Wednesday night was miserable. I was up for 4 hours in so much pain that I was doing that thing when you feel so awful—> you reevaluate your whole life and what you are going to do better when you get a chance to feel well again (I’ve got a long to-do list now).
Later on in the day I finally got to make an appointment with a Gastroenteroligst. I was sick of being sick and the urgent care doctors guessing based on symptoms and then filling me up with medicine. It was really nice to meet with a specialist that knows this stuff really well and what tests I need. This doctor was awesome and spent a long time with us asking every detail possible which was really nice.
To be honest, I have no desire to run right now. I’m too weak and too sick. That doesn’t mean I am not ridiculously bummed (there have been a good amount of tears) about missing this race. I know at this point that if the idea of driving 3.5 hours to the race is too much for me there is no way that 26 miles of running would be okay. Plus, I’m not looking to run a marathon for fun right now, I’m looking to run it at a 6:48 pace.
Even though I know my body isn’t in a place to run a marathon I still asked my doctor his opinion (so I didn’t feel like a wuss) about the race and he said absolutely no. He said that it would make the problem worse and set me back even more. I agree.
So… he wants me to get a scope today (I am just excited to not feel sick for 4 hours while I am under;) and blood work. I can’t live off of rice forever and feel nauseated all day so I am very grateful to be working with someone that is just as eager as I am to get me feeling better. It will all work out.
I have a lot of thoughts about the whole thing and I have no way to organize them into a paragraph so bullet points are where it is at:
-I am even more hungry now for that sub 3. Once I am better and running again this whole situation will motivate me even more. It will make the finish line of my next marathon that much more special.
-Even if all of this training goes to ‘waste’ I’m not mad about it. I would be mad about the last four months of training hard without the opportunity to race right now if I hated training and I was forcing myself to do it… but I actually really love the process. I love pushing myself, I love how training makes me feel, I love seeing the growth and I am stronger mentally because of the last 16 weeks. So, those early morning runs/yassos/tempo miles weren’t a waste at all because it was all work but it is my favorite kind of work.
-I have the perfect race lined up and I will tell you all about it once I sign up and it is for sure. My coach is ready to adjust things accordingly so when I get sad thinking about St. George I think of the new race.
-Speaking of my coach, a quote from him when we were talking on the phone yesterday: “Shiz (I think he said a different word though;) happens.” Yes, yes it does.
-I killed my half-marathon in August and I am just going to keep feeling proud of that 1:21 race.
-I definitely think that stress has a big part to do with whatever is going on. When I was telling a friend (a friend that knows the details of my past marriage/causes for divorce/post-divorce situation) about how big of a wuss I feel like for just having a bad month and my body going nuts because of it—> she reminded me I have had high stress (with some breaks in between) for the last 2.5 years straight and maybe my body just had enough. Megan D is always right.
-This quote though:
-There are a lot worse things going on in the world right now and my heart really breaks over those things.
-Before seeing the doctor I kept worrying about ‘what will my blog readers think if I don’t race’ and then I realized it would be irresponsible for me TO race. I would be a bad example to put a race above my health and I won’t do that.
-The downs in life make us grow. I’ve got a lot of growing to do and I have the choice how to react.
-What elite Tina said when I asked her before seeing the doctor. Running will always be there for me when I am ready again. PS she might stop texting me since I always take screenshots of what she says and post it.
-This little face. She’s my world and I’m so beyond lucky to have her. She gave me 50 hugs yesterday. My family is ridiculously good to me and I am really blessed to have them.
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Just a few more things:
-I think we both have 101 Dalmatians memorized by now.
-After the doctors we stayed at my sister’s and I had a pretty great view from the couch.
-My nieces played with Brooke for hours and made this for me so yeah, they are the best.
-I’ve got an incredible recipe for you (it will probably be pinned like crazy;). Rice and broth. I can’t stop making it.
-This quote that my sister sent. It’s a real good one.
-I can’t thank you enough for all of the sweet comments yesterday and emails. You guys really are the best and I hope I can be a support for you too WHENEVER you need it.
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What are your weekend plans?
Last movie you watched?
-101 Dalmatians… 101 times.
Ever had to drop out of a race? Which one(s)?
281 comments
Jennife @ JenChoosesJoy
Sending prayers for answers and healing!!
I love Tina’s advice and your hard training has definitely not been a waste.
Weekend plans: 18 miler and fall decorating!
Last movie: Cowspiracy
I dropped from my first race this past January. It was a 50k and I had a bad Achilles injury.
Michele @ paleorunningmomma
So so so sorry! Lots of hugs! You’ll get through this, I just missed a half a couple of weeks ago and was so sad, I can’t imagine if I had to drop out of the NYCM. But like you said, health first and running isn’t everything.
Karien @ Running the Race
Wise decision, but I can imagine your disappointment. Hope you feel better real, real soon! x
Jessica @ VEGGIE RUNNING MOMMA
Agree with what your coach said. “Shize happens”.
Hang in there girl. Everything happens for a reason.
Heather
You will be stronger for doing it!!! I hope everything goes well with your “scope” You are an inspiration to a lot of people and I admire you for it. I have had to drop out of a few races too. It just happens. If you have not seen Hotel Transylvania 2 you should it is super cute. Have a great day
bakingrunner.blogspot.com
Natalie
Girl, you’re doing the right thing. Praying you’ll have solutions and healing soon. Running will still be there for you–get better first!
I haven’t watched manyovirs lately, but I’ve been watching Gilmore Girls like crazy on Netflix!
Natalie
My phone went crazy. *many movies :)
Arthi
I am so sorry to hear this! Stomach issues are awful and you’re absolutely doing the right thing. You’ll heal up quickly and be stronger than ever.
I had to drop out of a half I was really excited about earlier this year because of some foot issues. I didn’t have a full blown stress fracture but definitely pain and swelling. My doc told me I could risk it and run the half and potentially ruin my chances of running a fall marathon OR just not run the half and heal up and resume training like normal.
Hang in there!
Jess @ Jess Runs ATL
Poor thing. I think it’s the right decision though – you aren’t racing just for fun. Excited to hear about your new plans.
Weekend plans: 16 rainy miles and then a football game (Falcons vs Texans!)
I dropped out of what should have been my second half marathon due to Achilles Tendonitis 3 weeks before the race. I volunteered it instead and it really helped keep me from getting too down on myself!!
Hope you feel better soon!
Emily @ My Healthyish Life
I’m so sorry to hear that a) you can’t run and b) that you’re still so sick. I hope the scope figures something out. But you’re right…running is just a small part of who we are, and health comes first.
Lynn
You are a strong woman Janae both physically and mentally. Please believe that. You are also in inspiration to all us on how to handle difficult life events with grace. You will come out of this stronger!
Amy
I was really looking forward to reading about you getting that sub-3 on Saturday, but I am really relieved to hear you aren’t risking it. I couldn’t run a 5k on a diet of rice, potatoes, and pain, and I was thinking you were crazy for even thinking about it. There is always another race right around the corner. Take care of yourself, get better, rest, refuel, THEN kick the shiz outta that next marathon!
