Tucson Marathon Recap

There is probably TMI in this post but we are runners so we just ‘get it’ but read at your own risk because I’m just going to say it how it was.

First, I am stoked for this girl… she BQed and it was her first marathon!  She was a blast to talk with on the bus ride.  Don’t mind my toothpaste mark on my sweatshirt.

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Rewind to Saturday—>  my mom and brother walked into the living room and I was just hanging out on the ground.  I told them I felt like I was going to throw up but that I was sure that the feeling would just go away soon.  It did go away but it came back later that night before going to bed.  I chalked it up to race-day nerves and I also had started my period (told you… way too much information in today’s pose) Thursday so I thought it was probably that too.

I woke up at 4:09 a.m. Sunday morning feeling a lot better and beyond excited to race.

We stayed at the Hilton which was awesome because the shuttle busses to the starting line of the race left from our hotel.  I love the big races but the smaller ones are where I like to go for PRs.  Small races take out the stress for me—> the expo, the traveling, getting to the starting line, busses and all of the logistics are just easier and I spend a lot less time on my feet.

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We waited in line for the busses for a few minutes and then took about a 30 minute ride to the starting line.  I felt great but the idea of food was not a happy one.  I ate while on the bus because I knew that I would run out of steam without a calorie rich breakfast.

The startling line was a little bit windy but the temperatures were really great which got me thinking more and more that Sunday was going to be my day.

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And then things went south a bit.

I’m sure my mom loves getting the play by play of every detail of my life.  This was from right before the race:

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After the above situation I felt better again but knew I was going to have some serious calorie catching up to do along the course.  Luckily (I thought), I had a bunch of fuel with me to take and I would just chug water and gatorade at every aid station.  When the gun went off I realized it is pretty bad to start off the marathon thirsty (because of above situation I mentioned) but I tried to not let it psych me out too much and to just drink as much as possible at the first aid station.

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My coach and I had a plan adjusted to the course profile.  Miles 1-2 (CRAZY downhill so this pace was holding back) 6:30 pace, 2-4 closer to a 7:00, 5-10 6:35s, 10-12 7:00, 13-20 6:35s and then that last 10k to do my best, adjust to the hills etc but to stick to under a 7:00.  I was hitting each split exactly how he wanted and I was feeling more and more confident because it felt marathon comfortable (different than comfortable because it is still hard but you can trust that you can stick with it for 26 miles).

I ran with a few guys for most of those first few miles and thought I was in 2nd place for the girls.  I took water at the first aid station and it stayed put but then at the second aid station when I took gatorade it came right back up.  I just kept telling myself it would work out because while I didn’t feel completely normal, l I didn’t feel like I was totally sick?!  I tried my first sip of a gu at mile 6 and the same thing happened…  I started to stress about my fueling but hoped that my stomach would just calm down and adjust over the next few miles.  This had never ever happened to me while running and so I was really confused too.

PS My favorite music strategy for marathons is to go the first hour without it.  For the first hour I really focus on the splits and holding myself back a bit.  I listen to my breathing, think about my plan and chat a bit with the people around me.  At about the hour mark (or sometimes I wait until the 10 mile mark) I turn the tunes on.  As soon as I put the music in I get really excited and love having the beat for the rest of the race.

I passed the first girl at mile 12 (and realized at the same time she was a relay runner) and hit the first half at 1:27:17ish which was about 20 seconds faster than the plan.  Miles 10-14 were an extremely hilly section and so I was happy to get back out to the main road again after those miles.  I tried some water and another gu and nope… my body still wasn’t letting it happen.

This doesn’t look very pretty but the course really had some beautiful sections. This was the main road we were on for most of the miles:

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I kept trying to take in fuel from then on and it just wasn’t happening.  I really don’t know exactly what was wrong but I have a few guesses:

1.  I was around a few people right before leaving to Arizona that ended up having the 24 hour flu this weekend and who knows… I could have gotten that same bug and had the flu.  Real fun timing.

2.  My gut may not be fully healed.  Overall, my stomach problems/IBS have been SO much better but maybe all of the race day nerves and eating more fat than I normally do (for some reason that seems to flare things up for me personally) may have made everything go crazy again.  Sometimes my attitude about things gets me into trouble when I stay a little bit too positive about things including my ideas that my body heals faster than it does… I probably should have waited longer to go for another marathon and let everything have more time to heal.  You live and you learn.  My coach and I talked a lot about switching over to more organic running energy sources too due to my stomach being super sensitive these days.

3.  The Marathon Gods were angry with me;)  Very angry.

At mile 19 I was at an average of 6:44 so far and I was still in the lead.  I was shooting for a 6:48 average for the whole marathon because gamins can be off (and mine was about .16 over) and so we wanted to make sure I wasn’t cutting it too close for the A goal by thinking my garmin would be right on.

19.5ish miles is when things went downhill fast.  My stomach was feeling worse and I hit empty.  Our bodies can only go so long with zero fuel and for me on Sunday, it was 19ish miles.  I’ve hit the wall plenty of times before but this felt different.  I stopped and walked for a few minutes each of those last miles.  The walking most definitely helped me to feel a bit normal again before trying to run again.  With each walking break I got passed again but at that point I just wanted to finish.   I had 7 miles to realize that my A goal was out the window and to come to terms with it.  I realized that it was completely out of my control which helped me to be okay with it.  There was nothing I could have done, dropping down my pace was the absolute best I could give at that point running on zero.  I was out of energy but I was going to finish even if that meant walking the whole way.

I got close to the end and I saw my brother from Kentucky standing there… I 100% thought I was just seeing things ha.  I mean I was in the desert… it could have been a mirage.  But nope, it was him.  He flew all the way there just to come be at my race.  He ran with me for a little bit and then I crossed the finish line.  PS he is the brother that was an incredible runner in high school and he still runs now and he gives me the BEST pep talks.

And the last stretch.  I don’t even remember it but I’m glad I have a picture to remember it now.

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I finished 5th for the women and 1st in my age group.

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After the race I just plopped down on the ground until my brother brought me over to the grass.  Between feeling dehydrated, crazy sugar low and exhausted…. I broke down.  To be honest, I didn’t feel super awful at that point because I missed the sub 3 (I mean it was annoying but hey, I beat my post-baby PR by 2 minutes and 14 seconds) because I knew I did my absolute best given the circumstances but I just felt super bad.  I felt awful that my brother flew all the way to Arizona to see my race and I finished nearly crawling, I felt bad that my mom rearranged her schedule to come be with me, I felt bad that my other brother dragged three of his kiddos out of bed at 6 a.m. to make the drive down to the race to cheer me on.  I have this weird thing where I just want to make my brothers really proud and I felt bad that I was pretty much crawling when they actually saw me on the course and 10+ minutes after I had told everyone.  I remember in high school whenever I had a decision between right and wrong to make I would think about how making a bad decision would affect my brothers and how I didn’t want to disappoint them…  Sorry, I tend to open up too much and I am now crying as I am writing this just thinking about disappointing my family.  I know, I’m weird… You’ve known this since the first day you started reading this blog.

Now that I look back on how bad I felt afterwards (now that I am not so emotional/dehydrated/depleted) I know my family loves me no matter what but I was so out of it I just wasn’t thinking straight.

After I told my brother sorry for not getting the sub 3 like a million times he told me that I better stop it saying that.  He was more proud of me for finishing the marathon with so many obstacles along the way than he would have been if I had an easy breazy sub 3 marathon day.  He had felt strongly a few weeks ago that he should make the trip out to the race and I think it was because I just really needed him there to help me feel like a million bucks afterwards.

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Obsessed with these kiddos.  They stayed up making posters for me.  The best.

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About 20 minutes after finishing my family brought me a coconut snow cone (which I will never be able to eat again after this experience ha) to get in some water and calories.  It didn’t go well and at that point I felt way worse off than I did during those final miles.   My body just wasn’t letting anything in.

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So, I got to hang out in the med tent for a bit to get back to normal and to stop dry heaving etc.  The people there were great and so nice and after about 45 minutes I could leave.  I stuck to water for the rest of the day and ate some chicken at about 8 pm and that stayed down but didn’t feel great.

