18 weeks with some post-taking a nap on the couch hair:)
First, I want to state that I am very pro-breastfeeding but even more very pro-doing whatever is best for your family! I think breastfeeding is beyond nutritious, an incredible bonding experience and I am SO happy for everyone that has good experiences with it. With Brooke I breastfed for about 3 months, with Skye I think I made it around 6 months and with this new little baby coming… I don’t have an ounce of pressure on myself to make it any certain amount of time. With Brooke and Skye I really wanted to make it a year and didn’t hit that goal that I pressured myself with so this time around there is no goal.
I’m definitely going to try again but I’m also going to pay close attention to my mental health postpartum… I really struggle with a lot of anxiety around it all when I am breastfeeding (which probably sounds SO silly to a lot of people) and my milk production/supply/nervousness about feeding/feeling like I’m always doing it wrong consumed 90% of my thoughts when I did it for Brooke and Skye. It wasn’t until after I finished breastfeeding Skye that I realized how much it was affecting my anxiety. There are going to be a total of 5 other humans I need to be available for in our house come November and if I feel like my mental game is not doing well then I’m going to switch to formula right away. I know this is not always a popular opinion (when I stopped breastfeeding Skye I received many comments about my mothering and every time Skye got sick for a year I was told that it was my fault bc I had stopped breastfeeding) but it’s the best opinion for me and my family. Andrew fully supports this plan of action too!
So I’ll try but if it is killing me off mentally, I’m going to do what is best for us and enjoy this time of life with a new addition to our family. Skye and Brooke both have had their fair share of formula and they are amazing humans. I am really hoping it all goes well but I have put zero pressure on myself to do anything but love this baby like crazy.
PS working with the lactation specialist was amazing with Skye and she helped me out so much to figure it out and at different points really enjoy it… I just want to pay close attention to how I am doing mentally this time around! Just like we would do what it takes to get a broken leg fixed, we’ve gotta do what we need to do to take care of our mental health too! I’ll keep you posted on it all because I tend to enjoy oversharing with you all.
Just a few things from this last week:
*Skye is happily enjoying using my bump as a pillow these days… She also attempts to jump on my bump frequently but I’ve gotten quick at blocking that ha.
*She really has been more cuddly then ever because I think she can sense some changes up ahead.
*I’m feeling more and more flutters which is really exciting.
*I bring Tums with me everywhere I go because when the heartburn hits, Tums helps so quickly to feel better.
*Lately, when I do any strength exercises (I need to do more) I get them from Becky’s Instagram… She has so much incredible information for pregnancy and postpartum women.
*My hair is growing at a faster than ever rate. Normally it seems to never get longer than it does at a certain point but now it is definitely growing past that point.
*My dreams each night are full on NUTS right now and I remember each and every one of them. I’m excited to have less stressful dreams again in the future ha.
*Andrew is loving that I am borrowing his shirts all of the time. One of Andrew’s shirts + biker shorts and I’m good to go. I just need to work on spilling on myself less with his shirts on.
*My bump is starting to make an excellent shelf for my drinks and food.
Share with me your breastfeeding experiences. The good, the bad and everything in between.