50 minute spin class followed by an ABS class. Holy cow….from my hips to my shoulders I feel like I was run over by a semi and then trampled by a herd of antelope. I didn’t know it was possible to get so sore from doing a short abs class. Pretty sure she had us do a 5 minute plank with a weight on our back, the tears were shed in the form of beads of sweat dropping from my forehead onto the mat (I am sorry to whoever uses that mat after me).
I am a control freak.
Whether it is in the form of controlling my daily schedule to the T, what I eat, what time I go to bed, when and how I exercise, the numbers on my Garmin or treadmill, my classroom, the future, money, relationships…..you name it, I love to have control over knowing EXACTLY what is going to happen and that it is according to my time frame.
Plot Thickens: I have no control over my leg right now and it has been DRIVING ME INSANE. I can’t figure out what my pace will be for Boston, what races I am going to be signing up for this summer, how many miles I run a week (zero right now) and most of all WHEN it is going to stop hurting.
I am doing everything I can do get back out on the road but that is ALL I CAN DO.
This morning as I was driving to school and getting frustrated that my leg wasn’t paying attention to my race schedule or the fact that I have dreamed every night about Boston for the past 6 months and that it should be getting better according to MY TIME, I had an ah-ha moment (any Oprah fans out there?).
There is nothing I can do about it so I just gotta sit back and let the Big Guy upstairs decide what is best for me. I have no control over this and I need to just learn to be okay with that.
Time to sit back, eat as many swedish fish and skittles as I can and enjoy the ride, people and little things in my life that make me HAPPY.
There is no use in wasting my time, energy and happiness worrying about something that is COMPLETELY out of my control.
I hope you aren’t too sick of hearing about my lamesauce problem but writing about it helps me to remember the things I am learning and I know A LOT of you have been in my shoes or are dealing with an injury or lack of control somewhere in your life right now.
P.S. My brother that lives in Kentucky called me yesterday with big news. He said, “Guess what Janae……Boston just came out and announced that they are going to do the marathon again next year, and the year after that and the year after that:)” It was good to remember that of course I am going to try my hardest and do my best but I have many more Boston’s ahead of me.
Are you a control freak? What things do you have to be in control of?
-Yep, but I am learning that I can’t control everything and that is OKAY!!!! Time to let go:)
Do you like Oprah?
-LOVE her but no tv=no Oprah, when will they put her on Hulu?
Have you ever been to an abs class? How did you feel after?
-This was my first total abs class and I had to do a serious post today because it hurts to laugh and when I try to be funny I end up laughing as I am writing.