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A few battle wounds along the way that I don’t remember happening ha.

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And a medal that I am proud of.  I put it all out there and while I didn’t hit my A or B goal, I know I will just keep trying until I do.  It might mean I take 2 minutes off with each race until I get there but that’s okay.  I love the training and sometimes these crazy goals that we have take years and years but that will make the accomplishment that much more sweeter when I get it.  Plus, I like to set crazy (for me) goals… it makes life more exciting and it makes me want to work harder.

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A good friend sent this to me and I love it:

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I remember towards the beginning of this blog I did a 1/2 marathon and came up short of my sub 1:30 goal by 2 minutes or something.  It devastated me and I remember being grumpy for about a week because of it.  Over the last few years I really have learned that running is just running.  It’s okay to be bummed that you missed your goal but I think the key is to bounce back and try again.  I think I’ve learned that there are a lot worse things than a bad race and as long as I gave my best effort… I’m proud of how it all went down.

And as my coach says, SHIZ happens.  In every aspect of life.  But how you deal with it makes the world of difference.

So, when is the next marathon?

Honestly, not for awhile.   I’m going to recover then run easy and let my gut fully heal before my next marathon.  Next year will involve 5ks, 10ks, a 1/2 or two and then one fall marathon.  But stick around because I will have plenty of randomness for you along the way.

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What does your 2016 running/race schedule look like?

Tell me about some of the hardest obstacles you have encountered during a race?

Big race or small race?  Which do you prefer?

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I get into odd thinking when I’m struggling during a marathon as well so I don’t think that’s weird at all! It can be a very dark place all around at mile 20. I really feel terrible that you dealt with stomach issues basically for 2 days, that’s just miserable whether you have a goal marathon or not! I have also been there with stomach issues during a marathon and know the feeling of dread, frustration, confusion, etc. Definitely let your gut heal and get some quality rest time!

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I did five marathons this year and none of them turned out (time-wise) what I would have hoped for. But that’s ok. Right now I’m taking a break and enjoying some downtime and the holidays, then I’ll get back into it. When I was in Greece doing a marathon, I got really sick during the race and started throwing up. After the race, I couldn’t even walk to find my family because anytime I stood up I would get sick. Not to mention, I was in a foreign country, didn’t know where my family was at after having to rest for so long, and didn’t speak the language. All turned out ok and it makes for a good story now, but it wasn’t fun at the time.

You’ll definitely get there and you should be so proud of the new, post-Brooke PR! Hope you get to feeling better soon! :)

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FIVE marathons!! Sarah- you are amazing (and slightly crazy!). That is incredible!

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Haha…the crazy part is probably right! I’ve done five per year the last few years. I think the most I’ve done is 7 in a year. My goal is all 50 states! :)

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How many states have you done so far? What was your favorite marathon so far?

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So far I’ve done 28 states and 39 marathons total. It’s hard to pick a favorite. My PR is in Seattle and I love Seattle because my now-husband proposed while we were there for the marathon. Boston is special. I qualified for Boston the first time in Kansas City and it was one of those races where everything just falls into place. Utah Valley was gorgeous. Nike Women’s Marathon in SF was my first and it was a perfect first race. So those are probably my top five! :)

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With all of your hard work in marathon training this year I bet you will set new PRs in the shorter distances next year leading into an awesome time at your fall marathon.

I prefer bigger races because I am a slower runner and in small races I will end up being one of the last runners to finish which isn’t good for my self esteem, haha. I know my friends like smaller races because it’s easier for them to podium. I am sure I would feel that way too if I had a chance! Maybe someday … there’s always the 80yr old plus category ;) #goals

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I’m totally with you on the 80+ age group podium goal, Kristina!! May we be so lucky to still be running.

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Fingers crossed for us! :D

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I’m sitting here thinking “hmm do I like big or small races better” then I read your response and yup I totally agree! At least for anything half marathon or longer. I thought about signing up for a marathon last year until I looked at how many finished it the year before and I was like “nope, nevermind”. I cannot be last in a marathon, mentally it would break me!

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Exactly! Also, I think you should totally go for a full marathon! I did the Portland Marathon as my first once because it’s walker friendly and has an 8 hour time limit, lol. I knew if they let walkers in that I would at least beat someone! ;)

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I did the Portland Marathon in 2013 as my first (and only so far)! It was the perfect size race! I am signed up for Big Sur marathon in April but am struggling with knee pain. Hoping I can make it happen though I hear it’s amazing!

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You did an amazing job and you were sick. That’s just so unbelievable. You should be proud of yourself. I know I am!

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Stomach issues are the worst during a marathon and I am so sorry you had to deal with those. I’ve had stomach problems during a marathon and can empathize with just how awful they can make you feel. Good for you for pushing past them!
I honestly think you will have a great year of racing shorter races. You have an incredible amount of talent, especially in the half marathon!
Small races all the way for me! All of my 2016 races are small.

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So glad you are feeling a bit better — and wow — can’t believe you ran that well being sick!!! I struggle to run when I’m healthy — sending good thoughts and prayers your way! Excited to keep following you and see where your journey leads! Have a restful rest of your week!!

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Oh Janae, I feel you girl. Feeling guilty for those who supported you after the race was the same way I felt at Philly. People stood in the freezing cold and basically watched me jog. So frustrating. Sending you all the love and hugs! I know you have sub-3 in you, no doubt about that.

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Praying for your healing. Thank you for being so open and honest… You are one strong woman!!

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Sounds like it was a tough race, but I’m glad you’re feeling better about it. I’m looking forward to seeing what next year has in store. I think you could totally clean up at the 10k distance!

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I just love you and this recap. You are SUCH a strong a runner. I think that you are taking this gracefully, continue with the positive outlook…. you did such a hard thing on Sunday! ps each of your brothers are about to call you and tell you stop being so silly, you could never disappoint them :) xoxo … rest and enjoy your recovery!

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Beautifully written! 5th overall and first in your age group is amazing!! All while being so sick…I’d say you killed it really! I’m sorry you missed your first goal but you should be proud. And your attitude today with handling disappointment is an inspiration. I think us runners can really struggle even with little disappointments along the way. It’s important to remember running will be there and it’s going to be okay!

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Aw Janae! My heart was breaking for you while reading this. Sometimes our bodies just revolt and we have no choice but to obey them. I’m glad that nothing more serious happened and that you’re OK! I hope that you can figure out this stomach situation ASAP.

Last year I had similar issues and threw up before, during and after every race. While I’m a lot slower than you, I can definitely relate to the frustration. I changed up my fueling, ran more races so I didn’t have race day anxiety, and let go of time goals. I know that would be difficult or impossible for you, but it might help! When I let go of those inner and outer expectations, I hit my goals of breaking 2 hours in a half and actually enjoyed myself- without throwing up :) Next year I’m doing my third full after two very unsuccessful ones and hoping to apply the same mindset!

By the way, I can promise you everyone in your family is extremely proud of you. You are an amazing mom, sister, daughter, friend, and runner. I’m sure they all just want you to be happy and healthy and help as much as possible! You still had an incredible race and none of them can possibly be disappointed in you..maybe just disappointed for you since you wanted it so badly!

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First, you always write the best recaps. Second, I’m so proud to “know” you. With all of the obstacles you still raced your heart out AND got a PR. I know stomach issues all too well so I’m in awe that you made it through despite them. Congrats and ENJOY your well-deserved rest.

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If I had never found your blog, I’m not sure I would’ve ever gotten into long distance running. You helped me see running as this awesome, empowering thing and I wanted to be a part of that. Now running is a huge part of my life and when I need to cry, celebrate, or blow of steam, I turn to running. I started reading here in March 2013 when I was just 19 years old, and I’ve done many half-marathons and 2 full-marathons since then. In April, I’ll be at Boston. I will always been impressed by you no matter what, and you’ll always be such a huge role model. After my runs every morning I always check here to see what’s up in Hungry Runner world. You are so strong, brave, and inspiring. I’ll always be cheering you on!

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So proud of you, Janae! The marathon is a beast, and it’s so frustrating when things like this happen. I like your positive attitude.

