The last few weeks I feel like this little girl has exploded with personality. She has really waken up. We are all learning more and more about her strong opinions on different matters like the car wash. She does NOT like the car wash but she sure does love being held/loved on/next to us as much as possible.
*Skye has REALLY found that voice of hers and she is all about squeaking, grunting, yelling, singing, babbling as much as possible. She is currently saying Da-da on repeat which makes Andrew extremely happy (and it makes me continually whisper ma-ma into her ear whenever I am holding her;)
*I’ve tried to master this yoga pose for years and Skye can do it after just 7 months of life.
*She continues to hold a single tear under her eye after she is upset about something to remind us of what happened. It’s a little dramatic.
*Brooke and Knox are extra lovey with her now that she is more entertaining for them (they thought she was kind of boring when she slept 20 hours a day). I heard Brooke talking to her the other night about the bunk beds they are going to have when she turns 3. My sis and I had bunk beds so that warmed my heart.
*Just living her glam life.
Let’s chat about sleep. She has been sleeping through the night pretty regularly now! Her morning nap is usually from about 9:30-12:00. She then takes an afternoon nap whenever we can fit one in (usually in the car since we are doing stuff for B & K at that point in the day) and then if we aren’t out at night, we put her down at about 7. At around 10-10:30 we wake her up for a bottle and then she’ll sleep until about 5 a.m. I feed her, go run and then and she goes back down until about 7:30. When we put her down later at night (ie 9-10) she wakes up during the night which is so strange to me. Before bed I give her a warm bath some of the nights and a little baby massage with lotion. I feed her a big bottle and give her a paci and blanket and boom–> we lucked out with how she is doing.
*My hair has started to grow back. Please expect many hair horn post-run pictures due to the new hair coming back over the next few months. Seriously, it was so crazy how much hair I was losing!
*She wears a bib when she eats in the high chair but that does not protect her from the fact she manages to get food EVERYWHERE when she eats. I don’t even understand how she does it so she eats naked with just her diaper and a bib on for most meals right now. I can’t handle anymore laundry.
*Her movement has exploded and we love it. When she is sitting on our laps her arms are flapping around, her head turning side to side searching for Brooke and Knox and her legs kick continuously.
*Like I said at the beginning, Skye is a huge fan of attention and love. She takes it all in and we love giving it to her.
*We practice tummy time daily and every now and then she will roll but we do not see her crawling or attempting to crawl anytime soon.
*I think she experiences major FOMO if she is missing out on us doing something all together without her and she wants to join asap (aka she wakes up from her nap as soon as she can sense us doing something fun).
*This girl is grabbing at everything these days. If it is in arm’s reach (well, actually if it is within her sight;)… Skye is reaching for it.
*She is officially a waver. Not sure if this is a normal baby thing but she loves to wave at us!
*The Fresh Food feeder might be her favorite thing on the planet. This girl LOVES chomping on fruit and veggies with this thing.
*We had an appointment with the pediatrician this week and she is growing like a champ.
*Gone are the days I can let her sit on my lap while I work. Last time I tried that my keyboard ended up on the ground with pieces flying everywhere. She is still doing well studying with Andrew though.
*I am SO afraid of accidentally pinching her when I am putting her in the carseat with the snap. Random but it just freaks me out.
Let’s talk about breastfeeding for a second (or probably a while because I’m pretty long winded on subjects like this).
I am no longer breastfeeding and while I know it isn’t my fault, I still feel like it somehow is because as Andrew says, I tend to blame myself for a lot of stuff ha.
I just took out the majority of this post… I don’t think I explained things very well and I really hope I didn’t give out misinformation about breastfeeding. Long story short, Skye refused eating from me and continued to do so for a few weeks. I’m not sure why this happened and I still feel so awful about it and I’m crying as I type this. I knew it was the right decision for both me and Skye but it is still so hard. I’m sorry if I said the wrong things.
I guess part of me still feels bad about it for a few reasons. I’m an emotional person. Always have been, always will be. I made a goal to feed her for a year and I didn’t reach my goal. Mom guilt is real and I felt like I had figured out breastfeeding really well and it was like the one area in my life where I was rocking one of my goals and now I’m like… I’M NOT HITTING ANY OF MY GOALS (I’m dramatic, yep). I learned with Brooke that it truly doesn’t matter… our relationship is solid and she is as healthy as can be but I just miss the closeness and feeling like I was the only one that can feed Skye thing. It’s silly. I know and definitely not a problem in the grand scheme of things but I just really wanted to continue doing it. In a few months I’ll look back and wonder why I felt bad about it all… It’s kind of that problem with social media too, I see SO many women breastfeeding until their little ones are well over one year old and I think—> What the heck is wrong with my body?! Did I give up too quickly? Did I not try hard enough. I don’t know.
So while I usually tell you about problems I have been through in the past and the solutions that I have figured out to help me get through the problem… this time I’m kind of in the middle of it.
But as far as good news—> We can afford formula (which was a huge stress with Brooke so I feel very lucky this time) and Skye is very healthy and happy. Physically I feel more like myself again. I haven’t felt that way in 1.5 years so that is kind of nice. My anxiety has started to fade back to my normal levels too. Skye is actually forming more and more rolls on her cute little legs between her drinking from the bottle (my freezer milk/formula) and solids so that is the cutest thing. It’s one of those topics that if a friend/reader/human was telling me they were experiencing this, I would tell them, ALL THAT MATTERS is that you love that little one. As long as they are fed, you are doing amazing. Being a mama is tough and you just have to do the best thing for your baby and YOU. You are ENOUGH. More than enough. I know from experience (Brooke) that babies turn out perfect via formula. Love fiercely and let the things that you cannot control go.
A post that I wrote during pregnancy actually really helped me to feel better:
Brooke and Knox are sure loving being part of the feeding process now and Knox loves to rub her little arm or head when he feeds her.
When did your kids start crawling? Walking?
Learned any important parenting lessons lately… share them with me!
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