To say that it felt like a 4,000 lb weight was lifted off of my chest once my divorce was finalized would be an understatement.
I won’t ever talk about the reason why I got divorced on the blog (because I don’t want Brooke to ever be able to read about it on the internet… I would rather talk to her about it when she is old enough) but what happened shook my world, I felt like I was hit by a train (or 30 of them) and I made the decision without any hesitation in about 12 seconds to leave. I filed for divorce and at the time I thought that it would just take a few months and that the process would be fairly simple so that I could really just focus on healing. Nope.
It was exhausting, it took a lot of time (11.8 months), a lot of money and I’m just so grateful it is done.
I think one of the weirdest things about going through a divorce was going from one day he was my husband/partner/bf to the next day absolutely NOTHING and only communicating with him via lawyers. Weird.
The most important thing about the whole situation is that we both will never say anything hurtful about the other person in front of Brooke. There is no need for revenge or hurting the other person. I am happy to say that I regret nothing about how I handled the divorce even though there were many times that I wanted to freak out a little bit. I am going to go ahead and give myself a gold star now. I just knew that it wouldn’t be worth it and that I had to keep it together for Brooke’s sake.
My biggest wish is that brooke will know that even though mom and dad had problems, Brooke and dad DID NOT/DO NOT have problems. I want her to know that I think her relationship with her dad is extremely important and I will always support their relationship and them spending time together.
Time for a fresh new start.
And some more beach time because it is my happy place.
And then the wave ate me.
Breakfast of champions. Greek yogurt, pb, fruit and my new favorite flavor of Naked juice.
Yes, I did choose to go to Panera for dinner last night. We don’t have them in Utah so it is pretty fancy to me when I get to go.
And one of the best shows to end the night.
Winner of the Brooks outfit for their running inspiration is:
Anyone been through a divorce (or affected directly by a divorce)… if you feel comfortable—> how did it go for you?
Favorite beach that you have ever been through!?
What do you order at Panera?