I once ran a half marathon on a broken hip (horrible idea), and I thought I was going to die at one point. (That might be slightly dramatic.) It’s difficult when we don’t hit our goals and have to endure pain, but those moments make us stronger in the end. YOU ARE WONDERFUL!!!!

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I’m really proud of you! Most people would DNF and you not only finished but still finished with a spectacular time! I remember it took me a years to qualify for Boston due to injuries. When it finally happened, I was so happy I didn’t even care about running Boston – I was just so happy to get my BQ! Strange right? I’ve never been sick in a race but I tend to get horrible side stitches from going out to fast that ruin it for me. No races planned yet, currently nursing yet another injury! UGH. Once I know I can train I’ll start looking around. I like both but for different reasons. Big for fun, small to PR. Btw your family is so amazing and supportive!!! Love it.

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Janae,
Although the day did not work out as planned, you still had an AMAZING day. You had a post baby PR by over 2 minutes on what could be deemed as a tougher course. You BQ’d. How may other runners would die for being top 5 overall women and first in their age group and getting back to Boston a second time? Kudos to you. You effort was there. You had a strategy and stuck to the plan. Sometimes there are other factors our there that can be out of your control. Don’t worry about the shoulda – coulda – woulda things…..that’s why it is a process…VERY FEW people every achieve difficult goals…..EVEN FEWER people every try to achieve the most challenging of goals that seem IMPOSSIBLE. Your hard work, dedication and commitment will get you there and prove that ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE. Remember these pieces of advice from some notables….as you recover from the race:

“I really don’t think life is about the I-could-have-should-have beens. Life is only about the I-tried-to-do. I don’t mind the failure but I can’t imagine that I’d forgive myself if I didn’t try.” Nikki Giovanni

“It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed.” Theodore Roosevelt

“Failure happens all the time. It happens every day in practice. What makes you better is how you react to it.” Mia Hamm

“The only real failure in life is not to be true to the best one knows.” Buddha
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There will be another day – keep your chin up – I’m PROUD of you!
Coach Dave ~~

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Janae,

I thought of you during my easy 6 miler this morning. Why would a 41 yr. old Mom of 3 girls (ages 6, 12, & 15) spend time thinking about a blogger I have never met?!? Like you, I missed my goal marathon almost 5 weeks ago because I got sick the week of the race and still had a fever the day before. 5 months of training with my sights set for a sub 3:30 only to have to switch gears and reschedule (marathon this Saturday!)! So, I found and started reading your blog over a year ago because of the shared running interest, but I have continued reading your blog because of YOU! You are a perfect blend of dignity, strength, humility, and positivity in the face of difficult circumstances. Amd your family! My goodness…. There would be a lot less crime in this world if everyone were so lucky to be loved and supported by such a wonderful crew as yours! Just remember this… Your readers were all cheering you on to reach your goal, but we read, NOT because of your impressive running ability (trust me, there are plenty of blogs out there of talented runners), but because we like you, we want you to succeed, and we are rooting for you because we can see your pure goodness in every post. Keep your chin up! There is something you will learn from this (God uses your difficulties for good!!!).

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Beautifully stated. Ditto

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Your family loves you the same regardless of a marathon finish time silly. And let’s see. Perspective here. You came in 5th female! Holy shizzle. On no fuel and “flow” tagging along. That just proves how much running means to you. take good care of yourself and don’t make any marathon plans for a while. You are chipping away and will get there soon!
2016 will be shorter distances for me. No full marathons. I can’t fit in real training lately and I want to enjoy the act of running versu netting a schedule of training runs.

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Super proud of you for toughing it out. That was something that was really hard given the circumstances – and you did it. You can still do hard things. Congrats on your finish, you should be proud no matter what.

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I had my marathon on Saturday and it was very similar minus the throwing up. I had a strong first half and then things started slowly going south. It was a pretty emotionally race for me as well. I wanted my time to be about 10 faster and while I was upset during the marathon, afterwards I was just proud that I continued after realizing I wasn’t going to make my goal and I’m happy you are too!

Races are so mentally tough and I’m taking a little break from racing for that reason. I know I’m going to start craving competition again soon, but I’m going to make myself wait for it and not exhaust myself this spring!

I really think that they’ll be a time for you to break 3:00 and a time for me to get closer to 3:10, but I think the hype gets to me and maybe it does the same for you. I have thoughts of doing signing up for a secret marathon that only one or two people know I’m doing and having no one come to cheer to take the pressure off. haha it sounds crazy, but I honestly think it would give me a better chance!

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I love your honesty. I ve run 26 marathons and I can count on one hand the ones that were amazing. I agree with you about its what you do after that defines you. I can run other distances but found the marathon to teach me the most about myself.

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So proud of your grace and courage. And I know that finish time is not want you wanted, but girl you are still smokin’ fast! Take care of yourself and keep your chin up. You will get that sub 3- if anyone can do it, it’s you. Sending hugs your way. :)

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SO true about thoughts of disappointing family- I still get crippling nerves any time I think I am going to disappoint my big brother! Turns out what your family said is true- they love you no matter what!

2016 will be some 1/2s, one marathon, some 5ks, and who knows!

Biggest obstacles during runs/races include mental defeat, stomach problems, people stopping (literally, just stopped moving) right in front of me, cars, and small dogs chasing me. Wouldn’t trade it for the world though :)

I’m a small race girl- but that’s just me! The boy likes big races which is good- then we can cheer each other on at our respective races!

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What a day! I cannot even imagine. The longest run I’ve done is a half, and that was plenty!

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You did great under the circumstances – well done. x

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Holy moly!! I am beyond impressed with your dedication! Admittedly, if I was vomiting, I probably would have quit. Though, running sure does test or limits. I can’t imagine your experience, and your time is still impressive. Rest up, you deserve it!

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I like big races. The expos and finish lines are so much more fun! Next year I am running a 10k and a few 5ks. I am done with 1/2 marathons for awhile because right now I just don’t have the time or drive to train for one.
Way to go! Finishing a marathon is such an accomplishment especially when you are feeling not so great. There will always be another race to hit your goal!

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You are amazing! There is no way I would have been able to run if I spent the morning puking. Your mental toughness is seriously on point, this will be my inspiration when I hit the wall in my first marathon Saturday!

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I love this post! In November, I was so excited and pumped because I was running my first ever marathon…the Rock N Roll Savannah. I had had a really good training cycle and I was confident that I could do it. No time goal, just finish 26.2 miles and walk away with the medal and finisher’s jacket. Well, it was unseasonably hot and they ended up calling the race OFF before I could actually finish. They blockaded the road and turned us around! My garmin said 22.5 when I crossed the finish line. I have never walked in a race before, but I had to walk some toward the end. It was so disappointing!! I had battled the stomach flu at the beginning of that week, and that along with the heat that I had not trained for just was too much for me I guess. I would have finished but it wouldn’t have been a great finish. So I cried and cried and I was grumpy about it. But two people died that day and they don’t get to race again. I am thankful that the race officials were thinking about our health and what was best and looking back it was best for me. So I am signing up for another one in March and I am going to go for it again! One thing though…for some reason, I CANNOT wear that finisher’s jacket….not until I run 26.2. That’s not weird, right? Everybody tells me to wear it, but I just can’t. It doesn’t seem right to me.

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I was signed up for RnR Savannah- my hometown, but had fever the day before and sat it out! Tough call considering I trained my butt off for 5 months! However, what a blessing in disguise that was. Running Kiawah marathon this weekend instead! Best of luck in March!

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I totally understand not being able to wear the finisher’s jacket! I had a medal and finisher’s t-shirt from my first marathon earlier this year where I got pulled off course at mile 20 due to lightning. I just threw both in a corner and was so mad I couldn’t look at either. Then 4 months later I finished my second attempt at my 1st marathon and now I feel the right to display/wear. :) (So just save it till spring, it’s okay!)

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What’s weird is that I am a little like you in how you felt after the race. (Not so much about the time, but the idea of letting others down who gave so much over the days, weekend, and months of training)

I get it!! I have to admit in the past I refrain from talking about things that really excite me or that I really want to work for because my mom and dad tend to go 100% into too. They call. They support. They give flowers, gifts and inspirational cards….so much that when the “thing” what ever it may be actually arrives I start to feel all gross.