Katie
I’m so sorry you can’t run, but good job making the right choice and not trying to power through. I hope you get some answers about what’s going on with your body soon.
Nina
It stinks but it happens. You are wise to put your overall health first. What will your readers think? This reader thinks you made a tough decision that many of us had to make too. It’s not easy to defer and you listened to your body, not your ego.
I dropped from the NJ marathon due to injury. I am running a half marathon next weekend. Running was there when I was ready again. :)
Daisy @ Fit Wanderlust Runner
Janae, I am so sorry your race plans aren’t going to happen after all. I do believe you are making a very wise decision. You need the time to heal in order to make sure you get that PR. Hope you get some rest this weekend. I have a race on Sunday so maybe you can say a few prayers for me :)
kelly
Shiz does happen. You know, for some reason I think this is a big sign that you shouldn’t be racing on Saturday. And now you are quadruple amped and motivated to be well and hit your goals…..and you have such a training base that just think how quick the next training cycle will feel.
I have very, very similar tummy troubles and it’s no picnic. Makes those few moments of feeling normal feel quite exhilarating!
Broth and rice is almost a miracle food. Same with oyster crackers and baguette crust (yes, I eat the crusts and the tips because they are so delicious and my littles eat the “fluff” in the center.)
This too will pass and you are going to be stronger and smarter and faster when tummy troubles 2015 are resolved or diagnosed.
tons and tons of hugs and I wish for you the comfiest comforter and blanket EVER. And perhaps a new movie in the rotation.
Lynnette
I’s so sorry! You are smart not to run. It’s just a race and there is always another race. Here in Utah, I think here is one every weekend:) I love reading your blog and I think you are amazing!
Jilly
Weekend plans include my 8 year old’s b-day party, and some meal prep :)
The last movie I watched was The Intern – it was great!
I’ve never had to drop out of a race but I totally think you made the right decision. You will be healthier and stronger and feeling GREAT for your next marathon once you get your health all sorted out. Sending you lots of positive vibes and good wishes. xx
Jamie
Hoping you are feeling better soon! I know GI issues can be beyond frustrating, but I am sending lots of hugs and prayers your way. Hope your scope gives you some more answers!
Victoria
So sorry to hear this. Feel better ASAP and you’ll be back to kicking butt on the roads in no time.
Kelly M
WOW! I hope you feel better quickly!
This weekend I am doing my cousin’s hair for her homecoming dance and I am make a cake for my best friend’s engagement party. It is going to have Mickey Mouse and Minnie Mouse shaped pumpkins since they are planning a Disney wedding and it is October at the moment. They told me to have fun with it so that is exactly what I am doing. =)
The last movie I watched was Black or White. It was really good.
I dropped out of a half marathon last year. I told my best friend that getting married and buying a house wasn’t going to leave me any time to train… it didn’t and there was no way I was going to make it through my first half when the furthest I had ever run was 8 miles… oh well.
Kim
You gotta do what you gotta do! I had to drop out of a 5k due to illness. I was bummed, but ended up being glad I did it so I could take time to recover. You’re still a hero in my book – motivating me every day to get out and get better at running.
Margaret @ youngandrungry
I got chills reading about how your training was not a “waste” because when you love running, every minute that you get to do it is a blessing. I actually dropped out of a race this weekend to focus on my half marathon coming up where I am hoping to finally break 1.5 hrs. This also gave me perspective on if that. If I don’t achieve my goal at this race, the hard work and challenging speed workouts won’t be a waste either because it is part of the process and it really is so much fun. You have such a great attitude, I really hope you start feeling better.
Amy
So sorry but proud of you for listening to your body. Your health is priority #1! Lots of prayers and love to you ❤️
Ali
I just dropped out of the marathon I am trained to run for similar reasons and I am SO sorry you are going through this. I got sick 3 weeks ago and have been so miserable and went through a few doctors trying to figure it out.
I’ve been fighting through it but my coach told me it’s time to admit that it is just not going to happen this round due to my pneumonia. The most important thing is health and I REALLY hope you feel better soon! You will meet your running goals. It doesn’t have to be this week.
The Hungry Runner Girl
Oh Ali. I am seriously so sorry that you are so sick right now and that you had to drop out of your marathon. Your coach is right. Please keep me updated on everything and I hope the absolute best for you!
Beks
Sorry you’re so sick. I think gastro problems are the absolute worst. I never feel like dying more than when my digestive system is completely out of wack. But your friends and doctor are absolutely right. Running right now is the worst thing for you. Just rest, wait for the doctor’s diagnosis, and watch 101 Dalmations 101 more times.
Curiosity, is it the cartoon or the live action version?
Amy @ They May be Light
Isn’t it crazy how much we think other people will not like is anymore if we don’t reach some arbitrary goal that we set for ourselves? I’m not saying the goals aren’t important, but what I am saying is that since we are the ones that set them, we are the ones invested, therefore we are the only ones who are tempted to not like ourselves when we don’t reach them. (Don’t fall into that temptation, it’s a trap!)
I’m sorry you’re not feeling well, I’m sorry you’ll miss the race, but I know that no righteous effort is ever wasted. Ever. Sometimes we are just a little clueless about what the goal we are really working towards is.
autismmum
Sorry to hear you’ll miss tomorrow but you’ve definitely made the mature decision. You’re a great mother and daughter and need to look after yourself. I’m sure all the hard work you’ve put in will still pay off when you do your next marathon. I really hope you feel better soon.
Last movie I saw: Everest 3D on a huge screen – fantastic!
Weekend Plans : Its footy grand finals here in Australia on both days and will be HOT so swimming and watching footy.
I had to drop out of a Parkrun once when my hammy went on the first step.
Lori
From one IBS-er to another, I feel you. I am sorry this won’t be your marathon, but this just wasn’t the right one. Another one will come along, and your training will be in place, and those stars and roads will align and you will succeed!
Take your time to heal, and feel better. Stress can kick you sometimes, and it sure knows how to kick you when you are down.
I hope you get answers and feel better soon!
Pille @ LivingOnTheRun
Really sorry to hear about you having to drop out. But it is the wise decision, there’sno point jogging the marathon for fun when you know you are capable of so much more. And health is most important!! Wishing you a speedy recovery.
I’ve had to drop out of Paris Marathon last spring because of injury. The trip and everything was booked before so we went there anyway and just did loads of sightseeing instead. I was gutted but luckily there was so much to do in Paris anyway.
tess
That is painful…Paris? sadness. Sounds like you made the best of it but I would have definitely struggled with that one. So sorry.
Di
I’m not glad you are so sick but I am glad you made the right decision to rest and heal. Your day will come!!! Get better!!!
Courtney
I’m so sorry to hear about your struggles. It’s so hard to forego a race when you have put in all the hard months of training. I really needed this post too. I had to DNS last fall’s marathon due to injury and now a mere 3 weeks from this fall’s marathon I might have to do the same for another random injury. It’s very frustrating, but I love your positive attitude. I will keep all your bullet points in my head these next few weeks as I rehab. Thank you.
