages of running grief! While my injuries haven’t been as lasting (a year?! my word, you poor thing) it definitely is a process both mentally and physically. Second, your family is ADORABLE. All caps. And lastly, your wit is infectious! I was laughing and nodding as I read — great job and best of luck on the-injury-they-wouldn’t-end

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