Worried. Anxious. Nervous….I get to thinking what if it doesn’t happen and look how much my parents have done for me thus, the let down. Weird!!!

(Let me know how you get over it so I can too….ha!)

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I got very emotional reading about your desire to make your brothers/family proud. I am sure you did that day and that you do every day. You have a wonderful family.

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Something about your last comments about your tentative running plans for next year made me want to say: You know we come to your blog for more than just making sure you’re running a big race, right? I mean, sure – I love reading about your goals and everything. And, I certainly like to read when you meet them. BUT, your readers stay because we genuinely want what is best for you and love reading about you and your family. I can promise that we’ll all be here whether you’re running 1 mile fun runs or PRd marathons!

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Yes, absolutely! I completely agree – I love reading about all the things in your life and would continue reading even if you never ran again.

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Finishing the race in these conditions is so much more impressive than an under 3 marathon. If I were you this is the medal I would be most proud of. (Plus, it’s a cool medal.) I’m pretty new to running, so I haven’t had a race horror story yet. But I know it happens to everyone and I worry about how I’ll handle it when it happens to me. Hearing your story reminds me that it’s really no big deal and it doesn’t make you less of a runner. In fact, it makes you an even stronger one. Thanks for sharing this!

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Well, it’s like my mom told me before the Marine Corps Marathon this year: “It’s not a race, girls, don’t push yourselves.”

And because I am slow, the smaller marathons mean I either a) won’t meet the cut off or b) I’ll be out there all by myself and it’ll be kind of creepy weird so I need a bigger marathon.

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Sorry this one was so difficult, but man.. you are so inspirational. Keep up the positive outlook!

And I’ve wanted to say this for days (forever…), but you really do have the most amazing family. Absolutely wonderful to read about! :)

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Janae, this post made me want to cry with you as I read it. We are all so incredibly proud of you and I’m sure your family will always be proud of you no matter what!! Reading your blog everyday keeps me motivated so that one day I can run my first marathon! I am so amazed that you were still able to run with stomach problems. If that happened to me I am sure that I would not have ran at all. For you to have those issues and still come out with your C goal is absolutely amazing and your perseverance inspires me!
In 2016, I hope to run my very first 10 mile race and 1/2 marathon race at the beginning of the year and marathon race toward the end of the year.
I feel like I would prefer a small race but I think the excitement of a big race would make me motivated as well.

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So sorry you had to struggle through that but man are you tough!! You have a sub-3 in you, I just know it. I love what your friend sent you! And your family wouldn’t have it any other way than to be there for you, I’m sure. Wishing you well as you heal and rest.

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This is an awesome recap. I can completely understand how you felt, I felt the same during my first marathon. I told my family what time I was hoping to get and my final time was a lot longer than that, I felt bad that they were waiting there in anticipation for so long and at that moment I felt like I had let them down. I think the long miles shake up our brain a bit and we can’t think straight for a while. You did great and a post baby PR while being sick is amazing. I’m sure you’re nieces and nephews look up to you, you are so strong.

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You will achieve your A-goal – you have the ability too and one day the marathon gods won’t be so angry with you :-) My GI system knows when it is race day and goes into hyper-drive too.

I have a few 5K’s, 10Ks a half marathon and one fall marathon in the plans for 2016. Not 100% sure about the fall marathon though, I can easily switch to the half if timing doesn’t work out.

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Janae, you are such an inspiration! I can’t believe that you not only finished a marathon while throwing up, but you freaking ran it in a 3:10!! When my runner self grows up, I want to be you!
2016: I’m signed up for 3 half marathons. I’m debating a full in May. I just ran two 5ks and those are a totally different animal, so I want to tackle a few more and some 10ks as well.
I haven’t had anything too crazy happen during a race. I need to figure out the whole hyperventilating while running a 5k thing out though.
I agree that small races are good for PR’s :) It’s fun to mix it up though too.

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You’re such such a champ for still running the marathon despite your gut issues. I’m I’m so glad that your attitude towards running has changed. Changed run should never devastate you or anybody. :)

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Oh Janae, you incredible woman, you. I am so proud of your effort and strength this past weekend and the class in which you handle not reaching your A goal. THAT is the most inspiring.

I love it – my race year looks ALMOST identical to yours next year. Best of luck. :)

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My 2016 race schedule isn’t quite set yet…but I’ve got at least one Spring half, hopefully a second. One as a goal half, one for fun. & probably a fall goal half & a relay race or two sprinkled in.

Umm during my first marathon, my grandma had passed a few days prior & her funeral was the day before. I found a penny on the ground at mile 20ish (she used to sing me a song called “Pennies from Heaven”) & I lost it. I was sobbing as I hobbled down the race course, then I saw my mom who says “You look terrible honey, should I get the car?”

Uhh MOM!? NO. We laugh about her comments now, but boy was that the wrong thing to say right then. Haha.

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Thanks for sharing! I had tears in my eyes reading it….the dedication of your family, your feelings of letting them down….we runners understand these things! I know the feeling having a goal, telling the fam to be watching for me, and then it not coming together and feeling like I let them down. It’s all part of running. While I’ve done over a dozen full marathons (one trail that was probably the toughest but most rewarding), I’ll stick to half marathons in 2016. I have at least 4 on my calendar….2 in the spring and 2 in the fall.

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One of the hardest obstacles I’ve faced was during the Boston Marathon last year. I had a great training cycle and was looking to get sub 3:20 and I knew I could do it. Well one week before I got hit by a car during my last long run (thankfully I was okay just a swollen knee, scraps, and an out place hip). Regardless I did not hit my goal and finished the race running like a pimp with a limp (; So just realize that sometimes things are out of our control. The only thing you can do is get back up when life knocks you down and give it another go! You will get that sub 3:00 one day you just got to stay resilient and persevere.

Big Races all the way! Love the energy of them (hate the porta potty lines)

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You finished with a stomach flu. I can say with confidence that I’m pretty sure that by the half I would have given up if I was throwing up the whole time. Me and throwing up are worst enemies.
I totally get the making your brothers proud thing. I’m the same way, especially with my oldest brother when it comes to running. That is one thing that I think about to push me during races.

Next year I don’t have much of a racing schedule. It’s hard to know with running and pregnancy. But hopefully I’ll be able to at least keep running so I can race again soon.

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What a great post. I am totally in awe of you. Your attitude in the face of disappointment, your perseverance, your running skills. You’re awesome.

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Hope your stomach is feeling better by now because you deserve the joy that comes from refueling after a marathon.
Love you dear friend!

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Something I remind myself every time I lace up my shoes is that “all I can do is give all that I have today”. Every day is not the same, and some days’ “all” can be more or less than others. I’m endlessly impressed by you, Janae, that you always give your all, whatever that looks like on that day. Sunday’s race was no different. You’re setting a great example to Brooke and your nieces and nephews about commitment, determination, and humility. Thank you for sharing such an honest recap!

The hardest thing I ever faced in a race was getting to start of the Jacksonville marathon in Feb 2014. Everything that race morning went wrong. I accidentally left my knee band in my race bag and had to run back to bag check to fish it out. My iPod died in the corral. It was more humid than it was supposed to be. I was mentally so out of it that I took me three miles to get my head right. Good news, I still PR’d! It was my first sub-5 hour race.

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Janae, you are so strong, both mentally and physically. You did an amazing job and I’m so happy that you have such a supportive family. I always want to make my family proud too so I totally get you not wanting to disappoint everyone. But as you said, they weren’t disappointed–they were more proud of you!

I’m hoping you have a speedy stomach recovery!

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SO proud of your attitude! Love reading your blog for that reason. Do you set New Year’s resolutions?

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you are so blessed to have the family you have. So much love and support is AMAZING! I am really envious.
Please take care of yourself and allow your health issues to resolve, you are young so still feel somewhat invincible but you only have one body, one life. You have let NO ONE down and your fans will stay with you and your “randomness” makes our day!

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Ugh I am so sorry this didn’t go as planned. Thanks for sharing such a beautifully honest post. I’ll be cheering for you when you try again.

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YOU ROCK! That pretty much sums it up! What does not kill us makes us stronger… Hug your little girl, eat some santa cookies and enjoy your holiday – you deserve it!

