I can’t stop thinking about all of those affected by Hurricane Harvey. I cannot even imagine what everyone there is going through. Our prayers are with you and HERE is how we can all help.
It sure felt good to get out there and move again! 7 miles @ 9:18 pace and cool temperatures (I saw other runners out there in sweatshirts)!! While I was running there were two guys walking towards me and one went to give me a high five but I’m on high alert while running so I sprinted to the other side of the street. I had to laugh at myself when I realized they were just trying to give me a high five.
Love finishing up before they are awake!
Monday morning= clean the whole house morning with some couch breaks along the way:)
Tuna is just calling my name these days! I like to just mix it with bbq sauce (I could put bbq sauce on pretty much everything) to go on top of my Dave’s Killer Bread.
We made it over to a play area!
And then had a stop at Costco. THE GLOVES ARE OUT!?!? That is not a good sign. I will be on the treadmill pretty much this entire winter because I do not want to fall.
I was happy they had the Halloween costumes out too because it is never too early for this holiday obsessed mom to get prepared:) I’m excited to have three costumes to buy next year!
We watched Knox preform his Michael Jackson moves…
Brooke and I cuddled on the couch while he danced.
Andrew made us this teriyaki chicken last night for dinner and it was a hit for all four of us:)
And because I am sick of driving to Culver’s to get a shake… I created my own at home to eat in bed.
Between being pregnant with another little girl and really evaluating how I am going to help my girls to love their bodies and emails that I get from readers struggling with disordered eating… this topic has been on my brain a lot lately. I can’t tell you how many emails I have gotten over the years from women struggling with amenorrhea that have people tell them that IT’S OKAY that they have lost their periods from exercising too much and/or eating too little. They also get the advice to just make changes once they want to start having children!?!? I disagree with this way of thinking with every fiber of my being and it breaks my heart. When we lose our periods due to over-excessing and/or underfeeding it is our body’s RED FLAG TO US that something is not right. It is our reproductive system shutting down because our body knows it isn’t in a good spot!
I struggled with amenorrhea because my body was in such a rough position. I was running too much and teaching too many spin classes for the amount of calories I was eating each day. My body fat was way too low for me. I was definitely in denial about the situation and my priorities were so messed up (I thought for sure that being lighter would mean I would be faster > my health). It took two fractured femurs and my doctor explaining to me that I had osteopenia (reduced bone mass) and nearly osteoporosis because of how I was taking care of my body. My doctor gave me a talk about how if I wanted to have children in the future, I needed to make changes right away. Which I did. I stopped running, ate more calories each day and most definitely increased the amount of fat I ate each day (with nut butters, eggs, cheeses, yogurts, avocado etc). For me personally, I think the most important thing was increasing my BODY FAT. Just gaining weight wasn’t enough, because I could have gained muscle and I don’t think that would have helped me as much as I needed… I needed to gain fat. After about six months of working hard towards this goal, I had my period and I’ve had it ever since (besides when I’m pregnant… I even had one 28 days after Brooke was born ha). PS I was a WAY faster runner with the 30 lbs that I put on compared to when I was underweight (and I also wasn’t injured all of the time:).
I don’t know where we are at with disordered eating in our community at this point. I hope that it is a problem that has lessened over the years as we have become more educated about amenorrhea and other health consequences from underfeeding ourselves. I seriously do not know how in the world I used to go out on these crazy runs without eating a thing before and not much the day before for that matter either. My safe foods list was short, and my NO foods list was sure long. I looked at a meal or snack always with the question of, ‘did I work out hard enough today for this?’ Food was thought about more than my people and my obsession to look a certain way took me away from the things I loved doing the most. And like everyone says that has struggled with this problem, even at my thinnest… I was positive I needed to lose more.
I was constantly looking into a mirror and focusing on myself rather than looking through a window at the other people and the world around me. I am positive that that just doesn’t equal happiness.
I just finished reading Love Warrior: A Memoir (after hearing Glennon’s story about addictions etc on Oprah’s SuperSoul Conversations I was interested in reading her story). There was a part I loved where she explained to her daughters what the world tries to teach us about how we should look vs reality:
“I think sexy is a grown-up word to describe a person who’s confident that she is already exactly who she was made to be. A sexy woman knows herself and she likes the way she looks, thinks, and feels. She doesn’t try to change to match anybody else. She’s a good friend to herself— kind and patient. And she knows how to use her words to tell people she trusts about what’s going on inside of her- her fears and anger, love, dreams, mistakes, and needs. She doesn’t hide her true self because she’s not ashamed. She knows she’s just human- exactly how God made her and that’s good enough…. Fake sexy is different. It’s just more hiding. Real sexy is taking off all of your costumes and being yourself. Fake sexy is just wearing another costume. Companies know that people want to be sexy so badly because people want love. They know that love can’t be sold, so they have big meetings in board rooms and they say, ‘How can we convince people to buy our stuff? I know! We’ll promise them that this stuff will make them sexy!” Then they make up what sexy means so they can sell it.”
I know there are SO many factors that play into eating disorders/disordered eating and if you struggle, now is the time to reach out for help (I went to different therapists for years along with family and a lot of prayer). While I don’t struggle with this problem anymore, I’ve had plenty of days where I struggle feeling like I do not meet the world’s definition of what I should look like but like Glennon said, “I was right to want to be beautiful and sexy. I was just wrong to have accepted someone else’s idea of what those words mean.”
Feed your body properly, give it the rest it needs and don’t let anyone else’s idea of what you should look like/be like/act like define you. You are worth so much and you deserve to be happy and healthy.
Other posts I’ve written along the lines of this topic:
Running and Periods: I wrote this post in 2011 after finally realizing how important it was for me to do everything I could to get my period back.
Running and Periods Part 2: an update in 2013 after my first post about it.
One last thing I need to share with you today… my mom’s delicious dessert that she makes:) PS I can’t tell you how happy it makes me to like ice cream items again. Someday candy and I will be reunited but I’m just happy to love ice cream again.
My mom used to make this all of the time and then we all forgot about it somehow until I reminded her the other day about it and she made it for us on Sunday night.
Here is the recipe. That homemade hot fudge on top just takes it to the next level. Let me know if you make it and remember you can always trust my mom’s tried and true recipes because they are the best.
One more picture from Sunday:)
Anyone reading from Texas? Has Hurricane Harvey hit where you are?
Ever struggled with disordered eating/under-fueling/over exercising/amenorrhea or anything like this before? What did you do to help yourself?
A question from Knox… what is your favorite Michael Jackson song? His is Thriller.
What is your workout today? Have a specific run that you do on Tuesday’s? I want the details!
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