Anne @ annetracks
You are smart to put your health first! For you AND your family. This too shall pass and you will come out stronger from the experience.
The last movie I watched was “What If” starring Daniel Radcliffe (Harry Potter).
I was diagnosed with a bulging disc in my neck back in June. Ironically I had to drop out of the Red Dress Run for Women’s health.
Feel better!
MaryM
When I read “what will my blog readers think if I don’t do my race.” I believe all of your blog readers will be disappointed “FOR YOU” because we saw how much work you put into it and know how it feels to be disappointed after all of the training. But, we are not (I am not) disappointed in you for making the choice to not race. I think it is a really wise choice. I think you are again modeling healthy choices not to please others when your health is on the line (which is really unhealthy and codependent). So good for you!! I hope you can get to the bottom of what ever it is soon and start feeling better. I am excited for your possible next race. Hopefully, it will be a new adventure :)
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MaryM
Cancel the last sentence. Oops!! How did that get in there?? ;)
MaryM
You may enjoy this, Lauren Fleshman keeping it real:
meredith @ Cookie ChRUNicles
You made the right decision, I do hope you feel better super soon. These things happen, as much as we try to plan ahead. Sometimes I don’t realize how tough getting through my divorce was until years later, as I look back now! No wonder I had shingles during the early part of it – I may not have felt the stress so much on the surface but my body sure did internally! Rest up : )
Molly Rose
Jane my heart breaks for you but I can’t say enough how PROUD I am of you for dropping out. that sounds like a silly thing to say, but as a blog reader :) it only makes me respect the sport of running even more and your passion for it. pushing ourselves so hard to the point of being miserable is missing the point in the first place.
“The downs in life make us grow. I’ve got a lot of growing to do and I have the choice how to react.”— current mood. I find myself almost daily reminding myself to choose how to react. It’s so important. Stay strong Janae!! xoxoxo
Sarah
Ahh! Great decision. I wasn’t going to say anything but personally, with how sick you are I was thinking it would probably be best not to race Saturday. Illness stress + marathon stress could be really bad for your body. There will be so many more opportunities, just worry about getting well right now!!!
Elizabeth
I am usually “just a lurker” but wanted to tell you I’m so sorry this has happened like this. You are strong and will come back better than ever!!
The Hungry Runner Girl
Thanks for coming out of lurkdom;) I really appreciate your comment and you are very right!
Beth
I just had to drop from the Wine Glass Marathon that is on Sunday. I had a virus two weeks ago (something my boys probably brought home from daycare) and it settled into my heart – I have myocarditis :( Sounds scary…but just inflammation. It will resolve on its on and shouldn’t have any long term effects (thank god)! But I am so disappointed about the race. I trained so hard and was looking to get closer to a BQ. I guess there are more important things…like keeping no your heart healthy ;) I am running Disney in January. So I will rest now, get better and focus on that race <3 So sorry to hear about you but I certainly think you made the right decision. Feel better!
The Hungry Runner Girl
Oh Beth, I am so sorry that you had to drop out of that marathon because of the virus and heart inflammation (that does sound scary to me). You will get that BQ and you made the right decision. Keep me updated on how you are doing and those first runs back when you are healthy again are going to feel so good.
Sally @ sweat out the small stuff
I have had to miss races. Hurricane sandy was the most memorable. I was at the expo picking up my bib when it was officially canceled. I have also had injuries that caused me to pull out. It gets easier with every missed race. Always another. You are smart and so responsible to your readers and to yourself. Take care rest up then go get that sub 3. It’s meant to happen.
Lisa @ Running Out Of Wine
You are 100% doing the right thing as much as it sucks that this is all happening. It sounds like it could definitely be related to stress and I wonder if the last bit of training just pushed you over the edge. It makes me so sad that you can’t go out and kill your goal race but I am happy to see that you are taking care of yourself. You will come back stronger and reach your goals.
Erin
As always, I am impressed with your decision. The way you live your life is an inspiration to me. I really hope you feel better soon, I am praying for you.
Claire
I dropped out of running Rock N Roll New Orleans in 2012. I had trained like a champion and the first weekend of taper I was doing an ab class at the gym, twisted the wrong way, and threw my back out (your sister’s story hurts my heart, I had two herniated disks, I feel (some of) her pain). It was supposed to be my first full after losing a bunch of weight through running. I wasn’t going to go but my girlfriends urged me to, I had already booked flights and a hotel and made plans. Well, long story short, there was a cute guy in Jackson Square who had his bag from packet pick up. I said hi, and now we’re married. Hopefully something great will come out of your missed race.
Plans for this weekend: get my shiz together for a wedding next weekend in Park City! I grew up about five minutes from the Chicago Temple so this is my FIFTH wedding in Utah in six years!
R
Yep, you definitely can’t run without a working stomach! I’m sorry your race got derailed but I hope it gives you time to get better and come back stronger.
If you’re looking for a race about a month out, I think Canyon City Revel marathon is still open in Azusa, California (fast, downhill-all-the- way course) and maybe Santa Barbara marathon (a more reasonable, not-kill-your-legs course). I know California isn’t your favorite place but the weather will still be good in November.
Catherine
Oh Janae! I am so sorry you are going through this right now! I am a long time reader but have never commented before but felt the need to voice my support today. You are a strong and wise woman! You are making the best choice for your health and you will never regret that. There will be another race and another day and you will meet (and surpass!) your goals! Everything will work out! It will be worth it! Rest easy and know that you have the love and support of your family and so so many others!
Sandy
I have literally just had to drop out of my marathon this week. I ran a marathon at the start of September and I felt like I had recovered well enough to run another one on 25th October. I had underestimated the toll marathon running takes on your body and how important it is to rest afterwards. I have had tummy problems since the race and I have been sidelined with the flu for the last week. The stress of trying to get better has made me worse and I had to bite the bullet and withdraw this week. I need to focus on getting back to full health. I probably could have managed to get around but I would have done so much harm to my body! Right now I am working on getting back to full health and I have some shorter fun races lined up over the next few months.
As stressful as this whole thing is for you, it’s so important to remind yourself that you run because you love it..and you want to make sure you are well enough to do it for years to come :)
Kelly
The hardest choices are never the easiest. I know how hard this decision is to make and how ready you are to run your sub 3. You inspire me everyday and I thank you for all the reminders of what is truly important in life.
Emily
Reading this post broke my heart. I follow along every day, and was so looking forward to seeing you rock the marathon. But, from someone with IBS, who has run during a flare, it is definitely wise to listen to your doctors. 26.2 miles with that kind of pain isn’t fun, or smart! Sending lots of prayers your way today during the scope!
Donna
I am so sorry that you are feeling so terrible but your attitude about this and positivity speaks volumes of who you are and the example that you are setting for that sweet little girl of yours. There will always be another race for you to kill! Let your family take care of you and get better. (the weather looked too warm for racing Saturday anyways ;-)
Jen@milesandblessings
The greater the testing, the greater the blessing :). Keep your head up and just focus on getting better :)
Haley
prayers you find some answers soon.