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What a great race recap! I really hate that things didn’t go your way, but appreciate your transparency with your readers and your attitude. I honestly can’t think of any major obstacles that have happened to me mid-race (other than maybe a shoe coming untied). I am realizing how fortunate I have been. I am starting off 2016 w/ a half in January and a full in February. I am going to need some down time after that for sure! I know that you don’t need me to tell you this, but … You are enough. You don’t have to earn anyone’s love or respect, especially not your family’s. I totally get it though. It’s one of those things that is easier to recognize and tell other people than to put into practice in your own life I think. Have a great day!

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You are so strong, lady! Give yourself lots of credit. The pictures in this post are absolutely priceless – you are so loved by your family!!! It is a beautiful thing. :)

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To still finish in that time considering all of your issues; you are an inspiration. As someone who ran marathons and many races while in the midst of Crohn’s flares (undiagnosed until after) I can confidently say I have never finished that strong. Keep up that positive outlook. I’ve taken a year off of the marathon myself to let my body heal from my flare and can say for me, I am now running the strongest ever, I’ve PR’d all shorter distances!

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Janae I know we chatted a bit but I’m sorry to hear how they turned out. 3:10 is still an incredible time. I know it’s not exactly what you wanted but I’m proud of you for sticking it out. It’s so inspiring. .

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Next year I hope to do a couple of 50 mile races in the summer, then shorter trail races in the fall. I’ve run a race where the only thing that pulled me through was my consistency of training. At the same time, it’s necessary to take time out afterwards and readjust to life a little, instead of jumping right into another training cycle. That just causes massive burnout. Good for you for aiming for some different goals for a while and taking some rest time off. It’ll be much easier for your gut to heal if hard running isn’t stressing it out.

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I am impressed you did as well as you did with how bad you were feeling! I prefer both big and small races depending on my mood. I did a small half this weekend that I enjoyed but big ones are fun too with the crowd support! It’s nice to have a variety.

Rest up Janae- you are amazing! 3:10 is incredible!

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It’s good you’re looking forward! You always need something to look forward to! Stay positive, you got this!!! <3

For me, I like both big and small races… It really just depends on the actual race. Love the NYC Marathon and all the spectators – but hate the end mile walk and the crowds…

LOVED the Eugene Marathon!! That's about 8,000 people with the half marathon included.

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Janae- you are amazing! I am so proud of you! I handle throwing up like a baby, worse than my 11 year old! The fact that you ran, ran fast, and finished the marathon is INCREDIBLE! You are so inspiring!
I can totally understand not wanting to let your brothers down. I ran a 10k for my Dad, who had a massive stroke while running, and can no longer run- even walking is a challenge. The day was hot and humid with very little shade and I was so afraid to let my Dad down. He didn’t care how I did, he was just thrilled that I did it for him! I know that your family is proud of you and loves you unconditionally. You are blessed.
I hope you are feeling better and I look forward to reading every blog post!

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Great post. I know the disappointment is hard, but you have a great attitude coming out. Its totally normal to be upset about the way the race went down, but now that its over, all you can do is look ahead and live in the now rather than in the past. It was all so out of your control and you did the best you could with that curve ball. I’m proud of you :)

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Great recap. Love your honesty and openness with everything. We’ve all had races that disappointed us and it’s not easy to come clean and then move on.

You are SUCH a rockstar and a true inspiration. Stay strong and rest up!!

Also … Love smaller races! Totally agree with you about the logistics/ease of race day in smaller races verse larger ones. I love the community feel and how much more relaxed I feel. The only thing I miss about big races is the expo!! Race expos are my Disney World :)

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Stomach bugs are the worst! Your coach cracks me up because it is SO true. I laughed and cried with this post thank you for sharing and being real! It also made me think of the love my daughter has for her big brothers SO very sweet and a precious bond. My heart melted.

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We love you Janae!! Thank you so much for sharing your story with us. It makes all of us feel less alone to realize we are all striving and we don’t always achieve our goals. I’m proud that you and I and all the other people out there are brave enough to make BIG goals and work towards them fully knowing that you can’t easily make it. Without that struggle, why would setting goals and stuff be so interesting?

One goal I’ve had for a long time is better inversions in my yoga practice, hopefully away from the wall entirely. For almost all of this year I’ve been working on two of them. I was making some good progress but thanksigiving and some other travel ended up depleting my strength a lot more than I thought and I’m basically back to square three (not one… but still). Whomp whomp… I’m trying to remember that if I worked for it before I can work for it again. Still, I thought I may get those inversions this year.

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you are such a tough cookie to run a full marathon with literally nothing in your system. i cant even imagine the sheer will power that took. that picture with your brother breaks my heart every time I see it in a good way. You are so incredibly lucky to have such an awesome and supportive family. and can i just say…wow on your time, even with the mess that was your digestive system that is still a fantastic time, i cant wait to read all about your next races and how you crushed them all

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Hey – you finished. You did it. You didn’t sub 3, but heck, you ran a marathon sick as a dog faster than most of us can do on our best day! You’ll try again soon!

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Janae, your idea of ‘crawling’ and my idea of ‘crawling’ are two very different things. even your post bonk splits are super fast to most of us.

The fastest two miles I ever ran were 12:30 when I was maybe 23 years old. But that was just 2 miles. You did damn close to that for 19 on a bad day with no fuel. We’re all very impressed here, ya know…(that’s a Monty Python line, sorry).

I know you didn’t get your A goal, but that’s why there is a next time, amirite? We’ll be here to watch, wonder and support.

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Give bone broth a try for gut healing. It’s the natural gelatin in it that helps soothe your intestines and gut (heals and reduces the inflammation). If you have a slow cooker it’s really easy to make yourself. Drink some daily.

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You’ll get it! Honestly I would avoid both the gu and Gatorade. My stomach doesn’t tolerate them. I’ve dealt with bleeding ulcers and stomach issues for a long time. I finally sought the advice of an MD who practices natural medicine. They base all your care on your labs. It has done wonders for me. I’ve also read a lot about healing a leaky gut. Great job regardless!!

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Hey great job! 3:10 is something to be proud of — and I totally get those same feelings about disappointing family. 10 minutes though is nothing — I came in once a whole hour after I told my family I’d be in because I bonked. THAT was hard to swallow.

Great job! Be proud! Running isn’t easy and you rock at it!

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That sucks that you missed it, but look at all the support you had! Brooke doesn’t care if you met your goal, I am sure she and your family think you are a rockstar!

I have plans for a few half marathons next year and maybe a 10K……….my next marathon will be in 2017………….I do one every other year.

I like both big and small races, but I think I slightly prefer the small ones!

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I cried while reading this. I can’t imagine the roller coaster of emotions you went through this weekend,but I’m so glad that you are you and that you have such an amazing family…and you can see that this is just one race in many along your journey. You rock.

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What a wonderful post! I’m so sorry that the day didn’t go as planned, but I love your attitude. Like you said, it’s okay to be sad you didn’t get your goal – but then you move on and work hard for next time. Life really is how we respond to it. Thanks for sharing your positivite mindset with all of us – it’s contagious. xo

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You should be SO proud that you finished this, Janae. Not an easy thing. You’re amazing! Rest up!! :)

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You are incredible. You’re the toughest person ever. You’re a complete winner because you finished that marathon and did so well time-wise. I cannot imagine even walking a mile, let alone doing your stellar performance under those conditions. Your determination and grit are truly inspiring. It’s odd to say, but I am so proud of you and I love you!

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You are seriously incredible. I don’t read very many blogs any more but you are so motivational and inspiring and I love reading your posts every day. The majority of people would’ve given up (understandably so) being that sick. But you forged on finishing with a truly amazing time of 3:10 under incredibly tough conditions. That time would be amazing even if you felt great the entire race!

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I ran my first marathon this year and was gunning for a 3:40. I ran a 3:47:29–pretty good for my first marathon, but I didn’t meet my goal and was bummed that afternoon. I pulled myself together the next day though and felt proud of my first effort—loved the poem that your friend shared with you because it’s right. I found a coach to help me to get that 3:40 on my next try next fall, and you’re right, too—-keep chasing your dreams, keep looking at the positives, and keep your chin up, even though it isn’t always EASY to do that :)

I hit the wall at mile 23 of my first marathon–so so close to the end. It was just unchartered territory for me–I’d never ever felt those miles before. I probably ran some of the earlier miles too fast, too. I just felt like a zombie–wasn’t sure how I was putting one foot in front of the other.

