Something that I was worried about before I got pregnant was how I would deal with gaining weight. Luckily I have felt really great most of the time but I am a girl, hormones are real and every now and then we just don’t feel good about ourselves. The good news is I have only had 3 major meltdowns which is a lot better than I thought I would do. That first trimester is always tough because people have no idea that you are pregnant and just think you are gaining weight for no reason. Plus, when you throw in crazy amounts of hormones and crying over everything, I am proud that I have only had 3 meltdowns (1 to my mom, 1 to billy and 1 to my doctor). The biggest one was when my doctor accidentally said my weight (remember I am not weighing myself when pregnant because numbers make me crazy) and the number was more than what Billy weighs. I started bawling because I passed up my husband, for some reason that really bothered me.
Being pregnant is hard, there is no doubt about it but there have been 4 things that have helped me the most when it comes to dealing with my body changing.
1. The excitement of the baby. It makes pregnancy a lot easier when you know that you have the best reward in the end and it is all you can think about. Since the day I found out I was pregnant I wanted to do whatever I could for her to make sure that she is healthy. When I realize how important her health is it makes me feel ridiculous for ever worrying about gaining weight or the fact that I now need 3 sports bras. Knowing that if I want her to be healthy then I have to put on the right amount of weight and listen to what my doctors say about exercise, weight and nutrition.
2. Getting ready. The pictures I put up on the blog are taken when I have make-up on and decide to put on something other than running shorts but 90% of the time I am sitting on the couch in pjs and no make-up. It is amazing how much better I feel about myself when I put on makeup and do my hair. Yes, I am shallow but you can’t say that getting ready doesn’t make you feel better too. Little things like painting my nails or attempting to shave my legs (even though I fall over in the shower every time I try) has really helped me to feel good during this time.
3. Running. This has been huge for me. For a few miles each day I feel like myself again. I feel confident. All 3 meltdowns that I have had regarding my body (don’t ask how many other meltdowns I have had about other things in the last 35 weeks) occurred on days I didn’t run. Running really helps me to realize how amazing my body is rather than feeling like I am not good enough.
4. My sister has been an awesome example to me. After each of her three kids she was able to get back into shape and over the years she has actually gotten faster and stronger! This helps me realize that it is only 40 weeks and before you know it I will be getting back to normal slowly but surely.
Billy impersonating me:
The biggest guilt that I have had throughout my pregnancy when it comes to nutrition is the fact that I felt like I ate so much healthier before I was pregnant. I feel bad that I don’t eat as many veggies as I should or that Kraft Macaroni is the base of my food pyramid. I wish that I felt like healthy foods more often so that I could give her better nutrition. I just have to remember that nobody is perfect and that I am doing the best that I can do.
Was it hard for you during pregnancy to gain weight and seeing your body changed big time?
Did you ever feel guilty for not eating healthier when you were pregnant?