Six miles with my sister to start off my Saturday morning. I’m definitely holding my sister back on our runs but luckily she just wants to have someone to run with so she happily takes any breaks that I need and runs whatever pace I feel like each time.
The highlight of the run was when JARED WARD ran by with his crew. They were all talking and laughing at what looked like a 6:00 mile pace. I cannot wait to see how he does in London! I am a paparazzi when it comes to my favorite elites.
Then we were off to Brooke’s soccer game. She is still loving the midfield game and the runner in me just needs to know how far she runs each game.
Our next adventure for the day was going up to Sundance to ride the lift. Andrew was thrilled to see that others are putting out Halloween decorations months in advance too;)
The weather was perfect and all of the colors were the best.
Dinner of champions for me. Jamba and Great Harvest combine into a wonderful meal.
As for our Sunday… the two highlights were taking pictures for Knox’s baptism invitations that is coming up in a few weeks.
And having my family over for chicken cream cheese chicken chili!
Let’s start off this little chat by talking about two of my running ‘failures’…
1) Tuscon Marathon 2015. I had the goal to sub 3 and I had been working for years to get that goal. At mile 19.5 I watched my dream slip away more and more with each mile. I finished the race feeling completely defeated and not sure I ever wanted to run again let alone risk failing at not hitting my goals again in the marathon.
I finished thinking I would have been ‘enough’ if I had finished the marathon 11 minutes faster than I had finished it but I didn’t.
2) CIM 2019. My goal was to OTQ and I finished 13 minutes slower than that. I had trained harder than ever before (I look back and it seems like the training/recovery was basically a full time job) and came up short of what my coach and I felt I was in the shape for. I knew from the very beginning of the race that something was off but held on the best I could for the day. I finished feeling drained, super bummed out about not hitting my goals but knowing I wanted to keep running forever and keep trying to hit my goals because failing wasn’t going to keep me from trying.
I finished feeling like no matter what that clock said, I was enough because the results of my running was not going to change my worth as a human.
These next two excerpts and quote at the end are from the ‘Happy Runner‘ and I just love them so much. They talk about how if we can make friends with failure, we will be unstoppable. If we can focus more on the process of running vs the results of running… we are going to be a much happier runner. If we can go into these goals and races knowing that we are enough regardless of whatever place we finish in or how we look at the end of the training cycle or whether or not our watch tells us we hit a new PR… We are going to go farther with our running and enjoy the process of running more than ever.
There were years and years that I would go into every speed workout with my stomach in knots because I was so nervous that I wouldn’t hit my goal paces. I’ve started many races sick to my stomach because I couldn’t handle the pressure I was putting on myself to avoid failing. Now the results still matter to me BUT I know that failing is part of the game and that it isn’t going to change who I am. It has made it so that I don’t get those knots or feel all of the stress over a race and get to actually enjoy the experience of doing hard workouts and races because if the results don’t change my worth then there is nothing to stop me from trying!
I think as runners we sometimes think we can really control everything about our running and racing. But we can’t and if we are so afraid of failure then when the uncontrollable factors pop up, we are going to really struggle with the outcome.
You are enough no matter what is happening or not happening with your running. Don’t let the risk of failing keep you from sleeping at night, feeling good about yourself or trying something new/hard!
“The Yellow Brick Road would be way less interesting without the Wicked Witch.” No matter what is on your running path right now, the lows make the highs that much better and your journey a whole lot more interesting too.
What was the highlight of your weekend?
Ever seen an elite runner out for a normal run?
What is something that you have learned from one of your running ‘failures’?!
Tell me what your run is today! Give me the details.