Time is already going by way too fast. Skye is 1.5 weeks old and growing too fast. I wanted to share a few thoughts I have had since she was born and share how things are going for me. I feel lucky because with both Brooke and Skye, I feel so much better postpartum. Pregnancy is hard for me (physically and emotionally) but I am very lucky that my body/hormones respond so well afterwards… we are all so different but this is just how it is going for me so far!
Bullet points with pictures from before she turned 24 hours old here we come:
*Nothing makes me appreciate and love my body more than having a baby. Nothing. Oh and breastfeeding does the same thing for me too! I look at my body with completely different eyeballs now than I did in my 20s. I can’t believe that our bodies can do something so important and so beautiful. Pregnancy/birth/breastfeeding gives me such appreciation for my body and it makes me want to treat it the best way possible.
*To go along with the previous bullet point, I have loved explaining how amazing the woman’s body is to Brooke. She has been full of questions about everything that is going on. I have loved being able to talk to her about these different things that happen with our bodies (age appropriate talk of course;) and how incredible it is. She watches everything that is happening with the baby and her questions make me so happy. I love that we can talk about it all.
*When Brooke first saw a picture of the baby and me (right after she was born) she told my mom, ‘that’s MY mama.’ I was a little nervous how the meeting would go but Skye had little presents there for kids when they arrived and after a few minutes of watching her, both kids fell in love with her. The other day Skye was crying and Brooke ran into the other room and grabbed a rattle and came in to use it to calm Skye down. It worked and Brooke felt like a million bucks after that. Knox has given her his old blankets and wants to play peek-a-boo all day with her. I love watching them find ways to ‘serve’ her the best way their five year old brains can think of.
*My anxiety is about 1/10th what it was with Brooke. I’m not sure if that is because I have done this before and so I worry about it a bit less or if my hormones are doing better than they did with Brooke. Either way, I feel like I have a healthy amount of worry in my brain (because mom’s have to worry at least a little bit)… but nothing like it was when I first had Brooke.
*I am home. We are home. The baby isn’t leaving (unless it is to a doctor appointment or to drop the kids off at school or something) for a while to avoid getting sick etc. We are home bound right now and I’ll go out for a walk or something every now and then but that’s it. My OBGYN, the pediatrician and ER doctor brother called and gave me this advice to do, so and I’m sticking to it! Something that helps me with being home bound (but honestly, being home all day watching movies with Skye and snuggling is kind of the best) is showering each day and getting ready. It makes me feel SO MUCH BETTER and it wakes me up a bit too.
*I’ve loved the process of starting to get to know Skye’s little personality. Each day I feel like I get to learn more and I absolutely love that.
*Skye LOVES the Rock n’ Play. Loves it.
*Breastfeeding. Nipple gel pads and Newman’s 2% ointment prescription from my doctor have saved my life. I was hurting SO BAD there for a few days and those two things have taken away so much of the pain. I had to use a nipple guard too for a little bit there (to make it easier for Skye to latch) but now we are good to go and it seems like we are figuring it out (which I never did the first time around)! My milk came in pretty much exactly 48 hours after she was born and I’ve started pumping a bit each day to help feel like I’m not going to explode ha. I’ve been living in these nursing tanks and they are so soft.
A few things that I think are helping me this time around: 1. I’ve really slowed down with life and I’m taking the time (which is a lot of time) to learn breastfeeding with Skye. We are home 100% of the time which gives us the perfect opportunity to figure this out. 2. Skye came HUNGRY and ready to latch and eat. This has helped the most. 3. My stress levels are not what they were back when I tried doing this with Brooke and I think that helps a lot. 4. Andrew is the best supporter of everything going on and I think that has made a huge difference in how breastfeeding is going for me! 5. I have never drunk so much water in my life along with making sure to eat plenty and often so that I am fueling my recovery and my ability to feed her 6. I met with a lactation consultant and she had a lot of great tips for me!
PS don’t get me wrong, breastfeeding is still hard and I feel like I learn a little bit each day but there are times where I feel that incredible bonding feeling and think about how much I love to breastfeed now. Each day gets better and easier!
*Our house has never been so messy ever and I don’t care:) The kitchen is always clean (because Andrew knows how important that is to me and I actually really love cleaning that too) but the rest of the house is a disaster and it will be that way for a while.
*Food tastes so good. I almost can’t believe how good it is again.
*I have LIVED. Lived in the Blanqi leggings. I ordered a pair thinking I might kind of like them but I’m obsessed. They go all the way up to the top of your stomach, they fit amazing and they are so soft. They are the perfect amount of tightness and looseness if that makes sense. I’ll be wearing these for a long time because trying on my old jeans isn’t going to be a thing for a while.
*The kids are both amazing at remembering to sanitize. They carry their little bottles around with them and put it on all day long. They want to take care of her.
*Like pretty much every baby, Skye likes to sleep all day long and party at night:) Each night seems to get a little bit better but Andrew is the best to do this with because he loves to be up late and talking to me while I feed her or burping/changing her/getting her back to sleep. He takes over until about 1 or 2 in the morning and then I take the rest of the night and that seems to work with us.
*When the kids are gone at school I am really taking that time to do nothing but savor those moments with Skye. We get back in bed for three hours and just cuddle. Once they are home then there is more multitasking going on and trying to make sure everyone is feeling loved and important but those three hours in the morning are sacred to me! One morning it was just Brooke and Skye and me. I found myself standing while Brooke was eating her pancakes, breastfeeding Skye and doing Brooke’s hair with my other hand, all at the same time.
*During labor= I am never doing this again. After she was born= Andrew, let’s have ten more… this is amazing!
*I’m really enjoying feeling like my emotions and hormones are back to themselves again. Between the IUD and pregnancy, it feels like it has been forever since I’ve truly felt 100% myself and now I do (which I know is so lucky postpartum).
*Somehow our laundry has tripled which doesn’t quite make sense because we have just added one member to our family ha.
*I have no idea how much I gained during pregnancy so I have no idea how much I’ll lose nor do I think about it. I trust my body to get to a set point that will sustain breastfeeding for as long as it can by eating healthy (along with plenty of treats) and exercise. Right now I’ve gone on like two mini walks and that is it. I’ll start running in 5 more weeks (if my body gives me the green light) and from there I’ll stick to 5ks and 10ks for a bit before increasing my mileage. I’m not worried about size/weight/etc and I trust my body to do it’s thing and take care of this family of mine. It’s a place I never thought I would get to back when I was in my 20s and really struggling with eating but I am so thankful I am here.
*It’s pretty amazing how you can be completely sleep deprived, really sore in the places you don’t want to be sore and spending a lot of your brain power each day on a little 7 lb being… and be so completely happy about it all. There are definitely hard moments (don’t want to sugarcoat things) but I swear doing the hard stuff makes us the happiest.
Mom’s reading—> What do you remember from the first few weeks of your little one’s life?
Tips for switching around the ‘sleep all day, party all night’ mentality of newborns? When did your kids start sleeping through the night or at least sleeping better?
Have any cute stories about your kids lately? I want to hear them!