You’ve got a good outlook on the situation, even if it’s frustrating the crap out of you.
We watch Finding Nemo and Toy Story on sick days in my house. My daughter knows all of them backwards and forwards.
Alice
Ugh!! The decision to drop out of a race is a hard one, especially when you’ve been working so hard for a great result. I had to drop out of a half marathon last year because of bronchitis and it was a tough decision, in spite of the fact that I could nt breathe! But it is ALWAYS the right decision to put your health first (as you obviously know), and it’s also a great example for your daughter and all your readers! You are a consistent inspiration to me – both in your running/training and in your consistent and dedicated blog writing. Keep it up!
Last Movie I watched: Fed Up
Weekend Plans: find the floors and furniture – I know they’re in the house somewhere under the mess!
:-)
Emily Joye
You’re on my prayer list for health. But you’re right… Your half marathon shows the speedster you are and how when you’re well and ready to go, breaking 3 won’t be no big thanng for you!
AmandaM
I worry sometimes that bloggers feel so much pressure when they put it out there – their goals/plans. And then they feel this obligation. I am SO happy that, while you recognize what you’ve stated, you are being responsible and explaining to “us” what is going on. You WILL heal up soon and then you’ll nail your next half or full marathon. All WILL be good – you just believe that and understand and everything will work out.
Monica
I’m bummed for you, but you’re doing the right thing. I hope you feel better soon!
Lindsey @ Simply Lindsey
I hope your tests go well and that you get some answers soon! I had to drop out of a 10 miler a couple years ago due to a previous foot injury that flared up. It was very frustrating after training for a while, but it was definitely for the best (not what I believed ’til later though!).
My weekend plans include hibernating indoors as much as I can because of the hurricane! We’re in Charlotte but still supposed to get a ton of rain. Perfect movie weather!
Hannah
Feel better soon Janae! You sound incredibly unwell so it’s crazy that you even thought about the possibility of racing – that just shows how much you aren’t a “wuss”. Just focus on getting better and never feel bad or worried about your blog readers will think – you have so much support behind you!
Robyn
I was supposed to be running my first marathon this weekend but had to drop out a while ago due to some life stressors that needed to be taken care of. As this weekend has been getting closer I’ve been getting more and more bummed about it, but, this post was really comforting. It was a reminder that sometimes more important things come up, like our health (be it mental or physical), and that there is always, always, always another race to sign up for. I definitely empathize with you right now though and I truly hope that you get to feeling better soon! Sending prayers your way, Janae!
Grant
I’m so sorry to hear about this… I can sympathize in part, I’ve been resting from running for a week now due to a muscle strrain and I miss it like crazy. You never really appreciate how great it is to be able to run pain-free until you can’t. And every day at the slightest indication of improvement I’m tempted to go try to run…
But everything you said here is right. It is better to make short-term sacrifices than to put our long-term running abilities at risk. You are not a wuss for deciding not to run tomorrow, you are BRAVE – acting on wisdom even though it’s frustrating and uncomfortable. You inspire me to be brave like you and be patient with my strain… I so want to run again as soon as I can, but more than that I want to get back to running pain-free. Praying that we both heal quickly!
sana
Get better soon! You have so much love and support from everyone around you!
Rosie
Oh I am so sorry to hear this. Get well soon and I’ll be thinking good thoughts/prayers for you.
Nicole
Great decision Janae! Your sub 3 will be that much sweeter after going through this. You are so strong! I believe everything happens for a reason and you are just meant to be running this other race instead :) I love the quote about lifelong running- I have had a hip injury from cross country in highschool that has been a problem for the last 6 years with my training but I’ve always had another race I was training for and never let it fully recover. Taking this winter off from running and instead really focusing on strengthening it is just a small sacrifice that will hopefully result in many years of pain free running ahead!
Hollie
I’m incredibly sorry Janae and I do know you’ll make it through this. I cannot even imagine how mentally hard it must be. There will be other marathons…philly?! I know you have the support from everyone and you are making a wise decision.
Becky W.
Thank you for the amazing example you are setting! I will be running the Wineglass Marathon on Sunday and you will be in my thoughts and prayers as I run.
Melissa Prange
I am so sorry that you are feeling so crappy. But it is best to rest and take care of yourself!! And you do have the best family to support you through all of this!! Us readers included ;)
I signed up for my first marathon early in the spring. It was Oct 10 here in the northern ‘burbs of Chicago. I gave myself 24 weeks to train- in case I needed to repeat a week or miss a week. In mid-June I found out that I needed to have hernia repair surgery. I was so bummed that I would miss about 3-4 weeks of marathon training, so I decided to drop down the the half. No biggie- I am going to try to get in Chicago next year anyway. Well…….no half for me either. I have been having severe pain off and on for the last month. I haven’t run in almost a month, well, except for that 5k I ran this past Sunday. My surgeon thinks it is just inflammation because I jumped back into running and strength training to fast after my surgery in July. So now I sit here so sad that I can’t run for another 2 weeks. The pain isn’t really getting better so I might have to see him again for a scan and or steroid shots. It really does suck. But I don’t have anymore races until March, so I might as well recover properly so I can get in the Chicago lottery. It would be amazing to have that as my first marathon.
Rest up and take of yourself!!! :)
Brittnee
I hope you FEEL BETTER!!! There are always more races, and like that picture quote says, running should be a lifelong activity! I signed up for a marathon this spring and a half this fall and I had to miss them both due to different injuries. I think a year ago I would have cried and beat myself up over it, but now I’m just accepting it for what it is. I got into running because it was fun and I loved it, and there is way to more to life! Sending prayers for a speedy recovery your way!!!
Kristen @ Glitter and Dust
I am so sorry to hear about your medical issue, Janae. Hopefully they are able to provide some kind of prognosis that leads you a step in the right direction of kicking this GI thing to the curb. You poor thing!!! You have such a great attitude about not racing this weekend and taking care of your health. It sets a great example for all of us. Sounds like you already have something great in the works – can’t wait to hear what marathon you will be signing up for. I think you would really enjoy the California International Marathon. ☺
This past year I had signed up and started training for a full Ironman, but had to cancel it and most of my other race plans when I get pregnant. Now my little boy has been here for four weeks today and I couldn’t be happier about the way things turned out. I am planning on resuming all of those goals next year!
Cat
I got the stomach flu the week before my very first marathon last year. I got into NYC and was so excited. I trained all during the awful months of August and September. While it is no sub 3, I was so bummed about it. I still haven’t officially run a full yet either :( You’re determination may make me change my mind. So yea, shiz happens, and you can’t do anything about it besides how you react. You always amaze me how you can see the positive side of things and are such a good person. I can’t wait to see you rock your sub 3 in the next one.
Rebecca@Runningfoodbaby
Health is #1 always. There will be other marathons and you will get that sub-3!
Rest up, figure out what is wrong and soon enough you will be back at it!
Megan K.