I’m doing some destination races this spring—Key West 1/2 in Jan, Shamrock in March, Seattle Rock and Roll in June. I’d like to do the Cherry Blossom 10 Miler and Philly Broad Street 10 Miler–they’re both lottery entry, so we’ll see :)

Big or small–hard to choose! I’ve done both and enjoyed both :)

Keep rocking it like the ROCK STAR that you are, Janae. You inspire so so so many people, and that in itself is more important/impactful than any numbers or PR could ever be :) :) :)

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I live your blog because you’re so real and open about real life. I shed a tear when you talked about disappointment because it really struck a chord with me. Thank you for being you, and I know that you have walked away stronger than you were before the race. You give me hope! It took me 12 marathons to fulfil my dream of qualifying for Boston and I know you’ll meet your goals soon. Enjoy some rest!!
Xo

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It is so easy to get sick after an airplane ride. I know they say the air is fine but I believe that if several people are sick, I can breathe it in the entire plane ride. Also, just touching things at the airports after someone else is sick, can spread it. You were absolutely amazing for being that sick and not having fuel. It shows how well you fueled your body ahead of time.

I think we all want our family members to be proud of us for making a goal but they are proud whether we make it or not. One really positive thing is that you brought your family together. Brooke got to see her extended family and have time with them. She will never forget those memories and the time she spends with them.

Children are sponges and they learn much more what we do than what we say. If one stays upset they did not meet their goal for a week, children will follow suit and start doing the same thing. It is funny because children just let things roll off their backs until they learn to do things differently. I am glad you are not letting a goal upset you for so long. The positives, you got to the start line without any injuries!! You looked super cute in your running outfit and you have excellent form as evidenced by the last picture of you running to the finish. Without a doubt, you would have made it sub 3 if you were well.

I have a half marathon in Early January and I don’t feel I will be ready. I planned an excellent training schedule adding miles slowly over time so I won’t get injured and to protect my IT band. But, my dog passed away in August and I did not feel like running. Even though I ran, I did not keep up my schedule. My mom had a stroke last month (she is doing well now) and between hospital visits and visiting her at home, my training schedule suffered. I will get through it but not the way I wanted or planned. But, it is okay because that is life. I plan to have fun and enjoy the race, Disney (Disney is always fun!!), hoping my body won’t take much of a beating because I have a 15k the next month with my cousin and her husband. Keep your chin up and try until you make it.

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You are amazing!! To run a time like that given the circumstances is incredible! You are inspiring to so many people with your attitude and perseverance. One of my favorite quotes from the last year as I went through some auto-immune disease issues is “the only thing you can control is how you react to things out of your control”. You are a great example of this!

My 2016 schedule consists of my first marathon! eek! After 9 half marathons, I decided it’s time to knock out a marathon :)

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You are amazing. (Read that again.)

I love how much your family loves you.

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I had tears reading this, because I am so darn proud of you. Your resilience to being brought down astounds and inspires me. Lots of love to you Janae.

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Janae you are so inspiring! I can’t believe you ran a marathon after throwing up and not being able to feel any fuel down. I don’t know if I would have been able to finish. Your determination to reach your goals will keep you going!!! Enjoy your rest!

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Two words: leaky gut. You definitely need some serious gut healing. I’m so sorry this happened to you on marathon days. I mean of ALL THE DAYS!!! BUT Janae, you came in 5th over all! You finished the race without fuel and be dehydrated. You are a amazing! Celebrate what you accomplished because it was incredible!

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sending you all the virtual hugs! running 26.2 miles with a stomach flu is crazy, and that took so much strength just to finish, and i’m sure your family is SO proud of you. xo

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Wow, I know the race didn’t go as you wanted but it sounds like a major achievement. I don’t think a lot of us would have even finished had we been in your shoes. So give yourself some major credit for finishing and still finishing really, really well. That time is great and a PR. I think this race is just a confirmation that you can totally do a sub 3, you can easily shave off those 10 minutes if you are feeling better.

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Janae I’m so sorry your marathon didn’t go as planned :( but you still ran an amazing race! I’m sure your next races will be that much sweeter when you finish them and the stars align for you!

On a little side note, I ran my first marathon on Sunday at CIM! I BQed as well, and I actually used your words as motivation to finish that dreaded last 10K! I came across in 3:02, so no sub three either. There’s always next time, and I can’t wait to see what’s in store next for you!!

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Janae…I do not think you need any of your readers to tell you this, but you have nothing to be disappointed about with this performance. You went out there and gave it your all…to still finish with any amazing time. You are so real with your blog and that is a huge reason that I continue to read every.single.day. You seem to come from an amazing family that supports you tremendously in all things running. I think it is beyond awesome that your brother flew in to see you run…and help you finish. Obviously I do not know you in person, but I am proud of you. You pushed on when many of us in the world would “quit”. You are stronger than you (may) think.

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I won’t tell you not to be disappointed with how the day went. I won’t tell you not to be sad about missing your goal, even if it was a post-baby PR. I won’t tell you that it doesn’t suck about stomach issues or getting period…and more. Fact of the matter is, you are allowed to feel those things because this matters to you. Anyone who says you should JUST be happy you finished despite all those things is right, but wrong at the same time. There is nothing wrong with wanting more. DO celebrate another marathon, DO celebrate a post-Brooke PR. But DON’T let this go without learning from it and using it as fuel going forward. You absolutely can go sub-3, use this as even more motivation. Maybe this means eating differently and being more conservative about indulgences. Maybe this means attempting to pace differently, regardless of the course changes. Maybe this means approaching training runs with a a stronger mindset about easy runs being SLOW and really pushing those workouts (but also nailing specific sub-3 paces on other workouts and not just going faster). Maybe this means chipping away at your goal (I had to go for a sub-3:05 before sub-3…made it more manageable for me). You have a wicked strong support system, a lot of motivation, and have talent- use it!

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I’ve never cried reading a blog so today is a first! I understand the need to make other people proud and the undue stress we place on ourselves because of that. The funny thing is, they love you no matter what. And even more in the hard times. You did a great job and you’re body just needs a break. You’ll be back in the hunt for that sub-3 in no time!

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this was such an encouragement to read and while my heart goes out to you and i hate that you felt so awful and were discouraged, you did such an incredible job persevering and still killing it while you felt so depleted and terrible. that’s a true test of character and endurance and you’re an amazing athlete & human being and such an inspiration!

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I like big runs and I cannot lie ;)

I think the only thing you could do to disappoint your family is to not pursue your happiness.

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Janae, you are awesome and so so inspiring.

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Janae, my heart broke for you when I read this post and I totally cried right along with you. The fear of disappointing my family–of not meeting my goal when I spent so much time away from them training for it–is the thing that haunts me. So I totally understand where you were coming from. But I’m so glad you have been able to see it for what it really is–that they are proud of you anyway and you did NOT disappoint them! What an amazing race you had! Even though it wasn’t the time you wanted, look at what you did–top five female, first in age group, BQ, and a PR, under those circumstances??!!??!! Absolutely amazing! You have inspired me so much!

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Hm. Judging by the fact you were sick the whole day it does sound suspiciously like stomach flu. :( Seriously bad timing…there’s the odd chance it could be one of the other things but you’ve never had those reactions before so I say go with your first instinct.

You did REALLY well and those of us keeping up are impressed with you as you continue to move forward and keep trying. That’s a great example to Brooke. Keep going after your dream.

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I got all choked up reading that last part about you feeling most sad that your family had made time to be there for you and you didn’t want to disappoint them.

Also when you saw your brother and thought he was a mirage!!! So funny! You said “He had felt strongly a few weeks ago that he should make the trip out to my race”. There’s no doubt in my mind that he was told that you would need him there. At the finish line. :)

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Such a great accomplishment considering how you were feeling! I also think the level of family support you have is amazing.

