The grieving process sure is tricky.
I started feeling comfortable and strong in the stage that I was in but then I moved on over to the next stage this last weekend.
It may sound like that is a not so great thing but in reality it is a great thing even if it hurts really bad today. What it means is that I am recovering. I moved on from one stage and I am that much closer to feeling normal again.
So I’m taking a day off. From trying to be strong. And taking some time to process where I am at now.
I’ve got my Brooker right by my side (actually she is usually ahead of me as I am chasing her around) and really that is all that matters.
We’ll be back tomorrow with what I am sure will be a recap of my favorite ways to be us:
-A run that makes my heart pump so hard that I feel more alive than ever
-Eating a bowl of ice cream while sitting on my sister’s floor as I tell her every thought I’ve ever had
-A head rub from my mom as she gives me an awesome pep talk
-Listening to Brooke tell me all about everything going on in her life in her baby language that gets cuter by the day
-and shopping. I am embarrassed as to how much that makes me feel better.
Really I am healing quite nicely and as Kristin Armstrong says….’We will label our heartache as a growing pain, and grow up and through the cracks, blooming gloriously on the other side.’
All I know is that I am better than I was 6 weeks ago and I can’t wait to see my strength in another 6 weeks.
Thanks for sticking with me.