This brings tears to my eyes, Janae. I’m so sorry you have to miss your race. But more importantly I’m sorry you are feeling so sick! You helped me so much when I emailed you about a recent break up and I hope you’ll feel me returning the favor now by sending you lots of positive, happy vibes. Take care and you will be back out there rocking that sub-3 in no time!!
maggie
I am a regular reader of your blog, but have never commented until now. I wanted to tell you what a strong, amazing woman you are. It is such a tough and heart-breaking decision to cancel a run, but you absolutely have to respect your body. You will be back, healthy to do great things.
You are inspiring each day, and you will continue to be. Lots of thoughts and prayers headed your way.
Sam @ Grapefruit & Granola
I’m so sorry that you’re not feeling well. Hopefully the scope will give you some answers. Also, good for you to make that decision about not racing. I’m sure it’s disappointing but your health should be #1.
Tami Piland
You made the right call! Praying for you!
Katey
Your attitude is such an inspiration!! I’m glad that you are being wise about it and picking a different race. As one of your followers, I am so proud of you and hope you feel better soon!
Joy
Oh Janae, I’m so sorry for what you’re going through. But never worry about what your blog readers will think…we’ll do nothing but support you! Shiz certainly does happen, and I’m sorry it’s happening to you. You will be even stronger for your next marathon because of what you’re going through!
Suzy
Janae, you are one of the most inspiring people I know, and not so much because of how strong of a runner you are, but because of how strong your heart is. Hang in there, sisterfriend. We’re all in this together.
Annie R
Oh Janae, this post made me break out into tears. I’m so so sorry you’re so sick, my heart is completely broken for you. You are absolutely, 10000% doing the right thing and I’m so proud of you for being so strong and positive about it. I know it’s not easy. We’re all here for you.
rache
I don’t think you are disappointing your blog readers: you are impressing us with your maturity and your positivity, which makes you a very special runner :) We’re all rooting for you to get through this already. And – yes – the sub 3 will happen, when it’s supposed to. And my word, will it be worth the wait! :)
Patty
You made the best decision. Take care of your health, and besides your whole world attached to your leg giving big hugs. Getting better soon Janae. There is always another marathon, more training to do, but there is only one YOU
Maddi
I’ve been following your adventures for the last few months. You are an amazing person and athlete and your stories are interesting and sweet and inspiring. I’m so sorry to hear you are not well. I really hope you will soon feel a bit more ‘normal’ again. Health is the most important thing.
I know a bit how you feel. I had a scope a few weeks ago and have been diagnosed with UC. I’m still running but it is holding me back because I’m so tired all the time.
As for races missed: I missed the first fun-run I ever signed up for! The nerves were too much and in the end I thought: if something that is supposed to be fun makes me feel so crappy, I shouldn’t be doing it.
Years later, I signed up for a short, low-key Mother’s Day run and enjoyed it a lot. Since then I’ve ran many fun-runs, including the one that I didn’t do years ago. I love it!
Christy B.
I am so sorry you are having these health issues right before your marathon! I have loved reading your blog during your training. I know you will smash your goal at the next marathon you do!! Today I was sitting around feeling sorry for myself and your GREAT attitude helped me realize that shiz happens, and I too need to focus on the positive. I am signed up to run Detroit marathon in few weeks and training was going great until one week ago when I started having pain in my right leg. It has taken my running to a sudden halt. I have had 2 previous stress fractures in that leg, and this feels similar. Getting it checked out soon. Not sure if the marathon will happen or not. Super bummed! I am trying to remember that my bigger goal is having a good race at Boston in April. I simply can’t be injured for this. While my husband and I are trying to do a marathon in every state, Michigan is not one you have to qualify for, and the reality is I can easily do it another time. Again, hope you start feeling better real soon!
Ellie
I’m so sorry, Janae. I remember when I was getting diagnosed with Celiac… it was weeks of stomach pain, confusion, and doctors appointments and the whole thing is so discouraging. I’m so glad you’re putting your health first!
I actually just had to drop out of a race this week. I was going to do the Kansas City Marathon, but a week or so ago we found a mass in my lip and I got surgery earlier this week to remove it, which means lots of rest (so no training!) Still waiting on biopsy results, but I am bummed that I wont be racing KC!
Cassie
So sorry that you’re feeling so terrible! Prayers that the doctors find an answer to the problems you’re having so you can get back to your speedy self!
I think too often we put ourselves in the position where we (think we) might disappoint others, so we take steps that negatively impact us to make people proud…I’m pretty sure I speak for many others who totally respect your decision and thank you for being an example of a great mom and a strong woman by taking care of yourself first!
Jessica C
Hope the docs find some answers for you today! Thinking of you!
Gretchen | Gretchruns
I’m really proud of you for listening to your body and not doing the race just to do it. We only get one body so you have to respect it!! Races will always be there for you :) You must be really bummed right now..but the weather forecast looks awful so it wouldn’t be much fun anyway. Next race will be a lot better for you and increase your chances of getting that sub 3!! I hope you feel better soon and are back to your normal self as soon as possible. Sending good vibes your way!
Lisa Rafferty
I am praying for you! I’m also very very proud of how you’ve handled this whole experience. I love your bullet points and quotes – I completely agree all around. And yes, all of this will make that sub 3 even sweeter! Your blog followers love you!!!
Lisa
oh and that picture of Brooke’s face brought tears!
Dana
You’ve made a really smart decision. I’m so sorry to hear that you’ve been so sick, and I hope that you are back to yourself very soon. Your body will thank you for putting your health first and not running this race.
Rachel P
My thoughts and prayers are with you! I hope you are better soon!
Weekend plans are I don’t know.
Last movie ‘I hate Valentine’s Day’ ~ So funny
Going for a half marathon next month but my ankle said NO!
Hanna Gierzynska-Zalewska
I missed one marathon and an ultra because of my hip stress fracture. One thing I learnt for sure is what one of your friends told you: running will always be there. In your case it’s better to wait and nail that marathon when the time comes. Reading your blog I can assume your gut problems are stress related. Sending positive energies, take care.
Tedi @ Running With Infertility
I’m tearing up! I’m so sorry! I’m glad you have a good attitude (though I know when I post things on my blog I’m all positive, but I feel like crap inside still).
What are your weekend plans? – Going to Blanding for a funeral. :( Husband’s grandpa passed this past week.
Last movie you watched? Tomorrowland
Ever had to drop out of a race? Which one(s)? I’ve never dropped out of a race, though there are a few that I should have because I was injured and I still ran. :( It definitely was a bad decision!
Good luck this weekend! :)
Annette in GA
Many times it takes more strength to NOT run a race than to actually run it. I’m so sorry that you can’t run this weekend but I’m proud of you for knowing not to push yourself. It’s been fun to watch your training progress & you WILL get that sub-3. I’ll be thinking of you this weekend.
On a fun note- my 6 year old son has just discovered the perler beads & LOVES them. So fun!
Megan @ Skinny Fitalicious
Oh girl I’m sorry to hear you’re sick and kissing the race but you made the right call. Praying for you and a great outcome!