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You still did incredible Janae! You have no reason to feel bad or apologize to anyone! I totally resonate with those feelings, though. Whenever I make a mistake or miss a goal, I feel terrible not because of how it affects me but because of how it affects those close to me. Be proud and grateful of what you were able to do!

If my legs can hold together for another few weeks, I’ll be starting out 2016 with the Jacksonville Marathon on January 3rd! Beyond that, I have no idea what next year will look like. This will be my first marathon and I’m hoping I’ll love it and want to do another one soon.

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Oh Lordy bee….well I am super impressed with everything that you tackled on that marathon day. No choice, most times in life, but to just..keep..going. I’ve done ONE marathon and it was way back in 2001 in Vermont. It was very humbling as I went in saying “as long as we don’t finish last” I’ll be happy. About 10 days before the big day I’m diagnosed with chronic Achilles tendinitis. Being young, and dumb, I decided to still run. The pain..the pain…the pain….from the very first step. I basically ran/walked/limped the first half and then walked the second half. I, literally, was the last official finisher in 6:03. YEP!!!! Four months of training, on-par with my then goal of a 4 hour marathon and I am the last name on the official finisher’s list. Couldn’t walk for DAYS afterwards…I crawled around my house.

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I am so impressed with everything you wrote. And with a bad stomach – it could have gone so much worse. My poor son had explosive poops on a trail race once..talk about missing a goal and being super embarrassed.

Look at all these comments! Everyone is really encouraged by you and what you do but don’t worry about disappointing EVER – its all about the journey.

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Well done, Janae! You have a great attitude, and reading your blog really helps me a lot. Hopefully you get better soon so you can punch Dave in the gut for me. What a great brother being there for you (don’t tell him I said he’s great, it’ll get to his head. :) ). I’m sure your brothers and whole family are very proud of you. Keep it up!

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Congrats, Janae! I don’t know how you pushed through with all of these setbacks, but you surely are an inspiration. Keep up the amazing work, and be proud of your accomplishments. You deserve all the happiness. Hope you’re feeling better in no time.

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This post made me cry! Thanks for sharing! You are incredible and your honesty is appreciated! You should get some fun runs in with Bryn! I know she would love to run with you! Xoxo

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Janae you are just a powerhouse of running inspiration. I had a similar experience at STG this year, my body just shut down at mile 21. Your ability to push through with determination and positivity is so inspiring. I love the expression we win or we learn, it’s so amazing what those tough experiences can teach us about ourselves and you my friend are one tough, awesome girl!

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Lots of respect for you! Thanks for sharing. And as you know your family didn’t go to the race to see you get a sub-3 they went to support you and turns out we need more support when things don’t go as planned so it was great they could be there :)

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How true that is!

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You and your family are amazing!! Seems like everything was just working against you but you managed to pull through with a great time. That’s a bit scary about not remembering how you got those battle wounds.. probably from the aftermath!

I’ve also had stomach issues with running, but mostly when I started off running. Looking back and seeing where I’m at today, pretty sure it was due to nerves and a poor diet (sugar and carbs are my weakness). Not sure if you practice visualization before races but that has helped me a ton!

Once again, congratulations on finishing despite all the setbacks! Time to relax!

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You are such a strong woman and role model! I love your honesty and that is what keeps me reading your blog!

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Thank you for sharing your running stories with us. We have all been there as far as a bad race goes. And I don’t say that to minimize your experience but instead to let you know that we are right here with ya.

I like the atmosphere of the large races (Rock & Roll) but the longer I do this the more I enjoy the “chillness” of the smaller races.

One more thing- I enjoy reading your race recaps but what keeps me coming back to your blog is reading about your training. That’s were the work is done & reading about your training keeps me motivated.

Enjoy your hard-earned recovery time!!

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you did awesome!!! you crossed that finish line and gave it your All. easy runs and plenty of time to recover will only make you a stronger runner. I have no scheduled runs for 2016 yet, still recovering from a groin injury during marathon training so at this point I only any to run pain free. again job well done

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You are a bad***. I would have puked once or twice and given up. So inspiring.

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Girl, I thought finishing Boston with what sounded like hypothermia was awesome. Now you finished a marathon on no fuel and you got a PR! You are incredible. That perseverance is rare and it’s going to get you to your goals. It’s really amazing to see how you’ve grown over the years and I’ll be rooting for you.

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Congratulations on finishing. It sounds like it will be wonderful for you to take a step back and do some shorter races and just love every aspect of running. You are amazing for finishing despite puking.

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Congrats on finishing strong while being sick! I’ll take my hat off (is this correct English?)
I’m a slow runner, I prefer bigger races.
My toughest race was a local 5,3k years ago. I was the only hobby runner among professional women (I did not know this before)
I finished second last, PRed, but never was feeling so terrible during and after.
Since that I prefer 5 hour marathons to 5ks, haha!

Now take it easy for a while. I love reading your blog. Best way ever to keep my English (and running) alive!

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You are just amazing, Janae. I don’t think you could disappoint your family, your friends, or anyone that knows you (either in ‘real’ life or through your blog) even if you tried!

Sending love and posivitive vibes for health, healing, and happy running!

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I think this is a race you should feel really proud of, even more than if you had got a PR. You could have quite at any time, and yet you finished first in your age group.

That was a great race, you maybe just don’t see it like that yet. But you will some day.

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Oh Janae. You are amazing and loved. Stuff like this is just hard to swallow. It sucks. It really does. But you are a talented runner and a hard worker so I know great things will happen and you will get that A goal someday.

In regards to feeling bad that your family came, they didn’t want to be there to watch you get sub 3. They wanted to be there to show you they love and support you. But I know how you feel. I wanted my SIL to be at Evan’s birth to help me do it unmedicated. I called her when I was on the way to the hospital, but she had at least a 2 hr hour drive ahead of her. She almost missed the birth (she got there right as I was pushing, which I don’t need any help/encouragement with by then. lol) but just before pushing, when I was exhausted and didn’t think I could do it and wanted the epidural I thought ‘I would feel so bad if Kayla drove all the way here and I got the drugs anyway.’ Like that is a thing! Like me pushing a freaking child out and I am concerned if I would make a family member mad that would still get to see Evan be born. Us females. We like to give ourselves guilt over everything. Your brothers are such amazing people. I know they were just so happy they got to see you!

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This sounds like a tough day. But you sound like a tough lady, and I am sure you will recover.

As for race size? I actually prefer a bigger race for long distances, because I run at the back of the pack. I once did a small half marathon, and felt like I was alone the entire time. When I choose larger races, I usually get lucky enough to have some company :-)

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Congratulations on your post-baby PR!! That’s amazing Janae!!! I know how you feel about disappointing others. I felt the same way running NYC, last month, after telling everyone I wanted to go sub 4 and so many people woke up early to track me etc… I feel worse about letting others down then I do about letting myself down. But, I know, in the end they’re proud of you no matter what.

You’re amazing and so inspiring!

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I admire you so much! I can’t imagine finishing a race feeling like that, not only did you finish, but in an INCREDIBLE time, and placing female top 5?! That is amazing!! You made your family proud, and all of your internet friends as well!

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So very proud of you, Janae! I love your positive attitude and outlook on life. Take your time to rest and heal and I know that great things will come your way.
I’m sure your family is proud of you not because you are an exceptional runner but more importantly a wonderful human being.

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Flipping the switch.Would you be disappointed if you went to see your brother race and he didn’t do as well as he had hoped.I don’t think so..

You should be very proud of yourself…

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I am so sorry to hear about your struggles during the race, but I give you so much credit. I understand the disappointment of not meeting your goal, but you finished a marathon in 3:10 on basically no fuel. That’s still quite remarkable. I hope you feel better soon but you should still be proud that you kicked total butt!

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So very proud of you and your focus to see the finish line no matter what. Your words are so well put in this post and it translates to all things in life. At the end of the day running is just running…how you deal with the situation is what matters most. Keep up the positive attitude and setting the crazy goals as you will get there one day. I continue to love your positive attitude but most of all because you “keep it real”. Thanks for sharing all things and making us all reflect on what really matters.

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I love following your training, seeing how hard you work, and the positive attitude you exude through this online space. I am so awed that despite all the issues you had, you still finished the race! You did a fantastic job, and it is so inspiring that you are able (now that you are no longer dehydrated and sick!) to view this experience with such a mature and positive approach. I know you can and will get your goal eventually, you are awesome!

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Janae you never cease to amaze me! I can’t believe you even finished the race feeling like that. I think you are awesome and I want you to know that! You will reach your goal and your attitude is incredible. :)

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I don’t have any races planned yet for next year but I’m thinking of trying more 10ks. My biggest obstacle while running was when I had a chest cold for the Tufts 10k this year. I was so pissed that I couldn’t run the whole time. You’re still my inspiration for running. Keep at it you’ll get it!

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Our brains go loopy when we’re ill and when we’re under duress. I’d say you were entitled to feel what ever you felt. Still I flat out refuse to believe you were crawling, you finished in 3:10 and first in your age group. Those are great stats, whether or not that was your main goal.

I prefer smallish races but I did a half-marathon with 215 people. That was a bit too small. I’m usually a middle of the packer but here I was at the end. I’m okay with that. What I’m not okay with is that they took down the water stations and were dismantling the finish line early. I crossed the finish but there were people behind me who did not get that opportunity. (and they were under the required time to finish the course). You don’t see that as often in the larger races.

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You are amazing! I never would’ve been able to even finish a marathon in your situation. I’ve only done one marathon (so far) and if it had not gone well (as well as can be expected for a marathon) I would never consider doing another. My biggest race obstacle so far has been stupid knee pain I think due to IT band problems. I am still trying to sort it out. So frustrating when I had to walk/run the last 3 miles of my last half because of the pain when otherwise I felt great and really wanted to keep running. You are awesome and your family is awesome! Congrats girl!!

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You poor thing – I can’t believe you wound up w/ the flu (& ran anyway!!!). You are amazing! Don’t you dare feel bad about not hitting your goal… you ran w/ the flu & still came in 1st in your age group! Amazing! It is so cool that your brother showed up! I got tears in my eyes reading that. And I guarantee you he was super proud of you. I’m super proud of you, too, & you continue to impress me so much w/ your positive attitude & perserverance. You rock!

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Ooof…you are truly an inspiration and I know you will hit this goal very soon!!
My next race is tomorrow at the first indoor track meet of the season!
If anybody gets the chance could you please check out my blog: https://sweetpotatoesrunner.wordpress.com

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I love your blog! I ve been reading it since you started,but this is the first time I m leaving a comment. You are inspiring !!! And I can’t wait for your posts! I m so proud and inspired by how you dealt with things!!! You are my running role model!!! Thank you :) keep it up you ll definetelly get your goal next time!!

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I am so, so proud of you. Hopefully knowing that you are the inspiration for many of us will help you smile. Hang around? You bet, I could never leave now. :)

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What a difficult day – I’m amazed but not that surprised that you still powered through it with as much of a positive attitude that you did!

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I ran NYC last month and had a hard race. I was not happy at all with my time, but also somehow proud of myself for not giving up on the race and my training. I had a lot going on and I somehow stayed commited to my long runs. Great memories but a very hard day for a competitive type A person.

I’m proud of you!!!! Hang in there

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I just want to say that you are FREAKIN AMAZING!!! To run the time you did on little or no fuel…. and to keep at it!!! Isn’t it awesome how things just happen the way they are suppose to…. I mean you probably needed your brother more at this particular race than you would have if it had gone perfect and you sub 3……. We may not understand at first, but then the big picture presents itself…. (Hope this is making since). Once I read this post earlier today, I texted my friend in Belgium who is the one that tipped me off about your blog and got me hooked :) I told her to grab a tissue (her and I are both hormonal at the present time and our hearts go out to you). YOU WILL SUB 3!! I know it! Just think of all the obstacles Kara has gone through and now she is on fire!
Just know all your fans…. especially me in South Georgia are proud of you!!!!! YOU ROCK!!

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Long time listener, first time caller ;) I cannot believe how incredibly well you did (period, and especially under those circumstances). The mental willpower it took to do that convinces me that you will definitely nail your A goal soon!

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Disclaimer I’m not a runner, but love your blog because I feel like we’re friends (scary right?). You seem so genuine and your love of life just shines! My son is the same age as Brooke so I like the “mom” parts ;) Anyways, I wanted to comment to tell you I LOVE the relationship you have with your family! I seriously teared up at that picture of you and your brother….and reading how your dad would drive beside you in the dark…be still my heart! You and your mom are just adorable together. I don’t have that kind of relationship with my parents, but my sisters and I vow that our generation on it’ll be different :) I’m pregnant with my second (a girl!!!) and can’t wait to grow the love.

Hope you feel better soon!!

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The point of my ridiculously long random message was to tell you that you’re awesome…PR or not! :)

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-hugs- I love your attitude. We are proud of you. So happy your family was there and I know they are proud of you too.

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Proud of you, girl!

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Thank you for this post. You are amazing. You inspire me to run better and hope more!

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Sorry about the bad race. I hope you’re able to work out your fueling and stomach problems soon. I ran a partly downhill marathon once that I planned for poorly and ended up going out too fast. My stomach was fine at the start, but later in the race I suddenly got terribly sick. I ended up throwing up 14 times! I just couldn’t keep anything down, not even sips of gatorade. It’s a bad feeling. I’ve always had really bad stomach problems when running, but I’ve tried to figure things out as I go. A few things that helped me get my tummy under control:
– Learn to run on an empty stomach. That way, if your stomach is a problem on race day, your metabolism is used to turning to fat for fuel. I try not to eat before I run ever, although for 20 milers I will have a small breakfast. Then I fuel during the run in later miles (only for 16 miles and over). That way I both learn to use fat for fuel AND get used to eating on the run if needed.
– Eat your pre-race meal the night before. I will have a midnight snack of something like toast or rice the night before to get calories in.
– Start slow. I am much less likely to have stomach problems while training if I start slow, then add fuel later if I choose to speed up at the end.
– Start hydrated. Dehydrated muscles cramp, including your stomach. I drink coffee in the morning pre-run (it helps me go, sorry for the TMI!) but I also drink at least 12 ounces of water.
Now, I still have some bad stomach upset, but the actual throwing up has stopped, and that’s a huge help.

A positive thing about this race is that you ran your goal pace for 20 miles, so you know you can do the speed – now you just need to figure out the fuel and endurance part. Eventually. But your decision to run other distances for now is smart. Get those 10ks and half marathons now while you have so much speed! Looking forward to seeing the results of those races once you are totally recovered.

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Girl, you are amazing and you can do hard things!

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I’m bummed for you and your not-so-stellar race day stomach. I feel your pain with belly issues…mine is temperamental too.
Hopefully you will get things figured out. I think it is really wise for you and your coach to re-think your fueling strategies for the future, (I am a sugar fiend too, but it is killer on my stomach lining!)
I only have one race in my future right now, Boston. Boston will be my 3rd marathon ever..I’m nervous, because this is the first time I have a goal time in mind…I love the quote you posted about rendering control and using your efforts on how to deal with the “unexpected”! way to go girly! you’re amazing!

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5th and sick!
That’s evidence you’re ready to reach your goal….like all the amazing job you’ve been doing for it.
It’s just a question of time, listen to your body, give it the time to heal as long as it takes. It’s not easy, it’s an hard job; but working hard = reaping the benefits.
And then everything will fall into place, mind & body on the same wavelength, and you will run the marathon enjoying every step and thinking to all the ups & downs that have brought you there :)

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I know it wasn’t the race you wanted at all, but I am still so proud of you. You finished and you gave it your all. We’ll get ’em next time! ;)

My 2016 as of right now, is looking like…
Gasparilla Half- February
Disney World Star Wars half Challenge- April
Rock N Roll Vegas- November (maybe- haven’t yet registered)

I’ll be signing up for more, but that’s all I have on the plate now.

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I agree with your bro here. The tough ones take more heart and character than the ‘easy’ ones. You are full of both. You could have thrown the towel in, you could have walked off that course, but you didn’t. You still found your way to the finish line, even when things didn’t go as planned. Pretty amazing if you ask me. Well done, HRG. Keep your head up.

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