Lyndsey
So sorry janae! Don’t worry, you’ll come back stronger and crush that sub 3. Prayers for a speedy recovery.
Jen P
Just wanted to say I feel your pain–I have a similar situation of over two years of nonstop stress(divorce, eating disorder, BPD diagnosis, dad having a stroke, putting dog down etc…) and now I am dealing with the prospect of a 3rd surgery in 3 years (this time to repair torn cartilage in right hip)…so yeah no running and I’m bummed! We need to encourage each other to stay strong!
Jen
Best wishes in getting a good diagnosis and recovery plan together so you can feel well again! This is just going to make that sub-3 marathon that much sweeter when you’re healthy and able to tackle it. St. George this year just wasn’t meant to be. Kudos for being smart enough to put your health first. Take care.
emily
Your bravery in sharing your feelings and experiences has provided me with comfort, and I’m SURE others feel the same. Get well soon, Janae!
Leanne
Good luck with the scope today! I hope you get answers and start to feel better immediately!
I had to drop out of the inaugural Nike Women’s Half in DC. I was so bummed I trained to run it at or just under an 8 min pace and in the process hurt my knee. My Ortho would not clear me to run. It was the right decision, but at the time I was so sad.
We are having a Nor Easter today and tomorrow, so I plan to snuggle with my daughter, watch movies, read, and snack after school and dance tonight. We are also hopefully going to see our good friend and meet her new baby this weekend.
The last movie we watched was the people version of Cinderella (love it!) and I’m sure Harry Potter is in the plans for this weekend.
Sending lots of prayers and positive thoughts for your quick recovery!
Kim K.
you can and will get that sub-3. i commend you for being smart and putting your health first. like tina said, running will be there for you whenever you are healthy. thoughts and prayers your GI dr will find out what’s wrong and make you all better. (i DNS a half last year due to recurring back spasms. i wound up quitting my coach and running for 6 months until my chronic lower back pain was better. now i am faster than ever.)
Kim K.
oh, forgot to mention that i also have ulcerative colitis, so i can relate to your GI issues. SHIZ happens :(
Jennifer
Hug and prayers for healing sent your way!! You are such an inspiration to so many!! Even in times of adversity, you handle it so well!!
Jenni
The world keeps spinning on! I know this really sucks – I feel your pain (although in a very different situation (I haven’t ran for 3 months and we’re not sure what the injury is :( ).
You are so strong and I want to say a big Thank You for being responsible and sending this message to all of your readers and runners alike.
Remember Janae – you are not loved because you are a runner. You are Loved because you are YOU. x
Angela
I had your exact illness back in May. Had the scope, did bloodwork, etc.. No ulcer, no gastritis. There was a big decision looming over me (stress) that I was trying to pretend was no big deal, and as soon as I resolved the issue, boom, my symptoms went completely away. It truly was an extreme stress reaction. I don’t know if that helps, but I’m praying for you today, and that you get some answers!
megan
Yes! After rehabbing a broken shoulder (late Oct 2014) so I could train for Boston this year I gave myself plantar faciitis and had to bail…hit the alter g treadmill…and continue to live at my pt’s office. My big goal for the year was to complete my first Ironman..with the love of my life…in september…and I had the best weekend of my life. I’m still dealing with pf (ugggggghhhhhhh) but when a sports medicine pod at mayo told me that if I chose to run Boston either my fascia would tear or I’d end up with stress fractures in my femur or pelvis from altering my stride, I reminded myself that I am a 37 year old mother if a multi handicapped wonder boy who needs a strong (not broken) mom…it was the right call…but I’m still sad about it. Hang – in there and secure the next dream!
Laura @ This Runner's Recipes
Sending you hugs and prayers! That must be so frustrating but you made the right choice for your body and your goals. You set such a good example for all of us by listening to your body, seeking a solution, and not pushing yourself too far for just one race. I really hope working with the doctors helps and gets rid of your pain as soon as possible. I’m glad you already have a new race – so exciting! Things happen for a reason (as cliche as it sounds) and hopefully all of this will lead to you being stronger and healthier!
tess
Chicago this year. My friend is having to run it alone. I got to defer until next year but then I’ll probably be running it alone and still I’m disappointed. I held on and kept thinking I’d get to run but those Achilles..they were determined.
Feel better. I would say you made the right choice but it really sounds like you didn’t even have a choice. So sorry. Can’t wait to hear that you are up and around again and what the good news is for your next adventure. :)
Jenny
You’re being super positive about it. That’s awesome! I hope you’ll feel better soon and be able to start running again. At least it’s conference weekend and you can get spiritually fed even if you’re only eating rice right now.
tam
Last movie I watched: Meru (outstanding!).
I absolutely empathize with your cancelled marathon, Janae. Last summer I was three weeks out from running a marathon; I was at the end of my last long run and felt a strange sensation in my hip area. It continued and I had to skip the marathon. It’s heartbreaking when you’ve been looking forward to it so much and your body is feeling really ready. You’re absolutely right, though–you’ll come back so completely strong and ready to run that sub-3 marathon!
All my very best to you and your healing process…
Brie @ Lean, Clean, & Brie
I am so sorry you are still not feeling well. Hopefully things will get better each day! <3 It's such a great reminder to remember that running will always be there for you when you are ready to go back to it.
Angie Welder
Oh Janae I’m so sorry!!! You have the right perspective but I know just how hard this is. I trained my butt of last year for a sub 3 at stg but tummy issues during the race had a different idea and I ended running a 3:12. Discouraged, but not deflated, I signed up for the Tuscon marathon December 7, determined to meet my goal. 3 weeks before that race I developed Achilles tendinitis and had to bow out. It’s so hard to be so close and then just watch it all go by. But you WILL overcome and get that sub 3. You are so tough-mentally and physically. I’ll be thinking of you…
stephanie
i hope your scope gives you some answers. you are forgetting one huge stressor in your life. Its good stress, but still marathon training, and at such high intensity is a huge stress on your body. you may have to prepare for flare ups of problems during racing season from now on… thats what i have to do with my colitis
Elizabeth
I just want you to know that you are a huge motivation to me!! Your positive attitude really has helped me…I look forward to reading your blog every day. You remind me why I love running so much and you are right….running will always be there for you. My dad always says that…and after being injured most of last year, it is so very true!! Hang in there….that sub 3 will happen in God’s time for you!
Laura
So sorry about your health, but you are doing the right thing. If it makes you feel better about missing one race, I broke my ankle at a race this summer and have missed 5 races I signed up for….including CIM. You will get back out there and be better than ever. Take care!
Sara
I think you said it best, Janae: when you’re training because you love to run, even if you don’t get to race, you’ve gained so very much. I’ve had to console myself with these same thoughts these last weeks after developing a stress fracture in my tibia — the first I’ve ever had in 20+ years of running, which forced me to pull out of a much-anticipated October marathon in Oregon. But there will be other races, and like you, I love running so much that the training is its own reward. And as for your readers, you’re simply providing more narrative suspense by pushing the sub-3-hr goal into the future. Don’t feel a bit bad about letting us down. So many of us are cheering for you, and learning from your example. Sending healing vibes!
Cathy
It sure sounds like you did the right thing. Sometimes it takes a lot of courage to do the right thing! I hope that you start to feel better soon. I can’t wait to hear about plan B. You WILL get that sub-3 when the time is right! I continue to learn so much about running from following your blog – thanks for sharing not only the good stuff but the difficult stuff as well.
Jill
I’m so sorry you won’t be able to race this weekend. I’m nursing an injury right now and can’t do my beloved Crossfit Workouts so I understand a little how you feel.
Take care of yourself – get better – so you can kill that race in a couple weeks.
Gabi
Janae, I read your blog (it is fantastic!) almost every day, but I rarely comment.
I’m one of those slow runners from the back pack and your performance inspires me.
So far I had to cancel three marathons with an achy heart, nut nevertheless, health must come first!
Recover, heal and eventually you WILL get that sub 3!
Love,
Gabrielle
Megan R.
Awhh, I got all teary-eyed reading this. There will be another race and you aren’t going to lose all your training! Just think of it as 20-24 week marathon training plan. Even if it’s more time than that, running will always be there when you are healthy again! Some of the best running I ever did was from taking off 3 weeks after a car accident during marathon training. My body rested up and I came back more healed and stronger than before the crash.
Thanks for being so honest about your experience, you’re really an inspiration!!
Angela @ Witty Aspirations
Stress does horrible things to our bodies and spirit. Often times we keep going thinking it’ll help us overcome. But it always comes out. One way or another. Thanks for being honest with us. We can ALL relate to things not going as planned. :)
Weekend plans: My daughter is going to her first Homecoming dance and also has her first date! Our foster puppies get to go outside for the first time starting Saturday. Fingers crossed it goes well and potty training can commence!
Hayley C
Ugh Janae I am so, so sorry. I’m dropping out of Chicago next weekend and am totally devastated- just found out yesterday I have a medial tibial stress fracture and running is virtually impossible right now. I know I’m making the right choice but it definitely is not an easy decision! This post was just what I needed today, sometimes you feel like you’re the only one who gets injured or sick, but it happens to all of us. Wishing you lots of good vibes and hope you’re better soon!
Cassie
So sorry to hear that you cannot race, Janae, but you are absolutely doing the right thing. What an example you are setting for your daughter! You worked hard, fought until the end, but ultimately your health, and well-being, and keeping your body as healthy as possible so you can be the best mama to your little girl is priority. As a reader who has struggled with “letting go” and listening to my body, this is an incredible message for me, and likely many others. I hope that you begin to feel better soon, and wish you a speedy recovery and that you find the answers you are looking for xo
Krista
You definitely made the right decision. We (your blog readers) will always support you!! You know whats best for you better than any of us. I had GI problems a couple years ago and I know it can be very frustrating.. and you just want to get it over with and fixed. You’ll be there soon. All that matters is a healthy and happy life !!! :)
P.s. Have you talked to Tina at Carrots N Cake?? She has serious IBS issues and might be a really great source for you!!
Monica
I don’t think I’ve ever commented before but I just wanted to let you know how sorry I am that you’re missing something you’ve worked so hard to achieve! I’m so impressed with your balance of disappointment, optimism, perspective and the grace you’re giving to your body. Also, I’m so glad you have a snuggle partner! We’re having a sick day in our house, too, and my two year old and seven week old sniffle buddies are making it not quite as awful. I’ll be praying for wisdom for your doctors and healing for your stomach!
PantsuitsMom
Janae,
I am so sorry you won’t be able to run your marathon tomorrow. I can only imagine how hard that decision was and the ensuing turmoil. However, I am so INCREDIBLY proud of you for NOT running. I am happy to be following your blog and you not risking running it because of what your readers might think. Your health is so important and you are doing all the right things. Thank you for being honest, thank you for being responsible and sharing with us all that with “shiz happens”, you are taking care of yourself.
Many prayers for you and for your mom (I’m glad to see her recovery is going well)!
Bridget Bergstrom
So sorry to hear this! Get better fast! You’ll get that sub 3.
Running Twin Cities on Sunday and it’s been so great following your blog and even though I’m not as speedy as you I can totally relate to many of the posts. Hang in there. Bridget
Lora @ Crazy Running Girl
xoxo!!! I had to DNS a race a few years ago (goal marathon race, too) and it was the worst feeling in the world, mostly because I felt like I was letting everyone else down. Once I got over that, I felt a lot more at peace about the decision. There will ALWAYS be more races, but you only get one body and you need to take care of that first! I know you will only come back stronger and better and hope the doctor can figure out what’s going on.
Lindsey
Thinking of you Janelle! You are one of the most inspiring ladies I have “known.” I read your blog religiously because your positive attitude, incredible running, and ability to be real is so refreshing and inspiring. You will get through this AND you will come out in a better place because of it.
Emily
Hope you get well really soon! Having gone through a tough divorce over the last two years, I know what it can do you mentally and physically. Running and following you has helped me. You made the right call not to run. :)
Jess W. @ Run Life Co.
So sorry to hear about your sickness and not being able to run this weekend, but you’re definitely making the right decision! It is DEFINITELY not worth putting yourself through all that when your heart and body aren’t in it. Like you said, running will always be there when you’re ready and there will ALWAYS be more races! As a reader, it’s kind of a relief to hear that you aren’t going to run on Saturday in your current situation. We all stand behind your decision, and you’re exactly right – you’re setting a great example for all of us runners!! :)
Kathy
I am so sorry but seriously so impressed with your strength to not try to run this race. In the end it is the best thing you can do. You are strong and you will get through this and then you will kill that sub 3:00 marathon! Hang in there!!
Kelli at Not Your Mama's Marathon
Janae!! I am so sorry to hear that you won’t be racing, I know how heartbreaking that can be. I was on track for my first BQ a few weeks ago and had to quit at mile 16 due to calf injury. Good thing I did because my PT said my achilles could have torn too, if I hadn’t stopped! Sometimes putting things off for you health is MUCH better than accomplishing a goal. The goal will still be there and you are on the right track for the sub 3!
Weekend plans are General Conference in a cabin in the Adirondacks :)
Last movie I watched was Best Exotic Marigold Hotel and it was adorable.
Jessie
Giant hugs. You made the right call. Just concentrate on getting better and loving that little girl.
Rachael @ Catch Me if You Can
i loved 101 dalmations growing up, such a good story. brooke really loves dogs if you have seen that movie so much. im so sorry to hear about your struggles but its so much better to listen to the dr and your body because seriously rice and broth forever does not a healthy body make. get better soon!!!! i know you will rock your replacement race!!!
Courtney
So so sorry! Injuries totally bite. I’ve been out of the game since the end of 2014 with extreme Plantar Fasciitis, and actually had surgery for it at the end of August. So I basically haven’t ran all year, and it’s not fun. I’ve had to miss all of the races I signed up for this year. I get super bummed about it a lot, but like you said, I know that running will always be there. When I’m healed I’ll get back at it. Praying for you, Janae!
Leah
I can’t imagine the pressure you have put yourself under. I know the pressure I put on myself to run well and get the training in. Sometimes it is just TOO much. I feel like I HAVE to get everyone run in. With you having thousands of followers it has to be A LOT of pressure. Also to advertise your goal time is a lot of pressure. All of this pressure can stress your body out. Please know that it is perfectly okay that you are not running the marathon. You are a mother, sister, writer, and so many other wonderful things. Running is just something you do. We CANNOT let running control us. I am constantly struggling with this. Take care and get healthy!
Kelly
Your positive attitude is inspiring! I know that it’s hard to imagine now, but this little setback will make your sub-3 be that much sweeter. You’ve got this!
Todd
The Big Gun is always right (Elder Holland)! There is always another race. Smart choice!
Annette
I cannot even imagine the frustration you must be going through right now but at the end of the day it is just a race and there will be many more to come where you will nail that sub 3. Your health is obviously the most important and I hope you recover quickly and everything turns out well – I always remind myself that the most important thing to have in this life (other than my faith) is my health and the health of those I love. God bless – I hope you feel better soon!
Stefanie
I am so sorry you are going through this! :( I also could not agree more with all the optimistic ways you have viewed this set-back. Life throws these challenges our way that are bad timing and don’t make sense but they really do make us stronger and build us more than break us down. Stress can have a HUGE role in stomach issues, especially what you are experiencing. I know stress can cause ulcers, and having experiences gastritis for months before in my life, I know how much the discomfort & pain can hurt and frustrate you. This too shall pass. Stay strong Janae! <3
Amanda
Hi!
I have never commented before but I have been following you for a while. Sounds kinda creepy I know. I wanted to share my stomach issues/resolutions I went through and how I got back into running with no problems. I was diagnosed with celiac disease and cutting all gluten out of my diet I returned to normal. A few months ago I started waking up in the middle of the night with horrible cramps and D. Also throughout the day I had horrible nausea to the point I felt sick everytime I ate. This made me lose weight and was way too weak to run. The cramps waking me up would happen every week, sometimes twice a week. My gastroenterolist could not find out the problem. Having a history of anxiety I decided to be put on anxiety meds and they have helped tremendously. I have not had that problem since. I am not saying this is your issue by any means but something to consider if your gastro finds nothing wrong and are going through a stressful time. Good luck to you and you will be back running strong in no time!!
Elizabeth
Hi Janae! I have been a reader for some time now, and have never commented, but I wanted to send you a big virtual hug. I can’t imagine how tough this is. I have so enjoyed following your training, and feel wholly confident that you will get that sub-3 when the time is right. Your positive attitude and ability to focus on the small bright twinkles in every day life always puts a smile on my face, and on the faces of your readers, I’m certain. How you handle the tough stuff is a testament to your strength and resilience. Rest and take care of yourself. We will all be waiting for you to dominate your next race. Keep on keepin on sister!
Jackie
I am happy to read that you are going to rest your body. I know you made the right decision but it wasn’t easy. I’m sorry you are having to go thru all this. Maybe a nice marathon in Sacramento in December will be your sub-3 hours!
Nicole@TheGirlWhoRanEverywhere
I’m so very sad for you. Sending you hugs and good thoughts. I know that you have a new race lined up and I hope that little thought keeps you strong! You’ve had the most incredible training session-seriously you rocked it! As always-I’m very impressed with your attitude and constant positivity. You WILL get that sub 4-I KNOW it!
Nicole@TheGirlWhoRanEverywhere
sub 3, whoops!!
Kelly
Aw, Janae, I’m so so so sorry. I had to sit out my very last collegiate XC race. I’d been dealing with a really bad tendon injury that had kept me out for months at a time over the previous few years, and in my senior season I fought back to make the team for regionals. Then the week of the race the injury flared up again. Hard to express the disappointment of missing something you’ve worked so hard for. Your attitude is really inspiring though!
Erin
Sending some healing vibes your way!
I had to drop out of my first marathon mid-training for a hip injury and was crushed! It wasn’t until my PT told me I injured myself because my support muscles were too weak to support my running load that I realized that my body wasn’t ready for the strain I was putting on it. Hours of hip strengthening and ab exercises later and I’m gearing up for my second marathon after my first injury-free training cycle! Feel better soon and always remember that your body knows best!
Laura
I went through 9 months of pain and testing before I finally went under for the GI tests. I really hope you get answers–if you don’t keep pressing. IBS doesn’t really tell you that much. If that’s all that they can conclude, try food-elimination to see if you have any intolerances.
Also Essential Enzymes have really really helped–even more than Bentyl or whatever they prescribe.
Kathi
My heart is broken for you BUT I’m very impressed at your maturity and big-picture thinking. I think that this will end up being a very proud moment when you look back it (eventually!), even if it is just so so so hard right now.
My heart broke a little when I read the bullet point about feeling like what would your readers think. Honey, we LOVE you and we SUPPORT you and we have no expectations. When we read that you’re not going to race I personally felt empathetic, not judgmental. I’m glad you made a decision based off of what is best for you. And it’s nice that it’s a great example of listening to your body and being responsible.
Take care of yourself and know we’ve got your back. :)
Heidi
Runners can for sure put their bodies through some tough stuff. LOVE seeing you make a smart decision, even though its not the happiest of decisions. Such a great example to many! Take care of yourself. I see from all the comments your blog readers are proud of you!
valerie
-Before seeing the doctor I kept worrying about ‘what will my blog readers think if I don’t race’ and then I realized it would be irresponsible for me TO race. I would be a bad example to put a race above my health and I won’t do that.
running is fun/great and it’s how i found your blog, but i havent done it much lately. we come to read about you and your life and running is an added bonus. we’re here for you and want the best for you, to be healthy and happy :)
Lisa @ Lisa the Vegetarian
Thinking about you! You’re making the right decision for yourself and your body. I hope your test goes smoothly today and that they get to the bottom of this problem. Take care of yourself.
Kaitlin
Janae, I hope you feel better soon!! Any sort of stomach illness is the worst. You’ll get well and smash your goal next race. Your perspective has really helped me lately. I’m racing a half next weekend, but I’ve been so tired and bummed lately. Trying to work on my positive attitude and focus on the days that went well to make me stronger. You go girl. You’re inspiring to all of us!
cheers, xox!
Laura
Oh, I am so sorry this had to happen now, of all times! You have such a positive attitude and I really admire your perspective, although I have no doubt you are really disappointed. But…you are going to kill your goal time in the next marathon for certain!!!
Hope you feel better very soon.
Courtney
You don’t need health advice from a stranger on the Internet, so I’m just going to send you best wishes to start feeling better soon, and to get back on your game to achieve that goal you’ve been working so hard to achieve!
Hang in there, your readers support you no matter what.
Teresa
You Rock!!!!!!!! You aren’t letting anyone down. Brooke needs a healthy mom and you are setting a great example. You may be letting people down if you did attempt to run with a body that isn’t properly fueled and worn down from an illness. Hang in there. We are all pulling for you!